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Thesevisitors,comingstraightfromforeignlandstothelittleMainevillage,broughtwiththemanamelessenchantmenttothechildren,andespeciallytoRebecca,whoseimaginationalwayskindledeasily。Theromanceofthatvisithadneverdiedinherheart,andamongthemanycareersthatdazzledheryouthfulvisionwasthatofconvertingsuchSyrianheathenasmightcontinueinidolworshipaftertheBurches’effortsintheirbehalfhadceased。ShethoughtattheageofeighteenshemightbesuitablyequippedforstormingsomeminorcitadelofMohammedanism;andMrs。Burchhadencouragedherintheidea,not,itistobefeared,becauseRebeccashowedanysurplusofvirtueorChristiangrace,butbecausehergiftoflanguage,hertactandsympathy,andhermusicaltalentseemedtofitherforthework。

ItchancedthatthequarterlymeetingoftheMaineMissionarySocietyhadbeenappointedjustatthetimewhenaletterfromMrs。BurchtoMissJaneSawyersuggestedthatRebeccashouldformachildren’sbranchinRiverboro。Mrs。Burch’srealideawasthattheyoungpeopleshouldsavetheirpenniesanddivertagentlestreamoffinancialaidintotheparentfund,thuslearningearlyinlifetobeusefulinsuchwork,eitherathomeorabroad。

Thegirlsthemselves,however,readintoherletternosuchmodestparticipationintheconversionoftheworld,andwishingtoeffectanorganizationwithoutdelay,theychoseanafternoonwheneveryhouseinthevillagewasvacant,andseizedupontheRobinsons’barnchamberastheplaceofmeeting。

Rebecca,AliceRobinson,EmmaJanePerkins,CandaceMilliken,andPersisWatson,eachwithherhymnbook,hadclimbedtheladderleadingtothehaymowahalfhourbeforeAbijahFlagghadheardthestrainsof"DaughtersofZion"floatingouttotheroad。

Rebecca,beinganexecutiveperson,hadcarried,besidesherhymnbook,asilvercall-bellandpencilandpaper。Ananimateddiscussionregardingoneoftwonamesforthesociety,TheJuniorHeraldsorTheDaughtersofZion,hadresultedinaunanimousvoteforthelatter,andRebeccahadbeenelectedpresidentatanearlystageofthemeeting。ShehadmodestlysuggestedthatAliceRobinson,asthegranddaughterofamissionarytoChina,wouldbemuchmoreeligible。

"No,"saidAlice,withentiregoodnature,"whoeverisELECTED

president,youWILLbe,Rebecca——you’rethatkind——soyoumightaswellhavethehonor;I’djustaslievesbesecretary,anyway。"

"Ifyoushouldwantmetobetreasurer,Icouldbe,aswellasnot,"saidPersisWatsonsuggestively;"foryouknowmyfatherkeepschinabanksathisstore——onesthatwillholdasmuchastwodollarsifyouwillletthem。Ithinkhe’dgiveusoneifI

happentobetreasurer。"

Thethreeprincipalofficerswerethuselectedatonefellswoopandwithanentireabsenceofthatredtapewhichcommonlyrendersorganizationsotiresome,CandaceMillikensuggestingthatperhapsshe’dbetterbevice-president,asEmmaJanePerkinswasalwayssobashful。

"Weoughttohavemoremembers,"sheremindedtheothergirls,"butifwehadinvitedthemthefirstdaythey’dhaveallwantedtobeofficers,especiallyMinnieSmellie,soit’sjustaswellnottoaskthemtillanothertime。IsThirzaMeservetoolittletojoin?"

"Ican’tthinkwhyanybodynamedMeserveshouldhavecalledababyThirza,"saidRebecca,somewhatoutoforder,thoughthemeetingwascarriedonwithsmallrecognitionofparliamentarylaws。"Italwaysmakesmewanttosay:

ThirzaMeserverHeavenpreserveher!

ThirzaMeserverDowedeserveher?

She’slittle,butshe’ssweet,andabsolutelywithoutguile。I

thinkweoughttohaveher。"

"Is’guile’thesameas’guilt?"inquiredEmmaJanePerkins。

"Yes,"thepresidentanswered;"exactlythesame,exceptoneiswrittenandtheotherspokenlanguage。"(Rebeccawasrathergoodatimbibinginformation,andamasterhandatimpartingit!)

