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IaskedtheLord:"Sire,isthistrueWhichhostsoftheologianshold,ThatwhenwecreaturescensureyouForshapinggriefsandailsuntold(Deemingthempunishmentsundue)

Yourage,asMoseswroteofold?

Whenweexclaim:’BeneficentHeisnot,forheorderspain,Or,ifso,notomnipotent:

Toamerechildthethingisplain!’

ThosewhoprofesstorepresentYou,cryout:’Impiousandprofane!’"

He:"Savemefrommyfriends,whodeemThatIcarewhatmycreaturessay!

Mouthasyoulist:sneer,rail,blaspheme,Omanikin,thelivelongday,Notonegrief-groanorpleasure-gleamWillyouincreaseortakeaway。

"Whythingsarethus,whosoderides,Maywellremainmysecretstill……

Afourthdimension,saytheguides,Tomatterisconceivable。

ThinksomesuchmysteryresidesWithintheethicofmywill。"

BYTHEBARROWS

NotfarfromMellstock——sotraditionsaith-

Wherebarrows,bulgingastheybosomswereOfMultimammiastretchedsupinelythere,Catchnightandnoonthetempest’swantonbreath,Abattle,desperatedoubtlessuntodeath,Wasonetimefought。Theoutlook,loneandbare,Thetoweringhawkandpassingravenshare,Andalltheuplandroundiscalled"TheHe’th。"

Hereonceawoman,inourmodernage,Foughtsinglehandedlytoshieldachild-

Onenotherown——fromaman’ssenselessrage。

Andtomymindnopatriots’bonestherepiledSoconsecratethesilenceasherdeedOfstoicanddevotedself-unheed。

AWIFEANDANOTHER

"Warends,andhe’sreturningEarly;yea,Theeveningnextto-morrow’s!"-

——ThisIsayToher,whomIsuspiciouslysurvey,Holdingmyhusband’sletterToherview-

Sheglancedatitbutlightly,AndIknewThatonefromhimthatdayhadreachedhertoo。

Therewasnotimeforscruple;

SecretlyIfilchedhermissive,connedit,LearntthatheWouldlodgewithhererehecamehometome。

Toreachtheportbeforeher,And,unscanned,TherewaittointerceptthemSoonIplanned:

That,inherstead,_I_mightbeforehimstand。

Sopurposed,soeffected;

AttheinnAssigned,Ifoundherhidden:-

OthatsinShouldbearwhatsheborewhenIenteredin!

HerheavylidsgrewladenWithdespairs,HerlipsmadesoundlessmovementsUnawares,WhileIpeeredatthechamberhiredastheirs。

Andasbesideitsdoorway,Deadlyhued,Oneinside,onewithoutsideWetwostood,Hecame——myhusband——assheknewhewould。

NopleasurabletriumphWasthatsight!

TheghastlydisappointmentBrokethemquite。

Whatlovewastheirs,tomovethemwithsuchmight!

"Madam,forgiveme!"saidshe,Sorrowbent,"Achild——Isoonshallbearhim……

Yes——ImeantTotellyou——thathewonmeerehewent。"

Then,asitwere,withinmeSomethingsnapped,Asifmysoulhadlargened:

Conscience-capped,Isawmyselfthesnarer——themthetrapped。

"Myhatedies,andIpromise,Grace-beguiled,"

Isaid,"tocareforyou,beReconciled;

Andcherish,andtakeinterestinthechild。"

WithoutmorewordsIpressedhimThroughthedoorWithinwhichshestood,powerlessTosaymore,Andcloseditonthem,anddownstairwardbore。

"Hejoinshiswife——mysister,"

I,below,Remarkedingoing——lightly-

EvenasthoughAllhadcomeright,andwehadarrangeditso……

AsI,myroadretracing,Leftthemfree,ThenightaloneembracingChildlessme,IheldIhadnotstirredGodwrothfully。

THEROMANROAD

TheRomanRoadrunsstraightandbareAsthepaleparting-lineinhairAcrosstheheath。AndthoughtfulmenContrastitsdaysofNowandThen,Anddelve,andmeasure,andcompare;

VisioningonthevacantairHelmedlegionaries,whoproudlyrearTheEagle,astheypaceagainTheRomanRoad。

Butnotallbrass-helmedlegionnaireHauntsitforme。UprisesthereAmother’sformuponmyken,Guidingmyinfantsteps,aswhenWewalkedthatancientthoroughfare,TheRomanRoad。

THEVAMPIRINEFAIR

GilberthadsailedtoIndia’sshore,AndIwasallalone:

MylordcameinatmyopendoorAndsaid,"Ofairestone!"

Heleantupontheslantbureau,Andsighed,"Iamsickforthee!"

"Mylord,"saidI,"prayspeaknotso,SinceweddedwifeIbe。"

Leaningupontheslantbureau,Bitterhisnextwordscame:

"SomuchIknow;andlikewiseknowMyloveburnsonthesame!

"Butsinceyouthrustmyloveaway,Andsinceitknowsnocure,ImustliveoutasbestImayTheachethatIendure。"

WhenMichaelmasbrownedthenetherCoomb,AndWingreenHillabove,Andmadethehollyhocksragsofbloom,Mylordgrewilloflove。

Mylordgrewillwithloveforme;

Gilbertwasfarfromport;

And——soitwas——thattimedidseeMehousedatManorCourt。

AboutthebowersofManorCourtTheprimrosepusheditsheadWhen,onadayatlast,reportArrivedofhimIhadwed。

"Gilbert,mylord,ishomewardbound,Hissloopisdrawingnear,WhatshallIdowhenIamfoundNotinhishousebuthere?"

