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"’MargaretAubyn’sLetters。’Twovolumes。Outto—day。Firsteditionoffivethousandsoldoutbeforeleavingthepress。

Secondeditionreadynextweek。THEBOOKOFTHEYEAR……"

Helookedupstupidly。Hiswifestillsatwithherheadthrownback,herpureprofiledetachedagainstthecushions。Shewassmilingalittleovertheprospecthislastwordshadopened。

Behindherheadshiversofsunandshaderanacrossthestripedawning。Arowofmaplesandaprivethedgehidtheirneighbor’sgables,givingthemundividedpossessionoftheirleafyhalf—acre;

andlife,amomentbefore,hadbeenliketheirplotofground,shutoff,hedgedinfromimportunities,impenetrablyhisandhers。

Nowitseemedtohimthateverymaple—leaf,everyprivet—bud,wasarelentlesshumangaze,pressingcloseupontheirprivacy。Itwasasthoughtheysatinabrightlylitroom,uncurtainedfromadarknessfullofhostilewatchers……Hiswifestillsmiled;

andherunconsciousnessofdangerseemed,insomehorribleway,toputherbeyondthereachofrescue……

Hehadnotknownthatitwouldbelikethis。Afterthefirstodiousweeks,spentinpreparingthelettersforpublication,insubmittingthemtoFlamel,andinnegotiatingwiththepublishers,thetransactionhaddroppedoutofhisconsciousnessintothatunvisitedlimbotowhichwerelegatethedeedswewouldrathernothavedonebuthavenonotionofundoing。FromthemomenthehadobtainedMissTrent’spromisenottosailwithheraunthehadtriedtoimaginehimselfirrevocablycommitted。Afterthat,heargued,hisfirstdutywastoher——shehadbecomehisconscience。

ThesumobtainedfromthepublishersbyFlamel’sadroitmanipulationsandopportunelytransferredtoDinslow’ssuccessfulventure,alreadyyieldedareturnwhich,combinedwithGlennard’sprofessionalearnings,tooktheedgeofcompulsionfromtheirwayofliving,makingitappeartheexpressionofagracefulpreferenceforsimplicity。Itwasthemitigatedpovertywhichcansubscribetoareviewortwoandhaveafewflowersonthedinner—

table。AndalreadyinasmallwayGlennardwasbeginningtofeelthemagneticqualityofprosperity。Clientswhohadpassedhisdoorinthehungrydayssoughtitoutnowthatitborethenameofasuccessfulman。Itwasunderstoodthatasmallinheritance,cleverlyinvested,wasthesourceofhisfortune;andtherewasafeelingthatamanwhocoulddosowellforhimselfwaslikelytoknowhowtoturnoverotherpeople’smoney。

Butitwasinthemoreintimaterewardofhiswife’shappinessthatGlennardtastedthefullflavorofsuccess。Comingoutofconditionssonarrowthatthoseheofferedherseemedspacious,shefittedintohernewlifewithoutanyofthosemanifesteffortsatadjustmentthatareassoretoahusband’sprideasthecriticalrearrangementofthebridalfurniture。Shehadgivenhim,instead,thedelicatepleasureofwatchingherexpandlikeasea—creaturerestoredtoitselement,stretchingouttheatrophiedtentaclesofgirlishvanityandenjoymenttotherisingtideofopportunity。Andsomehow——inthewindowlessinnercellofhisconsciousnesswhereself—criticismcowered——Glennard’scourseseemedjustifiedbyitsmerelymaterialsuccess。Howcouldsuchacropofinnocentblessednesshavesprungfromtaintedsoil?

Nowhehadtheinjuredsenseofamanentrappedintoadisadvantageousbargain。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis;

andadullangergatheredathisheart。Angeragainstwhom?

Againsthiswife,fornotknowingwhathesuffered?AgainstFlamel,forbeingtheunconsciousinstrumentofhiswrong—doing?

Oragainstthatmutememorytowhichhisownacthadsuddenlygivenavoiceofaccusation?Yes,thatwasit;andhispunishmenthenceforthwouldbethepresence,theunescapablepresence,ofthewomanhehadsopersistentlyevaded。Shewouldalwaysbetherenow。Itwasasthoughhehadmarriedherinsteadoftheother。

Itwaswhatshehadalwayswanted——tobewithhim——andshehadgainedherpointatlast……

Hesprangup,asthoughinanimpulseofflight……Thesuddenmovementliftedhiswife’slids,andsheasked,intheincuriousvoiceofthewomanwhoselifeisenclosedinamagiccircleofprosperity——"Anynews?"

"No——none——"hesaid,rousedtoasenseofimmediateperil。Thepaperslayscatteredathisfeet——whatifsheweretoseethem?

Hestretchedhisarmtogatherthemup,buthisnextthoughtshowedhimthefutilityofsuchconcealment。Thesameadvertisementwouldappeareveryday,forweekstocome,ineverynewspaper;howcouldhepreventherseeingit?Hecouldnotalwaysbehidingthepapersfromher……Well,andwhatifshedidseeit?Itwouldsignifynothingtoher,thechanceswerethatshewouldneverevenreadthebook……Assheceasedtobeanelementoffearinhiscalculationsthedistancebetweenthemseemedtolessenandhetookheragain,asitwere,intothecircleofhisconjugalprotection……Yetamomentbeforehehadalmosthatedher!……Helaughedaloudathissenselessterrors……Hewasoffhisbalance,decidedly。

"Whatareyoulaughingat?"sheasked。

Heexplained,elaborately,thathewaslaughingattherecollectionofanoldwomaninthetrain,anoldwomanwithalotofbundles,whocouldn’tfindherticket……Butsomehow,inthetelling,thehumorofthestoryseemedtoevaporate,andhefelttheconventionalityofhersmile。Heglancedathiswatch,"Isn’tittimetodress?"

Sherosewithserenereluctance。"It’sapitytogoin。Thegardenlookssolovely。"

Theylingeredsidebyside,surveyingtheirdomain。Therewasnotspaceinit,atthishour,fortheshadowoftheelm—treeintheangleofthehedge;itcrossedthelawn,cuttheflower—borderintwo,andranupthesideofthehousetothenurserywindow。Shebenttoflickacaterpillarfromthehoney—suckle;then,astheyturnedindoors,"IfwemeantogoontheyachtnextSunday,"shesuggested,"oughtn’tyoutoletMr。Flamelknow?"

Glennard’sexasperationdeflectedsuddenly。"OfcourseIshalllethimknow。YoualwaysseemtoimplythatI’mgoingtodosomethingrudetoFlamel。"

Thewordsreverberatedthroughhersilence;shehadawayofthusleavingonespaceinwhichtocontemplateone’sfollyatarm’slength。Glennardturnedonhisheelandwentupstairs。Ashedroppedintoachairbeforehisdressing—tablehesaidtohimselfthatinthelasthourhehadsoundedthedepthsofhishumiliationandthatthelowestdregsofit,theverybottom—slime,wasthehatefulnecessityofhavingalways,aslongasthetwomenlived,tobeciviltoBartonFlamel。

VI

THEweekintownhadbeensultry,andthemen,intheSundayemancipationofwhiteflannelandduck,filledthedeck—chairsoftheyachtwiththeiroutstretchedapathy,following,throughamistofcigarette—smoke,theflittinginconsequencesofthewomen。