"Writtenlanguageisforpoemsandgraduationsandoccasionslikethis——kindoflikeabestSunday-go-to-meetingdressthatyouwouldn’tliketogoblueberryinginforfearofgettingitspotted。"

"I’djustas’lievesget’guile’spottedasnot,"affirmedtheunimaginativeEmmaJane。"Ithinkit’sanawfulfoolishword;butnowwe’reallnamedandourofficerselected,whatdowedofirst?It’seasyenoughforMaryandMarthaBurch;theyjustplayatmissionaryingbecausetheirfolksworkatit,sameasLivingandIusedtomakebelievebeblacksmithswhenwewerelittle。"

"Itmustbenicermissionaryinginthoseforeignplaces,"saidPersis,"becauseon’Afric’sshoresandIndia’splainsandotherspotswhereSatanreigns’(that’sfather’sfavoritehymn)there’salwaysaheathenbowingdowntowoodandstone。Youcantakeawayhisidolsifhe’llletyouandgivehimabibleandthebeginning’sallmade。Butwho’llwebeginon?JethroSmall?"

"Oh,he’sentirelytoodirty,andfoolishbesides!"exclaimedCandace。"WhynotEthanHunt?Heswearsdreadfully。"

"Helivesonnutsandisahermit,andit’samiletohiscampthroughthethickwoods;mymother’llneverletmegothere,"

objectedAlice。"There’sUncleTutJudson。"

"He’stooold;he’smostahundredanddeafasapost,"

complainedEmmaJane。"Besides,hismarrieddaughterisaSabbath-schoolteacher——whydoesn’tsheteachhimtobehave?I

can’tthinkofanybodyjustrighttostarton!"

"Don’ttalklikethat,EmmaJane,"andRebecca’stonehadatingeofreproofinit。"WeareacopperatedbodynamedtheDaughtersofZion,and,ofcourse,we’vegottofindsomethingtodo。

Foreignersaretheeasiest;there’saScotchfamilyatNorthRiverboro,anEnglishoneinEdgewood,andoneCubanmanatMillkin’sMills。"

"Haven’tforeignersgotanyreligionoftheirown?"inquiredPersiscuriously。

"Ye-es,Is’poseso;kindofaone;butforeigners’religionsareneverright——oursistheonlygoodone。"ThiswasfromCandace,thedeacon’sdaughter。

"Idothinkitmustbedreadful,beingbornwithareligionandgrowingupwithit,andthenfindingoutit’snouseandallyourtimewasted!"HereRebeccasighed,chewedastraw,andlookedtroubled。

"Well,that’syourpunishmentforbeingaheathen,"retortedCandace,whohadbeenbroughtupstrictly。

"ButIcan’tforthelifeofmeseehowyoucanhelpbeingaheathenifyou’reborninAfrica,"persistedPersis,whowaswellnamed。

"Youcan’t。"Rebeccawasclearonthispoint。"IhadthatalloutwithMrs。BurchwhenshewasvisitingAuntMiranda。Shesaystheycan’thelpbeingheathen,butifthere’sasinglemissionstationinthewholeofAfrica,they’reaccountableiftheydon’tgothereandgetsaved。"

"Arethereplentyofstagesandrailroads?"askedAlice;"becausetheremustbedreadfullylongdistances,andwhatiftheycouldn’tpaythefare?"

"Thatpartofitissodreadfullypuzzlywemustn’ttalkaboutit,please,"saidRebecca,hersensitivefacequiveringwiththeforceoftheproblem。Poorlittlesoul!Shedidnotrealizethathersuperiorsinageandintellecthadspentmanyasleeplessnightoverthatsame"accountabilityoftheheathen。"

"It’stoobadtheSimpsonshavemovedaway,"saidCandace。"It’ssoseldomyoucanfindarealbigwickedfamilylikethattosave,withonlyClaraBelleandSusangoodinit。"

"Andnumberscountforsomuch,"continuedAlice。"Mygrandmothersaysifmissionariescan’tconvertaboutsomanyinayeartheBoardadvisesthemtocomebacktoAmericaandtakeupsomeotherwork。"

"Iknow,"Rebeccacorroborated;"andit’sthesamewithrevivalists。AttheCentennialpicnicatNorthRiverboro,arevivalistsatoppositetoMr。LaddandAuntJaneandme,andhewastellingabouthiswonderfulsuccessinBangorlastwinter。