"OIwillhealtheinjuriesI’vedonetohimandthee。

I’llgivehimmeanstoliveateaseAfarfromShastonb’ry。"

WhenGilbertcamewebothtookthought:

"Sincecomfortandgoodcheer,"

Saidhe,"Soreadilyarebought,He’swelcometothee,Dear。"

SowhenmylordflungliberallyHisgoldinGilbert’shands,IcoaxedandgotmybrothersthreeMadestewardsofhislands。

AndthenIcoaxedhimtoinstallMyotherkithandkin,WithaimtobenefitthemallBeforehisloveranthin。

AndnextIcravedtobepossessedOfplateandjewelsrare。

Hegroaned:"Yougiveme,Love,norest,Takeallthelawwillspare!"

AndsoincourseofyearsmywealthBecameagoodlyhoard,Mystewardbrethren,too,bystealthHadeachafortunestored。

Thereafterinthegloomhe’dwalk,AndbyandbybeganTosayaloudinabsenttalk,"Iamaruinedman!-

"Ihardlycouldhavethought,"hesaid,"WhenfirstIlookedonthee,Thatonesosoft,sorosyred,Couldthushavebeggaredme!"

Seeinghisfairestatesinpawn,Andhiminsuchdecline,IknewthathisdomainhadgoneToliftupmeandmine。

NextmonthuponaSundaymornAgunshotsoundednigh:

ByhisownhandmylordlybornHaddoomedhimselftodie。

"Live,mydearlord,andmuchofthineShallberestoredtothee!"

Hesmiled,andsaid’twixtwordandsign,"Alas——thatcannotbe!"

AndwhileIsearchedhiscabinetForletters,keys,orwill,’TwastouchingthathisgazewassetWithloveuponmestill。

AndwhenIburnteachdocumentBeforehisdyingeyes,’TwassweetthathedidnotresentMyfearofcompromise。

Thesteeple-cockgleamedgoldenwhenIwatchedhisspiritgo:

AndIbecamerepentantthenThatIhadwreckedhimso。

Threeweeksatleasthadcomeandgone,Withmanyasaddenedword,BeforeIwrotetoGilbertonThestrokethatsohadstirred。

Andhavingwornamournfulgown,Ijoined,indecentwhile,MyhusbandatadashingtownToliveindashingstyle。

YetthoughInowenjoymyfling,Anddineanddanceanddrive,I’dgivemyprettiestemeraldringToseemylordalive。

Andwhenthemeetonhunting-daysIsnearhischurchyardhome,IleavemybanteringbeauxtoplaceAfloweruponhistomb;

Andsometimessay:"PerhapstoolateThesaintsinHeavendeploreThattendertimewhen,movedbyFate,Hedarkedmycottagedoor。"

THEREMINDER

I

WhileIwatchtheChristmasblazePainttheroomwithruddyrays,SomethingmakesmyvisionglideTothefrostysceneoutside。

There,toreacharottingberry,Toilsathrush,——constrainedtoveryDregsoffoodbysharpdistress,Takingsuchwiththankfulness。

Why,Ostarvingbird,whenI

Oneday’sjoywouldjustify,Andputmiseryoutofview,Doyoumakemenoticeyou!

THERAMBLER

Idonotseethehillsaround,Normarkthetintsthecopseswear;

IdonotnotethegrassygroundAndconstellateddaisiesthere。

IhearnotthecontraltonoteOfcuckooshidoneitherhand,Thewhirrthatshakesthenighthawk’sthroatWheneve’sbrownawninghoodstheland。

Somesayeachsongster,tree,andmead-

Alleloquentoflovedivine-

Receivestheirconstantcarefulheed:

Suchkeenappraisementisnotmine。

ThetonesaroundmethatIhear,Theaspects,meanings,shapesIsee,Arethosefarbackonesmissedwhennear,Andnowperceivedtoolatebyme!

NIGHTINTHEOLDHOME

Whenthewastingembersreddenthechimney-breast,AndLife’sbarepathwayloomslikeadeserttracktome,Andfromhallandparlourthelivinghavegonetotheirrest,Myperishedpeoplewhohousedthemherecomebacktome。

Theycomeandseatthemaroundintheirmouldyplaces,Nowandthenbendingtowardsmeaglanceofwistfulness,Astrangeupbraidingsmileuponalltheirfaces,Andinthebearingofeachapassivetristfulness。

"Doyouupholdme,lingeringandlanguishinghere,Apalelateplantofyouroncestrongstock?"Isaytothem;

"AthinkerofcrookedthoughtsuponLifeinthesere,AndonThatwhichconsignsmentonightaftershowingthedaytothem?"

"——OletbetheWherefore!Wefeveredouryearsnotthus:

TakeofLifewhatitgrants,withoutquestion!"theyanswermeseemingly。

"Enjoy,suffer,wait:spreadthetableherefreelylikeus,And,satisfied,placid,unfretting,watchTimeawaybeamingly!"

AFTERTHELASTBREATH

(J。H。1813-1904)

There’snomoretobedone,orfeared,orhoped;

Nonenowneedwatch,speaklow,andlist,andtire;

Noirksomecreaseoutsmoothed,nopillowslopedDoessherequire。

Blanklywegaze。Wearefreetogoorstay;

Ourmorrow’sanxiousplanshavemissedtheiraim;

Whetherweleaveto-nightorwaittilldayCountsasthesame。

TheletteredvesselsofmedicamentsSeemaskingwhereforewehavesetthemhere;

EachpalliativeitssillyfacepresentsAsuselessgear。

Andyetwefeelthatsomethingsavourswell;

Wenoteanumbreliefwithheldbefore;

Ourwell-belovedisprisonerinthecellOfTimenomore。

WeseebylittlesnowthedeftachievementWherebyshehasescapedtheWrongersall,InviewofwhichourmomentarybereavementOutshapesbutsmall。

1904。

INCHILDBED

InthemiddleofthenightMother’sspiritcameandspoketome,Lookingwearifulandwhite-

As’twereuntimelynewsshebroketome。

"Omydaughter,joyedareyouToowntheweetlesschildyoumotherthere;

’Menmaysearchthewideworldthrough,’

Youthink,’norfindsofairanotherthere!’