Thepartwasasmallone——Flamelhadfewintimatefriends——butcomposedofmoreheterogeneousatomsthanthelittlepoolsintowhichsocietyusuallyruns。ThereactionfromthechiefepisodeofhisearlierlifehadbredinGlennardanuneasydistasteforanykindofpersonalsaliency。Clevernesswasusefulinbusiness;

butinsocietyitseemedtohimasfutileastheshamcascadesformedbyastreamthatmighthavebeenusedtodriveamill。Helikedthecollectivepointofviewthatgoeswiththecivilizeduniformityofdress—clothes,andhiswife’sattitudeimpliedthesamepreference;yettheyfoundthemselvesslippingmoreandmoreintoFlamel’sintimacy。Alexahadonceortwicesaidthatsheenjoyedmeetingcleverpeople;butherenjoymenttookthenegativeformofasmilingreceptivity;andGlennardfeltagrowingpreferenceforthekindofpeoplewhohavetheirthinkingdoneforthembythecommunity。

Still,thedeckoftheyachtwasapleasantrefugefromtheheatonshore,andhiswife’sprofile,serenelyprojectedagainstthechangingblue,layonhisretinalikeacoolhandonthenerves。

Hehadneverbeenmoreimpressedbythekindofabsolutenessthatliftedherbeautyabovethetransienteffectsofotherwomen,makingthemostharmoniousfaceseemanaccidentalcollocationoffeatures。

Theladieswhodirectlysuggestedthiscomparisonwereofakindaccustomedtotakesimilarriskswithmoregratifyingresults。

Mrs。Armigerhadinfactlongbeenthetriumphantalternativeofthosewhocouldn’t"see"AlexaGlennard’slooks;andMrs。

Touchett’sclaimstoconsiderationwerefoundedonthatdistributionofeffectswhichisthewonderofthosewhoadmireahighlycultivatedcountry。ThethirdladyofthetriowhichGlennard’sfancyhadputtosuchunflatteringuses,wasboundbycircumstancestosupporttheclaimsoftheothertwo。ThiswasMrs。Dresham,thewifeoftheeditoroftheRadiator。Mrs。

Dreshamwasaladywhohadrescuedherselffromsocialobscuritybyassumingtheroleofherhusband’sexponentandinterpreter;

andDresham’sleisurebeingdevotedtothecultivationofremarkablewomen,hiswife’sattitudecommittedhertothepubliccelebrationoftheirremarkableness。Fortheconceivabletediumofthisduty,Mrs。DreshamwasrepaidbythefactthattherewerepeoplewhotookHERforaremarkablewoman;andwhointurnprobablypurchasedsimilardistinctionwiththesmallchangeofherreflectedimportance。Astotheotherladiesoftheparty,theyweresimplythewivesofsomeofthemen——thekindofwomenwhoexpecttobetalkedtocollectivelyandtohavetheirquestionsleftunanswered。

Mrs。Armiger,thelatestembodimentofDresham’sinstinctfortheremarkable,wasaninnocentbeautywhoforyearshaddistilleddulnessamongasetofpeoplenowself—condemnedbytheirinabilitytoappreciateher。UnderDresham’stutelageshehaddevelopedintoa"thoughtfulwoman,"whoreadhisleadersintheRadiatorandboughtthebooksherecommended。Whenanewnovelappeared,peoplewantedtoknowwhatMrs。Armigerthoughtofit;

andayounggentlemanwhohadmadeatripinTourainehadrecentlyinscribedtoherthewide—marginedresultofhisexplorations。

Glennard,leaningbackwithhisheadagainsttherailandaslitoffugitivebluebetweenhishalf—closedlids,vaguelywishedshewouldn’tspoiltheafternoonbymakingpeopletalk;thoughhereducedhisannoyancetotheminimumbynotlisteningtowhatwassaid,thereremainedalatentirritationagainstthegeneralfutilityofwords。

Hiswife’sgiftofsilenceseemedtohimthemostvividcommentaryontheclumsinessofspeechasameansofintercourse,andhiseyeshadturnedtoherinrenewedappreciationofthisfinerfacultywhenMrs。Armiger’svoiceabruptlybroughthometohimtheunderratedpotentialitiesoflanguage。

"You’vereadthem,ofcourse,Mrs。Glennard?"heheardherask;

and,inreplytoAlexa’svagueinterrogation——"Why,the’AubynLetters’——it’stheonlybookpeoplearetalkingofthisweek。"

Mrs。Dreshamimmediatelysawheradvantage。"YouHAVEN’Treadthem?Howveryextraordinary!AsMrs。Armigersays,thebook’sintheair;onebreathesitinliketheinfluenza。"

Glennardsatmotionless,watchinghiswife。

"Perhapsithasn’treachedthesuburbsyet,"shesaid,withherunruffledsmile。

"Oh,DOletmecometoyou,then!"Mrs。Touchettcried;"anythingforachangeofair!I’mpositivelysickofthebookandIcan’tputitdown。Can’tyousailusbeyonditsreach,Mr。Flamel?"

Flamelshookhishead。"Notevenwiththisbreeze。Literaturetravelsfasterthansteamnowadays。Andtheworstofitisthatwecan’tanyofusgiveupreading;it’sasinsidiousasaviceandastiresomeasavirtue。"

"IbelieveitISavice,almost,toreadsuchabookasthe’Letters,’"saidMrs。Touchett。"It’sthewoman’ssoul,absolutelytornupbytheroots——herwholeselflaidbare;andtoamanwhoevidentlydidn’tcare;whocouldn’thavecared。Idon’tmeantoreadanotherline;it’stoomuchlikelisteningatakeyhole。"

"Butifshewanteditpublished?"

"Wantedit?Howdoweknowshedid?"

"Why,Iheardshe’dlefttheletterstotheman——whoeverheis——

withdirectionsthattheyshouldbepublishedafterhisdeath——"

"Idon’tbelieveit,"Mrs。Touchettdeclared。

"He’sdeadthen,ishe?"oneofthemenasked。

"Why,youdon’tsupposeifhewerealivehecouldeverholduphisheadagain,withtheselettersbeingreadbyeverybody?"Mrs。

Touchettprotested。"Itmusthavebeenhorribleenoughtoknowthey’dbeenwrittentohim;buttopublishthem!Nomancouldhavedoneitandnowomancouldhavetoldhimto——"

"Oh,come,come,"Dreshamjudiciallyinterposed;"afterall,they’renotlove—letters。"

"No——that’stheworstofit;they’reunlovedletters,"Mrs。

Touchettretorted。

"Then,obviously,sheneedn’thavewrittenthem;whereastheman,poordevil,couldhardlyhelpreceivingthem。"

"Perhapshecountedonthepublictosavehimthetroubleofreadingthem,"saidyoungHartly,whowasinthecynicalstage。

Mrs。ArmigerturnedherreproachfullovelinesstoDresham。"Fromthewayyoudefendhim,Ibelieveyouknowwhoheis。"

EveryonelookedatDresham,andhiswifesmiledwiththesuperiorairofthewomanwhoisinherhusband’sprofessionalsecrets。

Dreshamshruggedhisshoulders。

"WhathaveIsaidtodefendhim?"

"Youcalledhimapoordevil——youpitiedhim。"

"AmanwhocouldletMargaretAubynwritetohiminthatway?OfcourseIpityhim。"

"ThenyouMUSTknowwhoheis,"criedMrs。Armiger,withatriumphantairofpenetration。

HartlyandFlamellaughedandDreshamshookhishead。"Nooneknows;noteventhepublishers;sotheytellmeatleast。"

"Sotheytellyoutotellus,"Hartlyastutelyamended;andMrs。

Armigeradded,withtheappearanceofcarryingtheargumentapointfarther,"ButevenifHE’SdeadandSHE’Sdead,somebodymusthavegiventheletterstothepublishers。"

"Alittlebird,probably,"saidDresham,smilingindulgentlyonherdeduction。

"Alittlebirdofpreythen——avulture,Ishouldsay——"anothermaninterpolated。

"Oh,I’mnotwithyouthere,"saidDresham,easily。"Thoselettersbelongedtothepublic。"

"Howcananylettersbelongtothepublicthatweren’twrittentothepublic?"Mrs。Touchettinterposed。

"Well,thesewere,inasense。ApersonalityasbigasMargaretAubyn’sbelongstotheworld。Suchamindispartofthegeneralfundofthought。It’sthepenaltyofgreatness——onebecomesamonumenthistorique。Posteritypaysthecostofkeepingoneup,butonconditionthatoneisalwaysopentothepublic。"

"Idon’tseethatthatexoneratesthemanwhogivesupthekeysofthesanctuary,asitwere。"

"WhoWAShe?"anothervoiceinquired。

"Whowashe?Oh,nobody,Ifancy——theletter—box,theslitinthewallthroughwhichtheletterspassedtoposterity……"

"Butshenevermeantthemforposterity!"