He’dconvertedahundredandthirtyinamonth,hesaid,oraboutfourandathirdaday。Ihadjustfinishedfractions,soIaskedMr。Laddhowthethirdofamancouldbeconverted。Helaughedandsaiditwasjusttheotherway;thatthemanwasathirdconverted。ThenheexplainedthatifyouweretryingtoconvinceapersonofhissinonaMonday,andcouldn’tquitefinishbysundown,perhapsyouwouldn’twanttositupallnightwithhim,andperhapshewouldn’twantyouto;soyou’dbeginagainonTuesday,andyoucouldn’tsayjustwhichdayhewasconverted,becauseitwouldbetwothirdsonMondayandonethirdonTuesday。"

"Mr。Laddisalwaysmakingfun,andtheBoardcouldn’texpectanygreatthingsofusgirls,newbeginners,"suggestedEmmaJane,whowasbeingconstantlywarnedagainsttautologybyherteacher。

"Ithinkit’sawfulrude,anyway,togorightoutandtrytoconvertyourneighbors;butifyouborrowahorseandgotoEdgewoodLowerCorner,orMilliken’sMills,Is’posethatmakesitForeignMissions。"

"Wouldweeachgoaloneorwaituponthemwithacommittee,astheydidwhentheyaskedDeaconTuttleforacontributionforthenewhearse?"askedPersis。

"Oh!Wemustgoalone,"decidedRebecca;"itwouldbemuchmorerefinedanddelicate。AuntMirandasaysthatonemanalonecouldnevergetasubscriptionfromDeaconTuttle,andthat’sthereasontheysentacommittee。ButitseemstomeMrs。Burchcouldn’tmeanforustotryandconvertpeoplewhenwe’renoneofusevenchurchmembers,exceptCandace。IthinkallwecandoistopersuadethemtogotomeetingandSabbathschool,orgivemoneyforthehearse,orthenewhorsesheds。Nowlet’sallthinkquietlyforaminuteortwowho’stheverymostheathenishandreperrehensiblestpersoninRiverboro。"

Afteraverybriefperiodofsilencethewords"JacobMoody"fellfromalllipswithentireaccord。

"Youareright,"saidthepresidenttersely;"andaftersinginghymnnumbertwohundredseventyfour,tobefoundonthesixty-sixthpage,wewilltakeupthequestionofpersuadingMr。

Moodytoattenddivineserviceortheminister’sBibleclass,henothavingbeeninthemeeting-houseforlo!thesemanyyears。

’DaughterofZion,thepowerthathathsavedtheeExtolledwiththeharpandthetimbrelshouldbe。’

"Singwithoutreading,ifyouplease,omittingthesecondstanza。

Hymntwoseventyfour,tobefoundonthesixty-sixthpageofthenewhymnbookoronpagethirtytwoofEmmaJanePerkins’soldone。"

II

ItisdoubtfuliftheRev。Mr。BurchhadeverfoundinSyriaapersonmoredifficulttopersuadethanthealready"gospel-hardened"JacobMoodyofRiverboro。

Tall,gaunt,swarthy,black-bearded——hismassesofgrizzled,uncombedhairandtheredscaracrosshisnoseandcheekaddedtohissinisterappearance。Histumble-downhousestoodonarockybitoflandbackoftheSawyerpasture,andtheacresofhisfarmstretchedoutonallsidesofit。Helivedalone,atealone,plowed,planted,sowed,harvestedalone,andwasmorethanwillingtodiealone,"unwept,unhonored,andunsung。"Theroadthatbordereduponhisfieldswascomparativelylittleusedbyanyone,andnotwithstandingthefactthatitwasthicklysetwithchokecherrytreesandblackberrybushesithadbeenforyearspracticallydesertedbythechildren。Jacob’sRedAstrakhanandGrannyGarlandtreeshungthickwithapples,butnoRiverboroorEdgewoodboystolethem;forterrifyingaccountsofthefatethathadovertakenoneurchinintimesagonehadbeenhandedalongfromboytoboy,protectingtheMoodyfruitfarbetterthananypolicepatrol。

Perhapsnocircumstancescouldhaveextenuatedtheoldman’ssurlymannersorhislackofallcitizenlygracesandvirtues;

buthisneighborscommonlyrebukedhispresentwayoflivingandforgotthetroubledpastthathadbroughtitabout:thesharp-tonguedwife,theunlovinganddisloyalsons,thedaughter’shaplessfate,andalltheothersorrytricksthatfortunehadplayeduponhim——atleastthatwasthewayinwhichhehadalwaysregardedhisdisappointmentsandgriefs。

This,then,wasthepersonagewhosemoralrehabilitationwastobeaccomplishedbytheDaughtersofZion。Buthow?