"Dear,thismidnighttimeunwombsThousandsjustasrareandbeautiful;

ThousandswhomHighHeavenforedoomsTobeasbright,asgood,asdutiful。

"SourceofecstatichopesandfearsAndinnocentmaternalvanity,YourfondexploitbutshapesfortearsNewthoroughfaresinsadhumanity。

"Yetasyoudream,sodreamtI

WhenLifestretchedforthitsmorningraytome;

Otherviewsforbyandby!"……

Suchstrangethingsdidmothersaytome。

THEPINEPLANTERS

(MARTYSOUTH’SREVERIE)

I

WeworkheretogetherInblastandbreeze;

Hefillstheearthin,Iholdthetrees。

HedoesnotnoticeThatwhatIdoKeepsmefrommovingAndchillsmethrough。

HehasseenonefairerIfeelbyhiseye,WhichskimsmeasthoughIwerenotby。

AndsinceshepassedhereHescarcehasknownButthatthewoodlandHoldshimalone。

IhaveworkedherewithhimSincemorningshine,HebusywithhisthoughtsAndIwithmine。

Ihavehelpedhimsomany,Somanydays,ButneverwinanySmallwordofpraise!

ShallInotsightohimThatIworkonGladtobenightohimThoughhopeisgone?

Nay,thoughheneverKnewlovelikemine,I’llbeariteverAndmakenosign!

II

FromthebundleathandhereItakeeachtree,Andsetittostand,hereAlwaystobe;

When,inasecond,AsiffromfearOfLifeunreckonedBeginninghere,ItstartsasighingThroughdayandnight,Thoughwhiletherelying’Twasvoicelessquite。

Itwillsighinthemorning,Willsighatnoon,Atthewinter’swarning,InwaftsofJune;

GrievingthatneverKindFatedecreedItshouldforeverRemainaseed,AndshunthewelterOfthingswithout,UnneedingshelterFromstormanddrought。

Thus,allunknowingForwhomorwhatWesetitgrowingInthisbleakspot,ItstillwillgrievehereThroughoutitstime,Unabletoleavehere,Orchangeitsclime;

OrtellthestoryOfusto-dayWhen,haltandhoary,Wepassaway。

THEDEAR

IploddedtoFairmileHill-top,whereAmaidenonefainwouldguardFromeveryhazardandeverycareAdvancedontheroadsidesward。

IwonderedhowsucceedingsunsWouldshapeherwayfarings,AndwishedsomePowermighttakesuchonesUnderItswardingwings。

ThebusybreezecameupthehillAndsmartenedhercheektored,Andfrizzledherhairtoahaze。Withawill"Good-morning,myDear!"Isaid。

Sheglancedfrommetothefar-offgray,And,withproudseverity,"Good-morningtoyou——thoughImaysayIamnotYOURDear,"quothshe:

"ForIamtheDearofonenothere-

Onefarfromhisnativeland!"-

Andshepassedmeby;andIdidnottryTomakeherunderstand。

1901

ONEWEKNEW

(M。H。1772-1857)

Shetoldhowtheyusedtoformforthecountrydances-

"TheTriumph,""TheNew-riggedShip"-

Tothelightofthegutteringwaxinthepanelledmanses,Andincotstotheblinkofadip。

Shespokeofthewild"poussetting"and"allemanding"

Oncarpet,onoak,andonsod;

Andthetwolongrowsofladiesandgentlemenstanding,Andthefiguresthecouplestrod。

Sheshowedusthespotwherethemaypolewasyearlyplanted,AndwherethebandsmenstoodWhilebreechedandkerchiefedpartnerswhirled,andpantedTochooseeachotherforgood。

Shetoldofthatfar-backdaywhentheylearntastoundedOfthedeathoftheKingofFrance:

OftheTerror;andthenofBonaparte’sunboundedAmbitionandarrogance。

OfhowhisthreatswokewarlikepreparationsAlongthesouthernstrand,AndhoweachnightbroughttremorsandtrepidationsLestmorningshouldseehimland。

ShesaidshehadoftenheardthegibbetcreakingAsitswayedinthelightningflash,Hadcaughtfromtheneighbouringtownasmallchild’sshriekingAtthecart-tailunderthelash……

Withcap-framedfaceandlonggazeintotheembers-

Weseatedaroundherknees-

Shewoulddwellonsuchdeadthemes,notasonewhoremembers,Butratherasonewhosees。

SheseemedoneleftbehindofabandgonedistantSofarthatnotonguecouldhail:

Pastthingsretoldweretoherasthingsexistent,Thingspresentbutasatale。

May20,1902。

SHEHEARSTHESTORM

Therewasatimeinformeryears-

Whilemyroof-treewashis-

WhenIshouldhavebeendistressedbyfearsAtsuchanightasthis!