"Awomanshouldn’twritesuchlettersifshedoesn’tmeanthemtobepublished……"

"Sheshouldn’twritethemtosuchaman!"Mrs。Touchettscornfullycorrected。

"Ineverkeepletters,"saidMrs。Armiger,undertheobviousimpressionthatshewascontributingavaluablepointtothediscussion。

Therewasagenerallaugh,andFlamel,whohadnotspoken,said,lazily,"Youwomenaretooincurablysubjective。Iventuretosaythatmostmenwouldseeinthoselettersmerelytheirimmenseliteraryvalue,theirsignificanceasdocuments。Thepersonalsidedoesn’tcountwherethere’ssomuchelse。"

"Oh,weallknowyouhaven’tanyprinciples,"Mrs。Armigerdeclared;andAlexaGlennard,liftinganindolentsmile,said:"I

shallneverwriteyoualove—letter,Mr。Flamel。"

Glennardmovedawayimpatiently。Suchtalkwasastediousasthebuzzingofgnats。Hewonderedwhyhiswifehadwantedtodraghimonsuchasenselessexpedition……HehatedFlamel’scrowd——

andwhatbusinesshadFlamelhimselftointerfereinthatway,standingupforthepublicationofthelettersasthoughGlennardneededhisdefence?……

GlennardturnedhisheadandsawthatFlamelhaddrawnaseattoAlexa’selbowandwasspeakingtoherinalowtone。Theothergroupshadscattered,strayingintwosalongthedeck。ItcameoverGlennardthatheshouldneveragainbeabletoseeFlamelspeakingtohiswifewithoutthesenseofsickmistrustthatnowloosenedhisjoints……

Alexa,thenextmorning,overtheirearlybreakfast,surprisedherhusbandbyanunexpectedrequest。

"Willyoubringmethoselettersfromtown?"sheasked。

"Whatletters?"hesaid,puttingdownhiscup。Hefelthimselfashelplesslyvulnerableasamanwhoislungedatinthedark。

"Mrs。Aubyn’s。Thebooktheywerealltalkingaboutyesterday。"

Glennard,carefullymeasuringhissecondcupoftea,said,withdeliberation,"Ididn’tknowyoucaredaboutthatsortofthing。"

Shewas,infact,notagreatreader,andanewbookseldomreachedhertillitwas,sotospeak,onthehomestretch;butshereplied,withagentletenacity,"IthinkitwouldinterestmebecauseIreadherlifelastyear。"

"Herlife?Wheredidyougetthat?"

"Someonelentittomewhenitcameout——Mr。Flamel,Ithink。"

Hisfirstimpulsewastoexclaim,"WhythedevildoyouborrowbooksofFlamel?Icanbuyyouallyouwant——"buthefelthimselfirresistiblyforcedintoanattitudeofsmilingcompliance。"Flamelalwayshasthenewestbooksgoing,hasn’the?

Youmustbecareful,bytheway,aboutreturningwhathelendsyou。He’srathercrotchetyabouthislibrary。"

"Oh,I’malwaysverycareful,"shesaid,withatouchofcompetencethatstruckhim;andsheadded,ashecaughtuphishat:"Don’tforgettheletters。"

Whyhadsheaskedforthebook?WashersuddenwishtoseeittheresultofsomehintofFlamel’s?ThethoughtturnedGlennardsick,buthepreservedsufficientluciditytotellhimself,amomentlater,thathislasthopeofself—controlwouldbelostifheyieldedtothetemptationofseeingahiddenpurposeineverythingshesaidanddid。HowmuchFlamelguessed,hehadnomeansofdivining;norcouldhepredicate,fromwhatheknewoftheman,towhatusehisinferencesmightbeput。TheveryqualitiesthathadmadeFlamelausefuladvisermadehimthemostdangerousofaccomplices。Glennardfelthimselfagropeamongalienforcesthathisownacthadsetinmotion……

Alexawasawomanoffewrequirements;butherwishes,evenintrifles,hadadefinitenessthatdistinguishedthemfromthefluidimpulsesofherkind。Heknewthat,havingonceaskedforthebook,shewouldnotforgetit;andheputaside,asanineffectualexpedient,hismomentaryideaofapplyingforitatthecirculatinglibraryandtellingherthatallthecopieswereout。

Ifthebookwastobeboughtithadbetterbeboughtatonce。Helefthisofficeearlierthanusualandturnedinatthefirstbook—shoponhiswaytothetrain。Theshow—windowwasstackedwithconspicuouslyletteredvolumes。"MargaretAubyn"flashedbackathiminendlessrepetition。Heplungedintotheshopandcameonacounterwherethenamereiterateditselfonrowafterrowofbindings。Itseemedtohavedriventherestofliteraturetothebackshelves。Hecaughtupacopy,tossingthemoneytoanastonishedclerkwhopursuedhimtothedoorwiththeunheededoffertowrapupthevolumes。

Inthestreethewasseizedwithasuddenapprehension。WhatifheweretomeetFlamel?Thethoughtwasintolerable。Hecalledacabanddrovestraighttothestationwhere,amidthepalm—leaffansofaperspiringcrowd,hewaitedalonghalf—hourforhistraintostart。

Hehadthrustavolumeineitherpocketandinthetrainhedarednotdrawthemout;butthedetestedwordsleapedathimfromthefoldsoftheeveningpaper。TheairseemedfullofMargaretAubyn’sname。Themotionofthetrainsetitdancingupanddownonthepageofamagazinethatamaninfrontofhimwasreading……

AtthedoorhewastoldthatMrs。Glennardwasstillout,andhewentupstairstohisroomanddraggedthebooksfromhispocket。

Theylayonthetablebeforehimlikelivethingsthathefearedtotouch……Atlengthheopenedthefirstvolume。Afamiliarlettersprangoutathim,eachwordquickenedbyitsglaringgarboftype。Thelittlebrokenphrasesfledacrossthepagelikewoundedanimalsintheopen……Itwasahorriblesight……

Abattueofhelplessthingsdrivensavagelyoutofshelter。Hehadnotknownitwouldbelikethis……

Heunderstoodnowthat,atthemomentofsellingtheletters,hehadviewedthetransactionsolelyasitaffectedhimself:asanunfortunateblemishonanotherwisepresentablerecord。HehadscarcelyconsideredtheactinrelationtoMargaretAubyn;fordeath,ifithallows,alsomakesinnocuous。Glennard’sGodwasagodoftheliving,oftheimmediate,theactual,thetangible;allhisdayshehadlivedinthepresenceofthatgod,heedlessofthedivinitieswho,belowthesurfaceofourdeedsandpassions,silentlyforgethefatalweaponsofthedead。

VII

Aknockrousedhimandlookinguphesawhiswife。Hemetherglanceinsilence,andshefalteredout,"Areyouill?"