"WhowillvolunteertovisitMr。Moody?"blandlyaskedthepresident。

VISITMR。MOODY!Itwasawondertheroofofthebarnchamberdidnotfall;itdid,indeedechothewordsandinsomewaymakethemsoundmoregrimandsatirical。

"Nobody’llvolunteer,RebeccaRowenaRandall,andyouknowit,"

saidEmmaJane。

"Whydon’twedrawlots,whennoneofuswantstospeaktohimandyetoneofusmust?"

ThissuggestionfellfromPersisWatson,whohadbeenpaleandthoughtfuleversincethefirstmentionofJacobMoody。(ShewasfondofGrannyGarlands;shehadoncemetJacob;and,astowhatbefell,well,weallhaveoursecrettragedies!)

"Wouldn’titbewickedtosettleitthatway?"

"It’sgamblersthatdrawlots。"

"PeoplediditintheBibleeversooften。"

"Itdoesn’tseemniceforamissionarymeeting。"

Theseremarksfellalltogetheruponthepresident’sbewilderedearthewhile(asshealwayssaidincompositions)——"thewhile"

shewastryingtoadjusttheethicsofthisunexpectedanddifficultdilemma。

"Itisaverypuzzlyquestion,"shesaidthoughtfully。"IcouldaskAuntJaneifwehadtime,butIsupposewehaven’t。Itdoesn’tseemnicetodrawlots,andyethowcanwesettleitwithout?Weknowwemeanright,andperhapsitwillbe。Alice,takethispaperandtearofffivenarrowpieces,alldifferentlengths。"

Atthismomentavoicefromadistancefloateduptothehaymow——avoicesayingplaintively:"Willyouletmeplaywithyou,girls?Huldahhasgonetoride,andI’mallalone。"

Itwasthevoiceoftheabsolutely-without-guileThirzaMeserve,anditcameatanopportunemoment。

"Ifsheisgoingtobeamember,"saidPersis,"whynotlethercomeupandholdthelots?She’dberealhonestandnotfavoranybody。"

Itseemedanexcellentidea,andwasfollowedupsoquicklythatscarcelythreeminutesensuedbeforetheguilelessonewasholdingthefivescrapsinherhotlittlepalm,laboriouslychangingtheirplacesagainandagainuntiltheylookedexactlyalikeandallrathersoiledandwilted。

"Come,girls,draw!"commandedthepresident。"Thirza,youmustn’tchewgumatamissionarymeeting,itisn’tpolitenorholy。Takeitoutandstickitsomewheretilltheexercisesareover。"

ThefiveDaughtersofZionapproachedthespotsochargedwithfate,andextendedtheirtremblinghandsonebyone。Thenafteramoment’ssilentclutchoftheirpaperstheydrewnearertooneanotherandcomparedthem。

EmmaJanePerkinshaddrawntheshortone,becomingthusthedestinedinstrumentforJacobMoody’sconversiontoamoreseemlymanneroflife!

Shelookedaboutherdespairingly,asiftoseeksomepainlessandrespectablemethodofself-destruction。

"Dolet’sdrawoveragain,"shepleaded。"I’mtheworstofallofus。I’msuretomakeamessofittillIkindo’gettrainedin。"

Rebecca’sheartsankatthisfrankconfession,whichonlycorroboratedherownfears。

"I’msorry,Emmy,dear,"shesaid,"butouronlyexcusefordrawinglotsatallwouldbetohaveitsacred。Wemustthinkofitasakindofasign,almostlikeGodspeakingtoMosesintheburningbush。"

"Oh,IWISHtherewasaburningbushrighthere!"criedthedistractedandrecalcitrantmissionary。"HowquickI’dstepintoitwithoutevenstoppingtotakeoffmygarnetring!"

"Don’tbesuchascare-cat,EmmaJane!"exclaimedCandacebracingly。"JacobMoodycan’tkillyou,evenifhehasanawfultemper。Trotrightalongnowbeforeyougetmorefrightened。

Shallwegocrosslotswithher,Rebecca,andwaitatthepasturegate?ThenwhateverhappensAlicecanputitdownintheminutesofthemeeting。"

IntheseterriblecrisesoflifetimegallopswithsuchincrediblevelocitythatitseemedtoEmmaJaneonlyabreathbeforeshewasbeingdraggedthroughthefieldsbytheotherDaughtersofZion,theguilelesslittleThirzapantingintherear。

AttheentrancetothepastureRebeccagaveheranimpassionedembrace,andwhispering,"WHATEVERYOUDO,BECAREFULHOWYOU