Ishouldhavemurmuredanxiously,"Theprickingrainstrikescold;

Hisroadisbareofhedgeortree,Andheisgettingold。"

Butnowthefitfulchimney-roar,ThedroneofThorncombetrees,TheFroominflooduponthemoor,ThemudofMellstockLeaze,Thecandleslantingsootywick’d,Thethudsuponthethatch,Theeaves-dropsonthewindowflicked,Theclackinggarden-hatch,Andwhattheymeantowayfarers,Iscarcelyheedormind;

Hehaswonthatstorm-tightroofofhersWhichEarthgrantsallherkind。

AWETNIGHT

Ipacealong,therain-shaftsriddlingme,Mileaftermileoutbythemoorlandway,Andupthehill,andthroughtheewe-leazegrayIntothelane,androundthecornertree;

Where,asmyclothingclamsme,mire-bestarred,Andtheenfeebledlightdiesoutofday,Leavingtheliquidshadestoreign,Isay,"Thisisahardshiptobecalendared!"

Yetsiresofminenowperishedandforgot,Whenworsebeset,ereroadswereshapenhere,Andnightandstormwerefoesindeedtofear,TimesnumberlesshavetrudgedacrossthisspotInsturdymutenessontheirstrenuouslot,Andtakingallsuchtoilsastriflesmere。

BEFORELIFEANDAFTER

Atimetherewas——asonemayguessAndas,indeed,earth’stestimoniestell-

Beforethebirthofconsciousness,Whenallwentwell。

Nonesufferedsickness,love,orloss,Noneknewregret,starvedhope,orheart-burnings;

NonecaredwhatevercrashorcrossBroughtwracktothings。

Ifsomethingceased,notonguebewailed,Ifsomethingwincedandwaned,noheartwaswrung;

Ifbrightnessdimmed,anddarkprevailed,Nosensewasstung。

Butthediseaseoffeelinggermed,Andprimalrightnesstookthetinctofwrong;

ErenescienceshallbereaffirmedHowlong,howlong?

NEWYEAR’SEVE

"Ihavefinishedanotheryear,"saidGod,"Ingrey,green,white,andbrown;

Ihavestrewntheleafuponthesod,Sealedupthewormwithintheclod,Andletthelastsundown。"

"Andwhat’sthegoodofit?"Isaid。

"WhatreasonsmadeyoucallFromformlessvoidthisearthwetread,Whennine-and-ninetycanbereadWhynoughtshouldbeatall?

"Yea,Sire;whyshapedyouus,’whoinThistabernaclegroan’-

Ifeverajoybefoundherein,SuchjoynomanhadwishedtowinIfhehadneverknown!"

Thenhe:"Mylabours——logicless-

Youmayexplain;notI:

Sense-sealedIhavewrought,withoutaguessThatIevolvedaConsciousnessToaskforreasonswhy。

"StrangethatephemeralcreatureswhoBymyownorderingare,Shouldseetheshortnessofmyview,UseethictestsIneverknew,Ormadeprovisionfor!"

Hesanktoraptnessasofyore,AndopeningNewYear’sDayWoveitbyroteastheretofore,AndwentonworkingevermoreInhisunweetingway。

1906。

GOD’SEDUCATION

IsawhimstealthelightawayThathauntedinhereye:

ItwentsogentlynonecouldsayMorethanthatitwasthereonedayAndmissingby-and-by。

Iwatchedherlonger,andhestoleHerlilytinctsandrose;

AllheryoungsprightlinessofsoulNextfellbeneathhiscoldcontrol,Anddisappearedlikethose。

Iasked:"Whydoyouserveherso?

Doyou,forsomegladday,Hoardthesehersweets——?"Hesaid,"Ono,Theycharmnotme;IbidTimethrowThemcarelesslyaway。"

SaidI:"Wecallthatcruelty-

We,yourpoormortalkind。"

Hemused。"Thethoughtisnewtome。

Forsooth,thoughImen’smasterbe,Theirsistheteachingmind!"

TOSINCERITY

Osweetsincerity!-

WheremodernmethodsbeWhatscopeforthineandthee?

Lifemaybesadpastsaying,Itsgreensforevergraying,Itsfaithstodustdecaying;

Andyouthmayhaveforeknownit,Andriperseasonsshownit,Butcustomcries:"Disownit:

"Sayyerejoice,thoughgrieving,Believe,whileunbelieving,Behold,withoutperceiving!"-

Yet,wouldmenlookattruethings,Andunilludedviewthings,Andcounttobearunduethings,Therealmightmendtheseeming,Factsbettertheirforedeeming,AndLifeitsdisesteeming。

February1899。

PANTHERA

(Forotherformsofthislegend——firstmetwithinthesecondcentury——seeOrigencontraCelsum;theTalmud;SepherToldothJeschu;quotedfragmentsoflostApocryphalgospels;Strauss,Haeckel;etc。)

Yea,asIsithere,crutched,andcricked,andbent,IthinkofPanthera,whounderwentMuchfrominsidiousachesinhisdecline;

Buthisacheswerenotradicallikemine;

Theywerethetwingesofoldwounds——thefeelOfthehandhehadlost,shornbybarbariansteel,Whichcameback,sohesaid,atachangeintheair,Fingersandall,asifitstillwerethere。

Mypainsareotherwise:upclosingcrampsAndstiffenedtendonsfromthiscountry’sdamps,WherePantherawasnevercommandant-

TheFatessenthimbywayoftheLevant。

Hehadbeenblitheinhisyoungmanhood’stime,Andascenturioncarriedwellhisprime。

InEthiop,Araby,climesfairandfell,Hehadseenserviceandhadbornehimwell。

Noughtshookhimthen:hewassereneasbrave;

Yetlaterknewsomeshocks,andwouldgrowgraveWhenponderingthem;shockslessofcorporalkindThanphantom-like,thatdisarrangedhismind;

Anditwasinthewayofwarningme(Bymuchhisjunior)againstlevityThatherecountedthem;andoneinchiefPantheralovedtosetinboldrelief。

ThiswasatragedyofhisEasterndays,Personalintouch——thoughIhavesometimesthoughtThattouchapossibledelusion——wroughtOfhalf-convictioncarriedtoacraze-

Hismindatlastbeingstressedbyailsandage:-

YethisgoodfaiththereonIwellcouldwage。

IhadsaiditlonghadbeenawishwithmeThatImightleaveascion——somesmalltreeAschannelformysap,ifnotmyname-

Ay,offspringevenofnolegitimateclaim,InwhoseadvanceIsecretlycouldjoy。

Thereathewarned。

"Cancelsuchwishes,boy!