Thewordsrestoredhisself—possession。"Ill?Ofcoursenot。

TheytoldmeyouwereoutandIcameupstairs。"

Thebookslaybetweenthemonthetable;hewonderedwhenshewouldseethem。Shelingeredtentativelyonthethreshold,withtheairofleavinghisexplanationonhishands。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhocouldbecountedontofortifyanexcusebyappearingtodisputeit。

"Wherehaveyoubeen?"Glennardasked,movingforwardsothatheobstructedhervisionofthebooks。

"IwalkedovertotheDreshamsfortea。"

"Ican’tthinkwhatyouseeinthosepeople,"hesaidwithashrug;adding,uncontrollably——"IsupposeFlamelwasthere?"

"No;heleftontheyachtthismorning。"

AnanswersoobstructingtothenaturalescapeofhisirritationleftGlennardwithnomomentaryresourcebutthatofstrollingimpatientlytothewindow。Ashereyesfollowedhimtheylitonthebooks。

"Ah,you’vebroughtthem!I’msoglad,"sheexclaimed。

Heansweredoverhisshoulder,"Forawomanwhoneverreadsyoumakethemostastoundingexceptions!"

Hersmilewasanexasperatingconcessiontotheprobabilitythatithadbeenhotintownorthatsomethinghadbotheredhim。

"Doyoumeanit’snotnicetowanttoreadthebook?"sheasked。

"Itwasnotnicetopublishit,certainly;butafterall,I’mnotresponsibleforthat,amI?"Shepaused,and,ashemadenoanswer,wenton,stillsmiling,"Idoreadsometimes,youknow;

andI’mveryfondofMargaretAubyn’sbooks。Iwasreading’PomegranateSeed’whenwefirstmet。Don’tyouremember?Itwasthenyoutoldmeallabouther。"

Glennardhadturnedbackintotheroomandstoodstaringathiswife。"Allabouther?"herepeated,andwiththewordsremembrancecametohim。HehadfoundMissTrentoneafternoonwiththenovelinherhand,andmovedbythelover’sfatuousimpulsetoassociatehimselfinsomewaywithwhateverfillsthemindofthebeloved,hadbrokenthroughhishabitualsilenceaboutthepast。RewardedbytheconsciousnessoffiguringimpressivelyinMissTrent’simaginationhehadgoneonfromoneanecdotetoanother,revivingdormantdetailsofhisoldHillbridgelife,andpasturinghisvanityontheeagernesswithwhichshereceivedhisreminiscencesofabeingalreadyclothedintheimpersonalityofgreatness。

Theincidenthadleftnotraceinhismind;butitsprangupnowlikeanoldenemy,themoredangerousforhavingbeenforgotten。

Theinstinctofself—preservation——sometimesthemostperilousthatmancanexercise——madehimawkwardlydeclare——"Oh,Iusedtoseeheratpeople’shouses,thatwasall;"andhersilenceasusualleavingroomforamultiplicationofblunders,headded,withincreasedindifference,"Isimplycan’tseewhatyoucanfindtointerestyouinsuchabook。"

Sheseemedtoconsiderthisintently。"You’vereadit,then?"

"Iglancedatit——Ineverreadsuchthings。"

"Isittruethatshedidn’twishtheletterstobepublished?"

Glennardfeltthesuddendizzinessofthemountaineeronanarrowledge,andwithitthesensethathewaslostifhelookedmorethanastepahead。

"I’msureIdon’tknow,"hesaid;then,summoningasmile,hepassedhishandthroughherarm。"Ididn’thaveteaattheDreshams,youknow;won’tyougivemesomenow?"hesuggested。

ThateveningGlennard,underpretextofworktobedone,shuthimselfintothesmallstudyopeningoffthedrawing—room。Ashegathereduphispapershesaidtohiswife:"You’renotgoingtositindoorsonsuchanightasthis?I’lljoinyoupresentlyoutside。"

Butshehaddrawnherarmchairtothelamp。"Iwanttolookatmybook,"shesaid,takingupthefirstvolumeofthe"Letters。"

Glennard,withashrug,withdrewintothestudy。"I’mgoingtoshutthedoor;Iwanttobequiet,"heexplainedfromthethreshold;andshenoddedwithoutliftinghereyesfromthebook。

Hesankintoachair,staringaimlesslyattheoutspreadpapers。

Howwashetowork,whileontheothersideofthedoorshesatwiththatvolumeinherhand?Thedoordidnotshutherout——hesawherdistinctly,feltherclosetohiminacontactaspainfulasthepressureonabruise。

Thesensationwaspartofthegeneralstrangenessthatmadehimfeellikeamanwakingfromalongsleeptofindhimselfinanunknowncountryamongpeopleofalientongue。Weliveinourownsoulsasinanunmappedregion,afewacresofwhichwehaveclearedforourhabitation;whileofthenatureofthosenearestusweknowbuttheboundariesthatmarchwithours。Ofthepointsinhiswife’scharacternotindirectcontactwithhisown,Glennardnowdiscernedhisignorance;andthebafflingsenseofherremotenesswasintensifiedbythediscoverythat,inoneway,shewasclosertohimthaneverbefore。Asonemayliveforyearsinhappyunconsciousnessofthepossessionofasensitivenerve,hehadlivedbesidehiswifeunawarethatherindividualityhadbecomeapartofthetextureofhislife,ineradicableassomegrowthonavitalorgan;andhenowfelthimselfatonceincapableofforecastingherjudgmentandpowerlesstoevadeitseffects。

Toescape,thenextmorning,theconfidencesofthebreakfast—

table,hewenttotownearlierthanusual。Hiswife,whoreadslowly,wasgiventotalkingoverwhatsheread,andatpresenthisfirstobjectinlifewastopostponetheinevitablediscussionoftheletters。Thisinstinctofprotectionintheafternoon,onhiswayuptown,guidedhimtotheclubinsearchofamanwhomightbepersuadedtocomeouttothecountrytodine。TheonlymanintheclubwasFlamel。

Glennard,asheheardhimselfalmostinvoluntarilypressingFlameltocomeanddine,feltthefullironyofthesituation。TouseFlamelasashieldagainsthiswife’sscrutinywasonlyashadelesshumiliatingthantoreckononhiswifeasadefenceagainstFlamel。

Hefeltacontradictorymovementofannoyanceatthelatter’sreadyacceptance,andthetwomendroveinsilencetothestation。

Astheypassedthebookstallinthewaiting—roomFlamellingeredamomentandtheeyesofbothfellonMargaretAubyn’sname,conspicuouslydisplayedaboveacounterstackedwiththefamiliarvolumes。

"Weshallbelate,youknow,"Glennardremonstrated,pullingouthiswatch。

"Goahead,"saidFlamel,imperturbably。"Iwanttogetsomething——"

Glennardturnedonhisheelandwalkeddowntheplatform。Flamelrejoinedhimwithaninnocent—lookingmagazineinhishand;butGlennarddarednotevenglanceatthecover,lestitshouldshowthesyllableshefeared。

Thetrainwasfullofpeopletheyknew,andtheywerekeptaparttillitdroppedthematthelittlesuburbanstation。Astheystrolleduptheshadedhill,Glennardtalkedvolubly,pointingouttheimprovementsintheneighborhood,deploringthethreatenedapproachofanelectricrailway,andscreeninghimselfbyaseriesofreflexadjustmentsfromtheimminentriskofanyallusiontothe"Letters。"Flamelsufferedhisdiscoursewiththeblandinattentionthatweaccordtotheaffairsofsomeoneelse’ssuburb,andtheyreachedtheshelterofAlexa’stea—tablewithoutaperceptibleturntowardthedreadedtopic。