LEADUP,"liftedoffthetoprailandpushedherthroughthebars。Thenthegirlsturnedtheirbacksreluctantlyonthepatheticfigure,andeachsoughtatreeunderwhosefriendlyshadeshecouldwatch,andperhapspray,untilthemissionaryshouldreturnfromherfieldoflabor。

AliceRobinson,whosecompositionswerealwaysmarked96or97,——100symbolizingsuchperfectionascouldbeattainedinthemortalworldofRiverboro,——Alice,notonlyDaughter,butScribeofZion,sharpenedherpencilandwroteafewwell-chosenwordsofintroduction,tobeusedwhentherecordsoftheafternoonhadbeenmadebyEmmaJanePerkinsandJacobMoody。

Rebecca’sheartbeattumultuouslyunderherginghamdress。Shefeltthatadramawasbeingenacted,andthoughunfortunatelyshewasnotthecentralfigure,shehadatleastamodestpartinit。

TheshortlothadnotfallentotheproperestDaughter,thatshequiterealized;yetwouldanyoneofthemsucceedinwinningJacobMoody’sattention,inengaginghiminpleasantconversation,andfinallyinbringinghimtoarealizationofhismistakenwayoflife?Shedoubted,butatthesamemomentherspiritsroseatthethoughtofthedifficultiesinvolvedintheundertaking。

DifficultiesalwaysspurredRebeccaon,buttheydauntedpoorEmmaJane,whohadnolittlethrillsofexcitementandwonderandfearandlongingtosustainherlaggingsoul。Thatherinterviewwastobeenteredas"minutes"byasecretaryseemedtoherthelaststraw。Herblueeyeslookedlighterthanusualandhadtheglazeofchinasaucers;herusuallypinkcheekswerepale,butshepressedon,determinedtobeafaithfulDaughterofZion,andabovealltobeworthyofRebecca’sadmirationandrespect。

"Rebeccacandoanything,"shethought,withenthusiasticloyalty,"andImustn’tbeanystupiderthanIcanhelp,orshe’llchooseoneoftheothergirlsforhermostintimatefriend。"So,musteringallhercourage,sheturnedintoJacobMoody’sdooryard,wherehewaschoppingwood。

"It’sapleasantafternoon,Mr。Moody,"shesaidinapolitebuthoarsewhisper,Rebecca’swords,"LEADUP!LEADUP!ringinginclariontonesthroughherbrain。

JacobMoodylookedathercuriously。"Goodenough,Iguess,"hegrowled;"butIdon’tneverhavetimetolookatafternoons。"

EmmaJaneseatedherselftimorouslyontheendofalargelognearthechoppingblock,supposingthatJacob,likeotherhosts,wouldpauseinhistasksandchat。

"Theblockiskindoflikeanidol,"shethought;"IwishIcouldtakeitawayfromhim,andthenperhapshe’dtalk。"

AtthismomentJacobraisedhisaxeandcamedownontheblockwithsuchastunningblowthatEmmaJanefairlyleapedintotheair。

"You’dbetterlookout,Sissy,oryou’llgitchipsintheeye!"

saidMoody,grimlygoingonwithhiswork。

TheDaughterofZionsentupasilentprayerforinspiration,butnonecame,andshesatsilent,givingnervousjumpsinspiteofherselfwhenevertheaxefelluponthelogJacobwascutting。

Finally,thehostbecametiredofhisdumbvisitor,andleaningonhisaxehesaid,"Lookhere,Sis,whathaveyoucomefor?

What’syourerrant?Doyouwantapples?Orcider?Orwhat?Speakout,orGITout,oneort’other。"

EmmaJane,whohadwrungherhandkerchiefintoaclammyball,gaveitalastdespairingwrench,andfaltered:"Wouldn’tyoulike——hadn’tyoubetter——don’tyouthinkyou’doughttobemoreconstantatmeetingandSabbathschool?"

Jacob’saxealmostdroppedfromhisnervelesshand,andheregardedtheDaughterofZionwithunspeakablerageanddisdain。

Then,thebloodmountinginhisface,hegatheredhimselftogether,andshouted:"Youtakeyourselfoffthatlogandouto’

thisdooryarddouble-quick,youimperdentsanct’omusyoungone!

YoujustletmeketchBillPerkins’childtryingtoteachmewhereIshallgo,atmyage!Scuttle,Itellye!AndifIseeyourpiouscantin’littlemuginsidemyfenceag’inonsechabusinessI’llchaseyedownthehillorsetthedogonye!SCOOT,ITELLYE!"