Asonmaybeacomfortoracurse,Aseer,adoer,acoward,afool;yea,worse-

Acriminal……ThatIcouldtestify!"

"Pantherahasnoguiltyson!"criedI

Allunbelieving。"Friend,youdonotknow,"

Hedarklydropt:"True,I’venonenowtoshow,ForTHELAWTOOKHIM。Ay,insooth,Joveshapeditso!"

"Thisnoonisnotunlike,"heagainbegan,"Thenoontheseprickingmemoriesprintonme-

Yea,thatday,whenthesungrewcopper-red,AndIservedinJudaea……’TwasadateOfrestforarms。ThePaxRomanaruled,Tothechagrinoffrontierlegionaries!

Palestinewasannexed——thoughsullenyet,-

I,beinginagesometwo-scoreyearsandtenAndhavingthegarrisoninJerusalemPartinmyhandsasactingofficerUndertheGovernor。AtedioustimeIfoundit,ofroutine,amidafolkRestless,contentless,andirascible-

Quellingsomeriot,sentryingcourtandhall,Sendingmenforthonpublicmeeting-daysTomaintainorder,weremydutiesthere。

"Thencameamorninspring,andthecheerfulsunWhitenedthecityandthehillsaround,Andeverymountain-roadthatclamberedthem,Tincturingthegreynessoftheoliveswarm,Andtherankcactiroundthevalley’ssides。

Thedaywasonewhereondeath-penaltiesWereputinforce,andhereandthereweresetThesoldieryfororder,asIsaid,Sinceoneofthecondemnedhadraisedsomeheat,Andcrowdssurgedpassionatelytoseehimslain。

I,mountedonaCappadocianhorse,Withsomehalf-companyofauxiliaries,HadcaptainedtheprocessionthroughthestreetsWhenitcamestreamingfromthejudgment-hallAftertheverdictsoftheGovernor。

ItdrewtothegreatgateofthenorthernwayThatbearstowardsDamascus;andtoaknollUponthecommon,justbeyondthewalls-

WhencecouldbesweptawidehorizonroundOverthehousetopstotheremotestheights。

Herewasthepublicexecution-groundForcitycrimes,calledthenanddoubtlessnowGolgotha,Kranion,orCalvaria。

"Theusualdoomsweredulymetedout;

Somethreeorfourwerestript,transfixed,andnailed,Andnogreatstiroccurred。AdayofwontItwastome,sofar,andwouldhaveslidCleanfrommymemoryatitssqualidcloseButforanincidentthatfollowedthese。

"Amongthetag-ragrabbleofeithersexThathungaroundthewretchesastheywrithed,Tillthrustbackbyourspears,oneheldmyeye-

Aweepingwoman,whosestrainedcountenance,Sharpenedagainstaloominglividcloud,Wasmockedbythecruderaysofafternoon-

ThemotherofoneofthosewhosufferedthereIhadheardhercalledwhenspokenroughlytoBymyrangedmenforpressingforwardso。

ItstoleuponmeherswasafaceIknew;

Yetwhen,orhow,Ihadknownit,forawhileEludedme。Andthenatonceitcame。

"SomethirtyyearsormorebeforethatnoonIwassub-captainofacompanyDrawnfromthelegionofCalabria,ThatmarchedupfromJudaeanorthtoTyre。

WehadpiercedtheoldflatcountryofJezreel,ThegreatEsdraelonPlainandfighting-floorOfJewwithCanaanite,andwiththehostOfPharaoh-Necho,kingofEgypt,metWhilecrossingtheretostriketheAssyrianpride。

WeleftbehindGilboa;passedbyNain;

TillbulgingTaborrose,embossedtothetopWitharbute,terabinth,andlocustgrowths。

"Encumberingmeweresundrysick,sofallenThroughdrinkingfromaswampbesidetheway;

Butwepressedon,till,bearingoveraridge,Wediptintoaworldofpleasantness-

Avale,thefairestIhadgazedupon-

WhichlappedavillageonitsfurthestslopesCalledNazareth,brimmedroundbyuplandsnigh。

Inthemidstthereofafountainbubbled,where,Lime-dryfrommarching,ourgladhaltwemadeTorestoursickones,andrefreshusall。

"Hereadayonward,towardstheeventide,OurmenwerepipingtoaPyrrhicdanceTrodbytheircomrades,whentheyoungwomencameTofilltheirpitchers,astheircustomwas。

Iprofferedhelptoone——aslimgirl,coyEvenasafawn,meek,andasinnocent。

Herlongbluegown,thestringofsilvercoinsThathungdownbyherbandedbeautifulhair,Symboledinfullimmaculatemodesty。

"Well,Iwasyoung,andhot,andreadilystirredToquickdesire。’TwastedioustimingoutTheconvalescenceofthesoldiery;

AndIbeguiledthelongandemptydaysByblissfulyieldancetohersweetallure,Whohadnoarts,butwhatout-artedall,Thetremuloustendercharmoftrustfulness。

Wemet,andmet,andunderthewinkingstarsThatpassedwhichpeoplesearth——trueunion,yea,Tothepureeyeofhersimplicity。

"Meanwhilethesickfoundhealth;andweprickedon。

Imadehernorashpromiseofreturn,Assomedouse;Iwassincereinthat;

Isaidwesunderednevertomeetagain-

AndyetIspokeuntruthunknowingly!-

Formeetagainwedid。Now,guessyouaught?