Thedinnerpassedoffsafely。Flamel,alwaysathisbestinAlexa’spresence,gaveherthekindofattentionwhichislikeabeaconinglightthrownonthespeaker’swords:hisanswersseemedtobringoutalatentsignificanceinherphrases,asthesculptordrawshisstatuefromtheblock。Glennard,underhiswife’scomposure,detectedasensibilitytothismanoeuvre,andthediscoverywaslikethelightning—flashacrossanocturnallandscape。Thusfarthesemomentaryilluminationshadservedonlytorevealthestrangenessoftheinterveningcountry:eachfreshobservationseemedtoincreasethesum—totalofhisignorance。

Hersimplicityofoutlinewasmorepuzzlingthanacomplexsurface。Onemayconceivablyworkone’swaythroughalabyrinth;

butAlexa’scandorwaslikeasnow—coveredplainwhere,theroadoncelost,therearenolandmarkstotravelby。

Dinnerover,theyreturnedtotheveranda,whereamoon,risingbehindtheoldelm,wascombiningwiththatcomplaisanttreearomanticenlargementoftheirborders。Glennardhadforgottenthecigars。Hewenttohisstudytofetchthem,andinpassingthroughthedrawing—roomhesawthesecondvolumeofthe"Letters"

lyingopenonhiswife’stable。Hepickedupthebookandlookedatthedateofthelettershehadbeenreading。Itwasoneofthelast……heknewthefewlinesbyheart。Hedroppedthebookandleanedagainstthewall。Whyhadheincludedthatoneamongtheothers?Orwasitpossiblethatnowtheywouldallseemlikethat……?

Alexa’svoicecamesuddenlyoutofthedusk。"MayTouchettwasright——itISlikelisteningatakey—hole。IwishIhadn’treadit!"

Flamelreturned,intheleisurelytoneofthemanwhosephrasesarepunctuatedbyacigarette,"Itseemssotous,perhaps;buttoanothergenerationthebookwillbeaclassic。"

"Thenitoughtnottohavebeenpublishedtillithadbecomeaclassic。It’shorrible,it’sdegradingalmost,toreadthesecretsofawomanonemighthaveknown。"Sheadded,inalowertone,"StephenDIDknowher——"

"Didhe?"camefromFlamel。

"Heknewherverywell,atHillbridge,yearsago。Thebookhasmadehimfeeldreadfully……hewouldn’treadit……hedidn’twantmetoreadit。Ididn’tunderstandatfirst,butnowIcanseehowhorriblydisloyalitmustseemtohim。It’ssomuchworsetosurpriseafriend’ssecretsthanastranger’s。"

"Oh,Glennard’ssuchasensitivechap,"Flamelsaid,easily;andAlexaalmostrebukinglyrejoined,"Ifyou’dknownherI’msureyou’dfeelashedoes……"

Glennardstoodmotionless,overcomebythesingularinfelicitywithwhichhehadcontrivedtoputFlamelinpossessionofthetwopointsmostdamagingtohiscase:thefactthathehadbeenafriendofMargaretAubyn’s,andthathehadconcealedfromAlexahisshareinthepublicationoftheletters。ToamanoflessthanFlamel’sastutenessitmustnowbecleartowhomtheletterswereaddressed;andthepossibilityoncesuggested,nothingcouldbeeasierthantoconfirmitbydiscreetresearch。Animpulseofself—accusaldroveGlennardtothewindow。WhynotanticipatebetrayalbytellinghiswifethetruthinFlamel’spresence?Ifthemanhadadropofdecentfeelinginhim,suchacoursewouldbethesurestmeansofsecuringhissilence;andaboveall,itwouldridGlennardofthenecessityofdefendinghimselfagainsttheperpetualcriticismofhiswife’sbeliefinhim……

Theimpulsewasstrongenoughtocarryhimtothewindow;butthereareactionofdefiancesetin。Whathadhedone,afterall,toneeddefenceandexplanation?BothDreshamandFlamelhad,inhishearing,declaredthepublicationoftheletterstobenotonlyjustifiablebutobligatory;andifthedisinterestednessofFlamel’sverdictmightbequestioned,Dresham’satleastrepresentedtheimpartialviewofthemanofletters。AstoAlexa’swords,theyweresimplytheconventionalutteranceofthe"nice"womanonaquestionalreadydecidedforherbyother"nice"

women。Shehadsaidtheproperthingasmechanicallyasshewouldhaveputontheappropriategownorwrittenthecorrectformofdinner—invitation。Glennardhadsmallfaithintheabstractjudgmentsoftheothersex;heknewthathalfthewomenwhowerehorrifiedbythepublicationofMrs。Aubyn’sletterswouldhavebetrayedhersecretswithoutascruple。

Thesuddenloweringofhisemotionalpitchbroughtaproportionaterelief。Hetoldhimselfthatnowtheworstwasoverandthingswouldfallintoperspectiveagain。HiswifeandFlamelhadturnedtoothertopics,andcomingoutontheveranda,hehandedthecigarstoFlamel,saying,cheerfully——andyethecouldhavesworntheywerethelastwordshemeanttoutter!——"Lookhere,oldman,beforeyougodowntoNewportyoumustcomeoutandspendafewdayswithus——mustn’the,Alexa?"

VIII

Glennardhad,perhapsunconsciously,countedonthecontinuanceofthiseasiermood。Hehadalwaystakenprideinacertainrobustnessoffibrethatenabledhimtohardenhimselfagainsttheinevitable,toconverthisfailuresintothebuildingmaterialsofsuccess。Thoughitdidnotevennowoccurtohimthatwhathecalledtheinevitablehadhithertobeenthealternativehehappenedtoprefer,hewasyetobscurelyawarethathispresentdifficultywasonenottobeconjuredbyanyaffectationofindifference。Somegriefsbuildthesoulaspacioushouse——butinthismiseryofGlennard’shecouldnotstandupright。Itpressedagainsthimateveryturn。Hetoldhimselfthatthiswasbecausetherewasnoescapefromthevisibleevidencesofhisact。The"Letters"confrontedhimeverywhere。Peoplewhohadneveropenedabookdiscussedthemwithcriticalreservations;tohavereadthemhadbecomeasocialobligationincirclestowhichliteratureneverpenetratesexceptinapersonalguise。

Glennarddidhimselfinjustice。itwasfromtheunexpecteddiscoveryofhisownpettinessthathechieflysuffered。Ourself—esteemisapttobebasedonthehypotheticalgreatactwehaveneverhadoccasiontoperform;andeventhemostself—

scrutinizingmodestycreditsitselfnegativelywithahighstandardofconduct。Glennardhadneverthoughthimselfahero;

buthehadbeencertainthathewasincapableofbaseness。Wealllikeourwrong—doingstohaveabecomingcut,tobemadetoorder,asitwere;andGlennardfoundhimselfsuddenlythrustintoagarbofdishonorsurelymeantforameanerfigure。

Theimmediateresultofhisfirstweeksofwretchednesswastheresolvetogototownforthewinter。Heknewthatsuchacoursewasjustbeyondthelimitofprudence;butitwaseasytoallaythefearsofAlexawho,scrupulouslyvigilantinthemanagementofthehousehold,preservedtheAmericanwife’susualaloofnessfromherhusband’sbusinesscares。Glennardfeltthathecouldnottrusthimselftoawinter’ssolitudewithher。Hehadanunspeakabledreadofherlearningthetruthabouttheletters,yetcouldnotbesureofsteelinghimselfagainstthesuicidalimpulseofavowal。Hisverysoulwasparchedforsympathy;hethirstedforavoiceofpityandcomprehension。Butwouldhiswifepity?