EmmaJaneobeyedorderssummarily,takingherselfoffthelog,outthedooryard,andotherwisescuttlingandscootingdownthehillatapacenevercontemplatedevenbyJacobMoody,whostoodregardingherflyingheelswithasardonicgrin。

Downshestumbled,thetearscoursingoverhercheeksandminglingwiththedustofherflight;blightedhope,shame,fear,rage,alltearingherbosominturn,tillwithahystericalshriekshefelloverthebarsandintoRebecca’sarmsoutstretchedtoreceiveher。TheotherDaughterswipedhereyesandsupportedheralmostfaintingform,whileThirza,thoroughlyfrightened,burstintosympathetictears,andrefusedtobecomforted。

Noquestionswereasked,foritwasfeltbyallpartiesthatEmmaJane’sdemeanorwasansweringthembeforetheycouldbeframed。

"Hethreatenedtosetthedogonme!"shewailedpresently,when,astheynearedtheSawyerpasture,shewasabletocontrolhervoice。"Hecalledmeapious,cantin’youngone,andsaidhe’dchasemeouto’thedooryardifIevercameagain!Andhe’lltellmyfather——Iknowhewill,forhehateshimlikepoison。"

AllatoncetheadultpointofviewdawneduponRebecca。Sheneversawituntilitwastooobvioustobeignored。HadtheydonewrongininterviewingJacobMoody?WouldAuntMirandabeangry,aswellasMr。Perkins?

"Whywashesodreadful,Emmy?"shequestionedtenderly。"Whatdidyousayfirst?Howdidyouleaduptoit?"

EmmaJanesobbedmoreconvulsively,andwipedhernoseandeyesimpartiallyasshetriedtothink。

"IguessIneverledupatall;notamite。Ididn’tknowwhatyoumeant。Iwassentonanerrant,andIwentanddoneitthebestIcould!(EmmaJane’sgrammaralwayslapsedinmomentsofexcitement。)AndthenJakeroaredatmelikeSquireWinship’sbull……Andhecalledmyfaceamug……Youshutupthatsecretarybook,AliceRobinson!IfyouwritedownasinglewordI’llneverspeaktoyouagain……AndIdon’twanttobeamember’anotherminuteforfearofdrawinganothershortlot。

I’vegotenoughoftheDaughtersorZiontolastmetheresto’

mylife!Idon’tcarewhogoestomeetin’andwhodon’t。"

ThegirlswereatthePerkins’sgatebythistime,andEmmaJanewentsadlyintotheemptyhousetoremovealltracesofthetragedyfromherpersonbeforehermothershouldcomehomefromthechurch。

Theotherswendedtheirwayslowlydownthestreet,feelingthattheirpromisingmissionarybranchhaddiedalmostassoonasithadbudded。

"Goodby,"saidRebecca,swallowinglumpsofdisappointmentandchagrinasshesawthewholeinspiringplanbreakandvanishintothinairlikeaniridescentbubble。"It’salloverandwewon’tevertryitagain。I’mgoingintodoovercastingashardasI

can,becauseIhatethattheworst。AuntJanemustwritetoMrs。

Burchthatwedon’twanttobehomemissionaries。Perhapswe’renotbigenough,anyway。I’mperfectlycertainit’snicertoconvertpeoplewhenthey’reyelloworbrownoranycolorbutwhite;andIbelieveitmustbeeasiertosavetheirsoulsthanitistomakethemgotomeeting。"

ThirdChronicleREBECCA’STHOUGHTBOOK

I

The"Sawyergirls’"barnstillhaditshaymowinRebecca’stime,althoughthehaywasadozenyearsoldormore,and,intheopinionoftheoccasionalvisitinghorse,sadlyjuicelessandwantinginflavor。Itstillsheltered,too,oldDeaconIsraelSawyer’scarryallandmowing-machine,withhispung,hissleigh,andadozenothersurvivalsofanearlierera,whenthebroadacresofthebrickhousewenttomakeoneofthefinestfarmsinRiverboro。

Therewerenohorsesorcowsinthestallsnowadays;nopiggruntingcomfortablyoffuturespareribsinthesty;nohenstopecktheplantsinthecherishedgardenpatch。TheSawyergirlsweregettingoninyears,and,mindfulthatcareoncekilledacat,theyorderedtheirliveswiththeviewofescapingthatparticulardoom,atleast,andsucceededfairlywelluntilRebecca’sadventmadeexistenceatriflemoresensational。