TheweepingmotheronCalvariaWassheIhadknown——albeitthattimeandtearsHadwastedrudelyheronceflowerlikeform,Andhersofteyes,nowswollenwithsorrowing。

"ThoughIbetrayedsomequalms,shemarkedmenot;

AndIwasscarceofmoodtocomradeherAndclosethesilenceofsowideatimeToclaimamalefactorasmyson-

(ForsoIguessedhim)。AndinquirymadeBroughtrumourhowatNazarethlongbeforeAnoldmanweddedherforpity’ssakeOnfindingshehadgrownpregnant,noneknewhow,Caredforherchild,andlovedhertillhedied。

"Well;thereitended;savethatthenIlearntThathe——themanwhoseardentbloodwasmine-

HadwakedseditionlongamongtheJews,Andhurledinsultingparlanceattheirgod,Whosetemplebulkedupontheadjoininghill,Vowingthathewouldrazeit,thathimselfWasgodasgreatashewhomtheyadored,Andbydescent,moreover,wastheirking;

Withsundryotherincitementstomisrule。

"Theimpalementsdone,anddonethesoldiers’gameOfrafflingfortheclothes,alegionary,Longinus,piercedtheyoungmanwithhislanceAtsignsfromme,movedbyhisagoniesThroughnaysayingthedrugtheyhadofferedhim。

Itbroughttheend。AndwhenhehadbreathedhislastThewomanwent。Isawherneveragain……

Nowglaresmymoodymeaningonyou,friend?-

ThatwhenyoutalkofoffspringassheerjoySotrustingly,youblinkcontingencies。

ForsFortuna!HewhogoesfatheringGivesfrightfulhostagestohazardry!"

ThusPanthera’stale。’Twasoneheseldomtold,Butyetitgotabroad。Hewouldunfold,Atothertimes,astoryoflessgloom,Thoughhiswasnotaheartwherejestshadroom。

HewouldregretdiscoveryofthetruthWasmadetoolatetoinfluencetoruthTheProcuratorwhohadcondemnedhisson——

Orratherhimsodeemed。FortherewasnoneToprovethatPantheraerrednot:andindeed,WhenvaguenessofidentityIwouldplead,Pantherhimselfwouldsometimesownasmuch-

Yetlothly。But,assumingfactwassuch,ThatthesaidwomandidnotrecognizeHerlover’sface,ismatterforsurprise。

However,there’shistale,fantasyorotherwise。

ThereaftershonenotmenofPanthera’skind:

Theindolentheadsathomewereill-inclinedTopresscampaigningthatwouldhoistthestarOftheirlieutenantsvalorousafar。

Jealousieskepthimirkedabroad,controlledAndstintedbyanEmpirenomorebold。

Yetinsomeactionssouthwardhehadshare-

InMauretaniaandNumidia;thereWitheagleeye,andswordandsteedandspur,Quellinguprisingspromptly。SomesmallstirInParthianextengagedhim,untilmaimed,AsIhavesaid;andcynicTimeproclaimedHisnoblespiritbroken。WhatawasteOfsuchaRoman!——oneinyouth-timegracedWithindescribablecharm,soIhaveheard,Yea,magnetismimpossibletowordWhenfalteringasIsawhim。Whatafame,OSonofSaturn,hadadornedhisname,MighttheThreesohaveurgedThee!——HourbyhourHisowndisordershamperedPanthera’spowerTobrooduponthefateofthosehehadknown,Evenofthatonehealwayscalledhisown-

Eitherinmorbiddreamormemory……

Hediedatnogreatage,untroublously,Anexitrareforardentsoldierssuchashe。

THEUNBORN

Iroseatnight,andvisitedTheCaveoftheUnborn:

AndcrowdingshapessurroundedmeFortidingsofthelifetobe,WholonghadprayedthesilentHeadTohasteitsadventmorn。

Theireyeswerelitwithartlesstrust,Hopethrilledtheireverytone;

"Ascenetheloveliest,isitnot?

Apuredelight,abeauty-spotWhereallisgentle,trueandjust,Anddarknessisunknown?"

Myheartwasanguishedfortheirsake,Icouldnotframeaword;

Andtheydescriedmysunkenface,Andseemedtoreadtherein,andtraceThenewsthatpitywouldnotbreak,Nortruthleaveunaverred。

AndasIsilentlyretiredIturnedandwatchedthemstill,Andtheycamehelter-skelterout,DrivenforwardlikearabbleroutIntotheworldtheyhadsodesiredBytheall-immanentWill。

1905。

THEMANHEKILLED

"HadheandIbutmetBysomeoldancientinn,WeshouldhavesatusdowntowetRightmanyanipperkin!

"Butrangedasinfantry,Andstaringfacetoface,Ishotathimasheatme,Andkilledhiminhisplace。

"Ishothimdeadbecause-

Becausehewasmyfoe,Justso:myfoeofcoursehewas;

That’sclearenough;although"Hethoughthe’d’list,perhaps,Off-handlike——justasI-

Wasoutofwork——hadsoldhistraps-

Nootherreasonwhy。

"Yes;quaintandcuriouswaris!