Wouldsheunderstand?Againhefoundhimselfbroughtupabruptlyagainsthisincredibleignoranceofhernature。Thefactthatheknewwellenoughhowshewouldbehaveintheordinaryemergenciesoflife,thathecouldcount,insuchcontingencies,onthekindofhighcourageanddirectnesshehadalwaysdivinedinher,madehimthemorehopelessofherenteringintothetorturouspsychologyofanactthathehimselfcouldnolongerexplainorunderstand。Itwouldhavebeeneasierhadshebeenmorecomplex,morefeminine——ifhecouldhavecountedonherimaginativesympathyorhermoralobtuseness——buthewassureofneither。Hewassureofnothingbutthat,foratime,hemustavoidher。

Glennardcouldnotridhimselfofthedelusionthatbyandbyhisactionwouldceasetomakeitsconsequencesfelt。Hewouldnothavecaredtoowntohimselfthathecountedonthedullingofhissensibilities:hepreferredtoindulgethevaguehypothesisthatextraneouscircumstanceswouldsomehoweffacetheblotuponhisconscience。Inhisworstmomentsofself—abasementhetriedtofindsolaceinthethoughtthatFlamelhadsanctionedhiscourse。

Flamel,attheoutset,musthaveguessedtowhomtheletterswereaddressed;yetneitherthennorafterwardhadhehesitatedtoadvisetheirpublication。ThisthoughtdrewGlennardtohiminfitfulimpulsesoffriendliness,fromeachofwhichtherewasasharperreactionofdistrustandaversion。WhenFlamelwasnotatthehouse,hemissedthesupportofhistacitconnivance;whenhewasthere,hispresenceseemedtheassertionofanintolerableclaim。

EarlyinthewintertheGlennardstookpossessionofthelittlehousethatwastocostthemalmostnothing。ThechangebroughtGlennardtheimmediatereliefofseeinglessofhiswife,andofbeingprotected,inherpresence,bythemultipliedpreoccupationsoftownlife。Alexa,whocouldneverappearhurried,showedthesmilingabstractionofaprettywomantowhomthesocialsideofmarriedlifehasnotlostitsnovelty。Glennard,withtherecklessnessofamanfreshfromhisfirstfinancialimprudence,encouragedherinsuchlittleextravagancesashergoodsenseatfirstresisted。Sincetheyhadcometotown,heargued,theymightaswellenjoythemselves。Hetookasympatheticviewofthenecessityofnewgowns,hegaveherasetoffursatChristmas,andbeforetheNewYeartheyhadagreedontheobligationofaddingaparlour—maidtotheirsmallestablishment。

ProvidencetheverynextdayhastenedtojustifythismeasurebyplacingonGlennard’sbreakfast—plateanenvelopebearingthenameofthepublisherstowhomhehadsoldMrs。Aubyn’sletters。Ithappenedtobetheonlylettertheearlyposthadbrought,andheglancedacrossthetableathiswife,whohadcomedownbeforehimandhadprobablylaidtheenvelopeonhisplate。Shewasnotthewomantoaskawkwardquestions,buthefelttheconjectureofherglance,andhewasdebatingwhethertoaffectsurpriseatthereceiptoftheletter,ortopassitoffasabusinesscommunicationthathadstrayedtohishouse,whenacheckfellfromtheenvelope。Itwastheroyaltyonthefirsteditionoftheletters。Hisfirstfeelingwasoneofsimplesatisfaction。Themoneyhadcomewithsuchinfernalopportunenessthathecouldnothelpwelcomingit。Beforelong,too,therewouldbemore;heknewthebookwasstillsellingfarbeyondthepublisher’sprevisions。

Heputthecheckinhispocketandlefttheroomwithoutlookingathiswife。

Onthewaytohisofficethehabitualreactionsetin。Themoneyhehadreceivedwasthefirsttangiblereminderthathewaslivingonthesaleofhisself—esteem。Thethoughtofmaterialbenefithadbeenovershadowedbyhissenseoftheintrinsicbasenessofmakingthelettersknown;nowhesawwhatanelementofsordidnessitaddedtothesituationandhowthefactthatheneededthemoney,andmustuseit,pledgedhimmoreirrevocablythanevertotheconsequencesofhisact。Itseemedtohim,inthatfirsthourofmisery,thathehadbetrayedhisfriendanew。

When,thatafternoon,hereachedhomeearlierthanusual,Alexa’sdrawing—roomwasfullofagayetythatoverflowedtothestairs。

Flamel,forawonder,wasnotthere;butDreshamandyoungHartly,groupedaboutthetea—table,werereceivingwithresonantmirthanarrativedeliveredintheflutteredstaccatothatmadeMrs。

Armiger’sconversationliketheejaculationsofastartledaviary。

ShepausedasGlennardentered,andhehadtimetonoticethathiswife,whowasbusiedaboutthetea—tray,hadnotjoinedinthelaughterofthemen。

"Oh,goon,goon,"youngHartlyrapturouslygroaned;andMrs。

ArmigermetGlennard’sinquirywiththedeprecatingcrythatreallyshedidn’tseewhattherewastolaughat。"I’msureI

feelmorelikecrying。Idon’tknowwhatIshouldhavedoneifAlexahadn’tbeenhometogivemeacupoftea。Mynervesareinshreds——yes,another,dear,please——"andasGlennardlookedhisperplexity,shewenton,afterponderingontheselectionofasecondlumpofsugar,"Why,I’vejustcomefromthereading,youknow——thereadingattheWaldorf。"

"Ihaven’tbeenintownlongenoughtoknowanything,"saidGlennard,takingthecuphiswifehandedhim。"Whohasbeenreadingwhat?"

"ThatlovelygirlfromtheSouth——Georgie——Georgiewhat’shername——Mrs。Dresham’sprotegee——unlessshe’sYOURS,Mr。Dresham!

Why,thebigball—roomwasPACKED,andallthewomenwerecryinglikeidiots——itwasthemostharrowingthingIeverheard——"

"WhatDIDyouhear?"Glennardasked;andhiswifeinterposed:

"Won’tyouhaveanotherbitofcake,Julia?Or,Stephen,ringforsomehottoast,please。"Hertonebetrayedapolitesatietyofthetopicunderdiscussion。Glennardturnedtothebell,butMrs。

Armigerpursuedhimwithherlovelyamazement。

"Why,the"AubynLetters"——didn’tyouknowaboutit?Thegirlreadthemsobeautifullythatitwasquitehorrible——Ishouldhavefaintedifthere’dbeenamannearenoughtocarrymeout。"

Hartly’sgleeredoubled,andDreshamsaid,jovially,"Howlikeyouwomentoraiseashriekoverthebookandthendoallyoucantoencouragetheblatantpublicityofthereadings!"

Mrs。Armigermethimmorethanhalf—wayonatorrentofself—

accusal。"ItWAShorrid;itwasdisgraceful。Itoldyourwifeweoughtalltobeashamedofourselvesforgoing,andIthinkAlexawasquiterighttorefusetotakeanytickets——evenifitwasforacharity。"

"Oh,"herhostessmurmured,indifferently,"withmecharitybeginsathome。Ican’taffordemotionalluxuries。"

"Acharity?Acharity?"Hartlyexulted。"Ihadn’tseizedthefullbeautyofit。ReadingpoorMargaretAubyn’slove—lettersattheWaldorfbeforefivehundredpeopleforacharity!WHAT

charity,dearMrs。Armiger?"

"Why,theHomeforFriendlessWomen——"

"Itwaswellchosen,"Dreshamcommented;andHartlyburiedhismirthinthesofa—cushions。

WhentheywerealoneGlennard,stillholdinghisuntouchedcupoftea,turnedtohiswife,whosatsilentlybehindthekettle。"Whoaskedyoutotakeaticketforthatreading?"