Onceamonthforyearsuponyears,MissMirandaandMissJanehadputtowelsovertheirheadsandmadeasolemnvisittothebarn,takingofftheenameledclothcoverings(occasionallycalled"emmanuelcovers"inRiverboro),dustingtheancientimplements,andsometimessweepingtheheaviestofthecobwebsfromthecorners,orgivingabrushtothefloor。

DeaconIsrael’stotteringladderstillstoodinitsaccustomedplace,proppedagainstthehaymow,andtheheavenlystairwayleadingtoeternalgloryscarcelylookedfairertoJacobofoldthanthistoRebecca。Bymeansofitsdustyroundsshemounted,mounted,mountedfarawayfromtimeandcareandmaidenaunts,farawayfromchildishtasksandchildishtroubles,tothebarnchamber,aplacesofullofgoldendreams,happyreveries,andvaguelongings,that,asherlittlebrownhandsclungtothesidesoftheladderandherfeettrodtheroundscautiouslyinherascent,herheartalmoststoppedbeatinginthesheerjoyofanticipation。

Oncehavinggainedtheheights,thenextthingwastounlatchtheheavydoorsandgivethemagentleswingoutward。Then,oh,evernewParadise!Then,oh,everlovelygreenandgrowingworld!ForRebeccahadthatsomethinginhersoulthat"GivestoseasandsunsetskiesTheunspentbeautyofsurprise。"

AtthetopofGuideBoardhillshecouldseeAliceRobinson’sbarnwithitsshiningweathervane,ahugeburnishedfishthatswamwiththewindandforetoldthedaytoallRiverboro。Themeadow,withitssunnyslopesstretchinguptothepinewoods,wassometimesaflowingsheetofshimmeringgrass,sometimes——whendaisiesandbuttercupswereblooming——avisionofwhiteandgold。Sometimestheshornstubblewouldbedottedwith"thehappyhillsofhay,"andalittlelatertherockmapleontheedgeofthepineswouldstandoutlikeagoldenballagainstthegreen;itsneighbor,thesugarmaple,glowingbesideit,braveinscarlet。

ItwasononeoftheseautumndayswithawintrynipintheairthatAdamLadd(Rebecca’sfavorite"Mr。Aladdin"),aftersearchingforherinfieldandgarden,suddenlynoticedtheopendoorsofthebarnchamber,andcalledtoher。Atthesoundofhisviceshedroppedherpreciousdiary,andflewtotheedgeofthehaymow。Heneverforgotthevisionofthestartledlittlepoetess,bookinonemittenedhand,pencilintheother,darkhairallruffled,withthepicturesqueadditionofanoccasionalgladeofstraw,hercheekscrimson,hereyesshining。

"ASapphoinmittens!"hecriedlaughingly,andathereagerquestiontoldhertolookuptheunknownladyintheschoolencyclopedia,whenshewasadmittedtotheFemaleSeminaryatWareham。

Now,allbeingready,Rebeccawenttoacornerofthehaymow,andwithdrewathickblank-bookwithmottledcovers。Outofherginghamapronpocketcameapencil,abitofrubber,andsomepiecesofbrownpaper;thensheseatedherselfgravelyonthefloor,anddrewaninvertedsoapboxnearertoherforatable。

Thebookwasreverentlyopened,andtherewasaseriousreadingoftheextractsalreadycarefullycopiedtherein。Mostofthemwereapparentlytothewriter’sliking,fordimplesofpleasureshowedthemselvesnowandthen,andsmilesofobviousdelightplayedaboutherface;butonceinawhiletherewasaknittingofthebrowsandasighofdiscouragement,showingthattheartistinthechildwasnotwhollysatisfied。

Thencamethecrucialmomentwhenthebuddingauthorwassupposedlytoberackedwiththethroesofcomposition;butseeminglytherewerenothroes。Othergirlscouldwieldthedarningorcrochetorknittingneedle,andsendthetattingshuttlethroughloopsofthefinestcotton;hemstitch,oversew,braidhairinthirteenstrands,butthepencilwasneverobedientintheirfingers,andthepenandink-potwereahorrorfromearlychildhoodtotheendoftime。

NotsowithRebecca;herpencilmovedaseasilyashertongue,andnomorestrikingsimilecouldpossiblybeused。HerhandwritingwasnotSpencerian;shehadneithertime,norpatience,itistobefeared,forcopybookmethods,andherunformedcharacterswerefrequentlythedespairofherteachers;

butwriteshecould,writeshewould,writeshemustanddid,inseasonandout;fromthetimeshemadepothooksatsix,tillnow,writingwastheeasiestofallpossibletasks;tobeindulgedinassolaceandbalmwhentheterrorsofexamplesinleastcommonmultiplethreatenedtodethronethereason,ortherulesofgrammarloomedhugeandunconquerableinthenearhorizon。