YoushootafellowdownYou’dtreatifmetwhereanybaris,Orhelptohalf-a-crown。"

1902。

GEOGRAPHICALKNOWLEDGE

(AMEMORYOFCHRISTIANAC-)

WhereBlackmoorwas,theroadthatledToBath,shecouldnotshow,NorpointtheskythatoverspreadTownstenmilesofforso。

ButthatCalcuttastoodthisway,CapeHorntherefiguredfell,ThatherewasBoston,hereBombay,Shecoulddeclarefullwell。

LessknowntoherthetrackathwartFroomMeadorYell’hamWoodThanhowtomakesomeAustralportInseasofsurlymood。

ShesawtheglintofGuinea’sshoreBehindtheplum-treenigh,HeardoldunrulyBiscay’sroarIntheweir’spurlhardby……

"Myson’sasailor,andheknowsAllseasandmanylands,Andwhenhe’shomehepointsandshowsEachcountrywhereitstands。

"He’snowjustthere——byGib’shighrock-

Andwhenhegets,yousee,ToPortsmouthhere,behindtheclock,Thenhe’llcomebacktome!"

ONERALPHBLOSSOMSOLILOQUIZES

("Itbeingdeposedthatvijwomenwhoweremaydsbeforeheknewthemhavebeenbroughtuponthetowne[rates?]bythefornicacionsofoneRalphBlossom,MrMajorinquiredwhyheshouldnotcontributexivpenceweeklytowardtheirmayntenance。ButitbeingshewnthatthesaydR。B。wasdyingofapurplefeaver,noorderwasmade。"——BudmouthBoroughMinutes:16——。)

WhenIaminhellorsomesuchplace,A-groaningovermysorrycase,WhatwillthosesevenwomensaytomeWho,whenIcoaxedthem,answered"Aye"tome?

"Ididnotunderstandyoursign!"

WillbethewordsofCaroline;

WhileJanewillcry,"IfI’dhadproofofyou,Ishouldhavelearnttoholdaloofofyou!"

"Iwon’treproach:itwastobe!"

WilldrylymurmurCicely;

AndRosa:"Ifeelnohostility,ForImustownIlentfacility。"

Lizzysays:"Sharpwasmyregret,Andsometimesitisnow!ButyetIjoythat,thoughitbroughtnotoriousness,IknewLoveonceandallitsgloriousness!"

SaysPatience:"Whyareweapart?

Smallharmdidyou,mypoorSweetHeart!

Amanchildborn,nowtallandbeautiful,Wasworththeacheofdaysundutiful。"

AndAnnecries:"Othetimewasfair,Sowhereforeshouldyouburndownthere?

Thereisadeedunderthesun,myLove,Andthatwasours。What’sdoneisdone,myLove。

ThesetrumpetshereinHeavenaredumbtomeWithyouaway。Dear,come,Ocometome!"

THENOBLELADY’STALE

(circa1790)

I

"Wemovedwithpensivepaces,Iandhe,AndbentourfadedfacesWistfully,Forsomethingtroubledhim,andtroubledme。

"ThelanthornfeeblylightenedOurgreyhall,WhereancientbrandshadbrightenedHearthandwall,Andshapeslongvanishedwhithervanishall。

"’Owhy,Love,nightly,daily,’

Ihadsaid,’Dostsigh,andsmilesopalely,AsifshedWereallLife’sblossoms,allitsdearthingsdead?’

"’Sincesilencesetstheegrieving,’

Hereplied,’AndIabhordeceivingOnesotried,Why,Love,I’llspeak,eretimeustwaindivide。’

"Heheldme,Iremember,JustaswhenOurlifewasJune——(SeptemberItwasthen);

Andwewalkedon,untilhespokeagain。

"’Susie,anIrishmummer,Loud-acclaimedThroughthegayLondonsummer,WasI;namedAmasterinmyart,whowouldbefamed。

"’Butlo,therebeamedbeforemeLadySu;

God’saltar-vowshesworemeWhennoneknew,AndforhersakeIbadethesockadieu。

"’MyLordyourfather’spardonThusIwon:

HelethisheartunhardenTowardshisson,Andhonourablycondonedwhatwehaddone;

"’Butsaid——recallyou,dearest?-

AsforSu,I’dseeher——ay,thoughnearestMeunto-

Soonerentombedthaninastagepurlieu!

"’Justso。——Andherehehousedus,Inthisnook,WhereLovelikebalmhasdrowsedus:

Robin,rook,Ourchieffamiliars,nexttostringandbook。

"’Ourdayshere,peace-enshrouded,FollowedstrangeTheoldstage-joyance,crowded,Richinrange;

Butneverdidmysouldesireachange,"’Tillnow,whenfaruncertainLipsofyoreCall,callmetothecurtain,Thereoncemore,ButONCE,totreadtheboardsItrodbefore。

"’Anight——thelastandsingleEreIdie-

Tofacethelights,tomingleAsdidI

Onceinthegame,andriveteveryeye!’

"’Tosomethingdrear,distressingAstheknellOfallhopesworthpossessing!’……

——WhatbefellSeemedlinkedwithme,buthowIcouldnottell。

"Hourspassed;tillIimploredhim,AsheknewHowfaithandfranknesstowardhimRuledmethrough,TosaywhatillIhaddone,andcouldundo。

"’FAITH——FRANKNESS。Ah!Heavensavesuch!’

Murmuredhe,’Theyareweddedwealth!_I_gavesuchLiberally,Butyou,Dear,not。Foryoususpectedme。’

"IwasaboutbeseechingInhurthasteMoremeaning,whenhe,reachingTomywaist,Ledmetopacethehallasoncewepaced。

"’InevermeanttodrawyouToownall,’

Declaredhe。’But——ISAWyou-

Bythewall,Half-hid。AndthatwaswhyIfailedwithal!’

"’Where?when?’saidI——’Why,nighme,AttheplayThatnight。Thatyoushouldspyme,Doubtmyfay,Andfollow,furtive,tookmyheartaway!’