"Idon’tknow,really——KateDresham,Ifancy。Itwasshewhogotitup。"

"It’sjustthesortofdamnablevulgarityshe’scapableof!It’sloathsome——it’smonstrous——"

Hiswife,withoutlookingup,answeredgravely,"Ithoughtsotoo。

ItwasforthatreasonIdidn’tgo。ButyoumustrememberthatveryfewpeoplefeelaboutMrs。Aubynasyoudo——"

Glennardmanagedtosetdownhiscupwithasteadyhand,buttheroomswungroundwithhimandhedroppedintothenearestchair。

"AsIdo?"herepeated。

"ImeanthatveryfewpeopleknewherwhenshelivedinNewYork。

Tomostofthewomenwhowenttothereadingshewasamerename,tooremotetohaveanypersonality。Withme,ofcourse,itwasdifferent——"

Glennardgaveherastartledlook。"Different?Whydifferent?"

"Sinceyouwereherfriend——"

"Herfriend!"Hestoodupimpatiently。"Youspeakasifshehadhadonlyone——themostfamouswomanofherday!"Hemovedvaguelyabouttheroom,bendingdowntolookatsomebooksonthetable。

"Ihope,"headded,"youdidn’tgivethatasareason,bytheway?"

"Areason?"

"Fornotgoing。Awomanwhogivesreasonsforgettingoutofsocialobligationsissuretomakeherselfunpopularorridiculous。

Thewordswereuncalculated;butinaninstanthesawthattheyhadstrangelybridgedthedistancebetweenhiswifeandhimself。

Hefelthercloseonhim,likeapantingfoe;andheranswerwasaflashthatshowedthehandonthetrigger。

"Iseem,"shesaidfromthethreshold,"tohavedonebothingivingmyreasontoyou。"

ThefactthattheywerediningoutthateveningmadeiteasyforhimtoavoidAlexatillshecamedownstairsinheropera—cloak。

Mrs。Touchett,whowasgoingtothesamedinner,hadofferedtocallforher,andGlennard,refusingaprecariousseatbetweentheladies’draperies,followedonfoot。Theeveningwasinterminable。ThereadingattheWaldorf,atwhichallthewomenhadbeenpresent,hadrevivedthediscussionofthe"AubynLetters"andGlennard,hearinghiswifequestionedastoherabsence,felthimselfmiserablywishingthatshehadgone,ratherthanthatherstayingawayshouldhavebeenremarked。Hewasrapidlylosingallsenseofproportionwherethe"Letters"wereconcerned。Hecouldnolongerhearthemmentionedwithoutsuspectingapurposeintheallusion;heevenyieldedhimselfforamomenttotheextravaganceofimaginingthatMrs。Dresham,whomhedisliked,hadorganizedthereadinginthehopeofmakinghimbetrayhimself——forhewasalreadysurethatDreshamhaddivinedhisshareinthetransaction。

Theattempttokeepasmoothsurfaceonthisinnertumultwasasendlessandunavailingaseffortsmadeinanightmare。Helostallsenseofwhathewassayingtohisneighborsandoncewhenhelookeduphiswife’sglancestruckhimcold。

Shesatnearlyoppositehim,atFlamel’sside,anditappearedtoGlennardthattheyhadbuiltaboutthemselvesoneofthoseairybarriersoftalkbehindwhichtwopeoplecansaywhattheyplease。

Whilethereadingwasdiscussedtheyweresilent。TheirsilenceseemedtoGlennardalmostcynical——itstrippedthelastdisguisefromtheircomplicity。Athrobofangerroseinhim,butsuddenlyitfell,andhefelt,withacurioussenseofrelief,thatatbottomhenolongercaredwhetherFlamelhadtoldhiswifeornot。

TheassumptionthatFlamelknewaboutthelettershadbecomeafacttoGlennard;anditnowseemedtohimbetterthatAlexashouldknowtoo。

Hewasfrightenedatfirstbythediscoveryofhisownindifference。Thelastbarriersofhiswillseemedtobebreakingdownbeforeafloodofmorallassitude。Howcouldhecontinuetoplayhispart,tokeephisfronttotheenemy,withthispoisonofindifferencestealingthroughhisveins?Hetriedtobracehimselfwiththeremembranceofhiswife’sscorn。Hehadnotforgottenthenoteonwhichtheirconversationhadclosed。Ifhehadeverwonderedhowshewouldreceivethetruthhewonderednolonger——shewoulddespisehim。Butthislentanewinsidiousnesstohistemptation,sincehercontemptwouldbearefugefromhisown。Hesaidtohimselfthat,sincehenolongercaredfortheconsequences,hecouldatleastacquithimselfofspeakinginself—defence。Whathewantednowwasnotimmunitybutcastigation:hiswife’sindignationmightstillreconcilehimtohimself。Thereinlayhisonehopeofregeneration;herscornwasthemoralantisepticthatheneeded,hercomprehensiontheonebalmthatcouldhealhim……

Whentheyleftthedinnerhewassoafraidofspeakingthatheletherdrivehomealone,andwenttotheclubwithFlamel。

IX

HErosenextmorningwiththeresolvetoknowwhatAlexathoughtofhim。Itwasnotanchoringinahaven,butlyingtoinastorm——

hefelttheneedofatemporarylullintheturmoilofhissensations。

Hecamehomelate,fortheywerediningaloneandheknewthattheywouldhavetheeveningtogether。Whenhefollowedhertothedrawing—roomafterdinnerhethoughthimselfonthepointofspeaking;butasshehandedhimhiscoffeehesaid,involuntarily:

"Ishallhavetocarrythisofftothestudy,I’vegotalotofworkto—night。"

Aloneinthestudyhecursedhiscowardice。Whatwasitthathadwithheldhim?Acertainbrightunapproachablenessseemedtokeephimatarm’slength。Shewasnotthekindofwomanwhosecompassioncouldbecircumvented;therewasnochanceofslippingpasttheoutposts;hewouldnevertakeherbysurprise。Well——whynotfaceher,then?Whatheshrankfromcouldbenoworsethanwhathewasenduring。Hehadpushedbackhischairandturnedtogoupstairswhenanewexpedientpresenteditself。Whatif,insteadoftellingher,heweretoletherfindoutforherselfandwatchtheeffectofthediscoverybeforespeaking?Inthiswayhemadeovertochancetheburdenoftherevelation。

Theideahadbeensuggestedbythesightoftheformulaenclosingthepublisher’scheck。Hehaddepositedthemoney,butthenoticeaccompanyingitdroppedfromhisnote—caseasheclearedhistableforwork。ItwastheformulausualinsuchcasesandrevealedclearlyenoughthathewastherecipientofaroyaltyonMargaretAubyn’sletters。ItwouldbeimpossibleforAlexatoreaditwithoutunderstandingatoncethatthelettershadbeenwrittentohimandthathehadsoldthem……

Hesatdownstairstillheheardherringfortheparlor—maidtoputoutthelights;thenhewentuptothedrawing—roomwithabundleofpapersinhishand。Alexawasjustrisingfromherseatandthelamplightfellonthedeeprollofhairthatoverhungherbrowliketheeavesofatemple。Herfacehadoftenthehighsecludedlookofashrine;anditwasthistouchofaweinherbeautythatnowmadehimfeelhimselfonthebrinkofsacrilege。

Lestthefeelingshoulddominatehim,hespokeatonce。"I’vebroughtyouapieceofwork——alotofoldbillsandthingsthatI

wantyoutosortforme。Somearenotworthkeeping——butyou’llbeabletojudgeofthat。Theremaybealetterortwoamongthem——nothingofmuchaccount,butIdon’tliketothrowawaythewholelotwithouthavingthemlookedoverandIhaven’ttimetodoitmyself。"

Heheldoutthepapersandshetookthemwithasmilethatseemedtorecognizeintheserviceheaskedthetacitintentionofmakingamendsfortheincidentofthepreviousday。

"AreyousureIshallknowwhichtokeep?"