"ThatIhadneverbeenthere,ButhadgoneTomylockedroom——unseenthere,Curtainsdrawn,Longdaysabiding——toldI,wonder-wan。

"’Nay,’twasyourformandvesture,Cloakandgown,Yourhoodedfeatures——gestureHalfinfrown,Thatfacedme,pale,’heurged,’thatnightintown。

"’Andwhen,outside,IhandedToherchair(AscourtesydemandedOfmethere)

Theleadinglady,youpeepedfromthestair。

"StraightpleadedI:’Forsooth,Love,HadIgone,Imusthavebeenintruth,Love,MadtodonSuchwell-knownraiment。’Buthestillwenton"ThathewasnotmistakenNormisled-

Ifeltlikeoneforsaken,Wishedmedead,Thathecouldthinkthusofthewifehehadwed!

"HisgoingseemedtowastehimLikeacurse,Towreckwhatoncehadgracedhim;

And,averseTomyapproach,hemused,andmoped,andworse。

"Till,whatnowordseffectedThoughtachieved:

ITWASMYWRAITH——projected,Heconceived,Thither,bymytensebrainathomeaggrieved。

"ThereonhiscredencecentredTillhedied;

And,nomoretempted,enteredSanctified,Thelittlevaultwithroomforonebeside。"

III

Thusfarthelady’sstory-

Nowshe,too,ReclineswithinthathoaryLastdarkmewInMellstockQuirewithhimshelovedsotrue。

Ayellowingmarble,placedthereTablet-wise,AndtwojoinedheartsenchasedthereMeettheeyes;

Andreadingtheirtwinnameswemoralize:

Didshe,wewonder,followJealously?

Andwerethoseprotestshollow?-

OrsawheSomesemblantdame?Orcanwraithsreallybe?

Wereitshewent,herhonour,Allmayhold,PressedtruthatlastuponherTillshetold-

(Himonly——othersastheselinesunfold。)

Riddledeath-sealedforever,Letitrest!……

One’sheartcouldblameherneverIfoneguessedThatgoshedid。Sheknewheractorbest。

UNREALIZED

Downcomesthewinterrain-

Spoilsmyhatandbow-

Runsintothepollofme;

Butmotherwon’tknow。

We’vebeenoutandcaughtacold,Knee-deepinsnow;

SuchaluckythingitisThatmotherwon’tknow!

Rosylostherselflastnight-

Couldn’ttellwheretogo。

Yes——itratherfrightenedher,Butmotherdidn’tknow。

SomebodymadeWillydrunkAttheChristmasshow:

O’twasfun!It’swellforhimThatmotherwon’tknow!

Howsoeverwildweare,Lateatschoolorslow,Motherwon’tbecrosswithus,Motherwon’tknow。

Howwecriedthedayshedied!

Neighbourswhisperinglow……

Butwenowdowhatwewill-

Motherwon’tknow。

WAGTAILANDBABY

Ababywatchedaford,wheretoAwagtailcamefordrinking;

Ablaringbullwentwadingthrough,Thewagtailshowednoshrinking。

Astallionsplashedhiswayacross,Thebirdienearlysinking;

Hegavehisplumesatwitchandtoss,Andheldhisownunblinking。

NextsawthebabyroundthespotAmongrelslowlyslinking;

Thewagtailgazed,butfalterednotIndipandsipandprinking。

Aperfectgentlemanthenneared;

Thewagtail,inawinking,Withterrorroseanddisappeared;

Thebabyfella-thinking。

ABERDEEN

(April:1905)

"Andwisdomandknowledgeshallbethestabilityofthytimes。"——Isaiahxxxiii。6。

Ilookedandthought,"AllistoograyandcoldTowakemyplace-enthusiasmsofold!"

Tillavoicepassed:"BehindthatgranitemienLurkstheimposingbeautyofaQueen。"

Ilookedanew;andsawtheradiantformOfHerwhosoothesinstress,whosteersinstorm,OnthegraveinfluenceofwhoseeyessublimeMencountforthestabilityofthetime。

GEORGEMEREDITH

1828-1909

Fortyyearsback,whenmuchhadplaceThatsincehasperishedoutofmind,Iheardthatvoiceandsawthatface。

HespokeasoneafootwillwindAmorninghorneremenawake;

Hisnotewastrenchant,turningkind。

HewasofthosewhosewitcanshakeAndriddletotheverycoreThecounterfeitsthatTimewillbreak……

Oflate,whenwetwometoncemore,TheluminouscountenanceandrareShonejustasfortyyearsbefore。

Sothat,whennowalltonguesdeclareHisshapeunseenbyhisgreenhill,Iscarcebelievehesitsnotthere。

Nomatter。FurtherandfurtherstillThroughtheworld’svaporousvitiateairHiswordswingon——aslivewordswill。

May1909。

YELL’HAM-WOOD’SSTORY

Coomb-FirtreessaythatLifeisamoan,AndClyffe-hillClumpsays"Yea!"

ButYell’hamsaysathingofitsown:

It’snot"Gray,grayIsLifealway!"

ThatYell’hamsays,NorthatLifeisforendsunknown。

ItsaysthatLifewouldsignifyAthwartedpurposing:

Thatwecometolive,andarecalledtodie,Yes,that’sthethingInfall,inspring,ThatYell’hamsays:-

"Lifeoffers——todeny!"

1902。

AYOUNGMAN’SEPIGRAMONEXISTENCE

Asenselessschool,wherewemustgiveOurlivesthatwemaylearntolive!

AdoltishewhomemorizesLessonsthatleavenotimeforprizes。

16W。P。V。,1866。

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