"Oh,quitesure,"heanswered,easily——"andbesides,noneareofmuchimportance。"

Thenextmorningheinventedanexcuseforleavingthehousewithoutseeingher,andwhenhereturned,justbeforedinner,hefoundavisitor’shatandstickinthehall。ThevisitorwasFlamel,whowasintheactoftakingleave。

Hehadrisen,butAlexaremainedseated;andtheirattitudegavetheimpressionofacolloquythathadprolongeditselfbeyondthelimitsofspeech。BothturnedasurprisedeyeonGlennardandhehadthesenseofwalkingintoaroomgrownsuddenlyempty,asthoughtheirthoughtswereconspiratorsdispersedbyhisapproach。

Hefelttheclutchofhisoldfear。WhatifhiswifehadalreadysortedthepapersandhadtoldFlamelofherdiscovery?Well,itwasnonewstoFlamelthatGlennardwasinreceiptofaroyaltyonthe"AubynLetters。"……

AsuddenresolvetoknowtheworstmadehimlifthiseyestohiswifeasthedoorclosedonFlamel。ButAlexahadrisenalso,andbendingoverherwriting—table,withherbacktoGlennard,wasbeginningtospeakprecipitately。

"I’mdiningoutto—night——youdon’tmindmydesertingyou?JuliaArmigersentmewordjustnowthatshehadanextraticketforthelastAmbroseconcert。Shetoldmetosayhowsorryshewasthatshehadn’ttwo——butIknewYOUwouldn’tbesorry!"SheendedwithalaughthathadtheeffectofbeingastrayedechoofMrs。

Armiger’s;andbeforeGlennardcouldspeakshehadadded,withherhandonthedoor,"Mr。FlamelstayedsolatethatI’vehardlytimetodress。Theconcertbeginsridiculouslyearly,andJuliadinesathalf—pastseven——"

Glennardstoodaloneintheemptyroomthatseemedsomehowfullofanironicalconsciousnessofwhatwashappening。"Shehatesme,"

hemurmured。"Shehatesme……"

ThenextdaywasSunday,andGlennardpurposelylingeredlateinhisroom。Whenhecamedownstairshiswifewasalreadyseatedatthebreakfast—table。Sheliftedherusualsmiletohisentranceandtheytookshelterinthenearesttopic,likewayfarersovertakenbyastorm。Whilehelistenedtoheraccountoftheconcerthebegantothinkthat,afterall,shehadnotyetsortedthepapers,andthatheragitationofthepreviousdaymustbeascribedtoanothercause,inwhichperhapshehadbutanindirectconcern。HewonderedithadneverbeforeoccurredtohimthatFlamelwasthekindofmanwhomightverywellpleaseawomanathisownexpense,withoutneedoffortuitousassistance。Ifthispossibilityclearedtheoutlookitdidnotbrightenit。Glennardmerelyfelthimselfleftalonewithhisbaseness。

Alexaleftthebreakfast—tablebeforehimandwhenhewentuptothedrawing—roomhefoundherdressedtogoout。

"Aren’tyoualittleearlyforchurch?"heasked。

Sherepliedthat,onthewaythere,shemeanttostopamomentathermother’s;andwhileshedrewonhergloves,hefumbledamongtheknick—knacksonthemantel—pieceforamatchtolighthiscigarette。

"Well,good—by,"shesaid,turningtogo;andfromthethresholdsheadded:"Bytheway,I’vesortedthepapersyougaveme。ThosethatIthoughtyouwouldliketokeepareonyourstudy—table。"

Shewentdownstairsandheheardthedoorclosebehindher。

Shehadsortedthepapers——sheknew,then——sheMUSTknow——andshehadmadenosign!

Glennard,hehardlyknewhow,foundhimselfoncemoreinthestudy。Onthetablelaythepackethehadgivenher。Itwasmuchsmaller——shehadevidentlygoneoverthepaperswithcare,destroyingthegreaternumber。Heloosenedtheelasticbandandspreadtheremainingenvelopesonhisdesk。Thepublisher’snoticewasamongthem。

X

Hiswifeknewandshemadenosign。Glennardfoundhimselfinthecaseoftheseafarerwho,closinghiseyesatnightfallonascenehethinkstoputleaguesbehindhimbeforeday,wakestoaport—

holeframingthesamepatchofshore。Fromthekindofexaltationtowhichhisresolvehadliftedhimhedroppedtoanunreasoningapathy。Hisimpulseofconfessionhadactedasadrugtoself—

reproach。Hehadtriedtoshiftaportionofhisburdentohiswife’sshouldersandnowthatshehadtacitlyrefusedtocarryit,hefelttheloadtooheavytobetakenupagain。

Afortunateintervalofhardworkbroughtrespitefromthisphaseofsterilemisery。HewentWesttoargueanimportantcase,wonit,andcamebacktofreshpreoccupations。Hisownaffairswerethrivingenoughtoengrosshiminthepausesofhisprofessionalwork,andforovertwomonthshehadlittletimetolookhimselfintheface。Notunnaturally——forhewasasyetunskilledinthesubtletiesofintrospection——hemistookhistemporaryinsensibilityforagradualrevivalofmoralhealth。

Hetoldhimselfthathewasrecoveringhissenseofproportion,gettingtoseethingsintheirtruelight;andifhenowthoughtofhisrashappealtohiswife’ssympathyitwasasanactoffollyfromtheconsequencesofwhichhehadbeensavedbytheprovidencethatwatchesovermadmen。HehadlittleleisuretoobserveAlexa;butheconcludedthatthecommon—sensemomentarilydeniedhimhadcounselledheruncriticalacceptanceoftheinevitable。Ifsuchaqualitywasapoorsubstituteforthepassionatejustnessthathadonceseemedtocharacterizeher,heacceptedthealternativeasapartofthatgeneralloweringofthekeythatseemsneedfultothemaintenanceofthematrimonialduet。

Whatwomaneverretainedherabstractsenseofjusticewhereanotherwomanwasconcerned?PossiblythethoughtthathehadprofitedbyMrs。Aubyn’stendernesswasnotwhollydisagreeabletohiswife。

Whenthepressureofworkbegantolessen,andhefoundhimself,inthelengtheningafternoons,abletoreachhomesomewhatearlier,henoticedthatthelittledrawing—roomwasalwaysfullandthatheandhiswifeseldomhadaneveningalonetogether。

Whenhewastired,asoftenhappened,shewentoutalone;theideaofgivingupanengagementtoremainwithhimseemednottooccurtoher。Shehadshown,asagirl,littlefondnessforsociety,norhadsheseemedtoregretitduringtheyeartheyhadspentinthecountry。Hereflected,however,thathewassharingthecommonlotofhusbands,whoproverbiallymistaketheearlyardorsofhousekeepingforasignofsettleddomesticity。Alexa,atanyrate,wasrefutinghistheoryasinconsideratelyasaseedlingdefeatsthegardener’sexpectations。Anundefinablechangehadcomeoverher。Inonesenseitwasahappyone,sinceshehadgrown,ifnothandsomer,atleastmorevividandexpressive;herbeautyhadbecomemorecommunicable:itwasasthoughshehadlearnedtheconsciousexerciseofintuitiveattributesandnowusedhereffectswiththediscriminationofanartistskilledinvalues。Toadispassionatecritic(asGlennardnowratedhimself)

theartmayattimeshavebeenalittletooobvious。Herattemptsatlightnesslackedspontaneity,andshesometimesraspedhimbylaughinglikeJuliaArmiger;buthehadenoughimaginationtoperceivethat,inrespectofthewife’ssocialarts,ahusbandnecessarilyseesthewrongsideofthetapestry。

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