Astospelling,itcametoherinthemainbyfreegrace,andnotbytraining,andthoughsheslippedattimesfromthebeatenpath,herextraordinaryearandgoodvisualmemorykeptherfrommanyorflagrantmistakes。Itwasherintention,especiallywhensayingherprayersatnight,tolookupalldoubtfulwordsinhersmalldictionary,beforecopyingherThoughtsintothesacredbookfortheinspirationofposterity;butwhengeniusburnedwithabrilliantflame,andparticularlywhenshewasinthebarnandthedictionaryinthehouse,impulseasusualcarriedtheday。

TheresitsRebecca,then,intheopendooroftheSawyersbarnchamber——thesunsetdoor。Howmanyatimehadhergrandfather,thegooddeacon,satjustunderneathinhistipped-backchair,whenMrs。Israel’stemperwasuncertain,andtheserenityofthebarnwasincomfortingcontrasttohisownfireside!

Theopendoorsswingingouttothepeacefullandscape,thesolaceofthepipe,notallowedinthe"settin’-room"——howbeautifullythesesimpleagentshaveministeredtothefamilypeaceindaysagone!"IfIhadn’thadmybarnandmystoreBOTH,Icouldn’tneverhavelivedinholymatrimonywithMaryliza!"oncesaidMr。

Watsonfeelingly。

Butthedeacon,lookingonhiswavinggrassfields,histasselingcornandhistimberlands,brightandhonestaswerehiseyes,neversawsuchvisionsasRebecca。Thechild,transplantedfromherhomefarmatSunnybrook,fromthecareoftheoverworkedbuteasy-goingmother,andthecompanionshipofthescantilyfed,scantilyclothed,happy-go-luckybrothersandsisters——shehadindeedfallenonshadydaysinRiverboro。Theblindswereclosedineveryroomofthehousebuttwo,andthesamemighthavebeensaidofMissMiranda’smindandheart,thoughMissJanehadafewwindowsopeningtothesun,andRebeccaalreadyhadherunconscioushandonseveralothers。Brickhouseruleswererigidandmanyforalittlecreaturesofulloflife,butRebecca’sgayspiritcouldnotbepinionedinastraitjacketforlongatatime;itescapedsomehowandwingeditsmerrywayintothesunshineandfreeair;ifshewerenotallowedtosingintheorchard,likethewildbirdshewas,shecouldstillsinginthecage,likethecanary。

II

Ifyouhadopenedthecarefullyguardedvolumewiththemottledcovers,youwouldfirsthaveseenawonderfultitlepage,constructedapparentlyonthesamelinesasanobituary,ortheinscriptiononatombstone,saveforthequantityandvarietyofinformationcontainedinit。Muchofthematterwouldseemtothecaptiouscriticbetteradaptedtothebodyofthebookthantothetitlepage,butRebeccawasapparentlyanxiousthattheprincipalpersonagesinherchronicleshouldbewelldescribedattheoutset。

Sheseemstohavehadaconvictionthatheredityplaysitspartintheevolutionofgenius,andherbeliefthattheworldwillbeinspiredbythepossessionofherThoughtsistooartlesstobeoffensive。Sheevidentlyhasrespectforrichmaterialconfidedtoherteacher,andonecanimagineMissDearborn’swoehadshebeenconfrontedbyRebecca’schosenliteraryexecutorandbiddentodelivercertain"ValuablePoetryandThoughts,"thepropertyofposterity"unlesscarelesslydestroyed。"

THOUGHTBOOKofRebeccaRowenaRandallReallyofSunnybrookFarmButtemporilyofTheBrickHouseRiverboro。

OwnnieceofMissMirandaandJaneSawyerSecondofsevenchildrenofherfather,Mr。L。D。M。Randall(NowatrestinTemperancecemmetaryandtherewillbeamonumentassoonaswepayoffthemortgageonthefarm)

AlsoofhermotherMrs。AureliaRandallIncaseofDeaththebestoftheseThoughtsMaybeprintedinmyRemerniscencesFortheSundaySchoolLibraryatTemperance,MaineWhichneedsmorebooksfearfullyAndIherebyWillandTestamentthemtoMr。AdamLaddWhobought300cakesofsoapfrommeAndthussecuredapremiumAGreatlyNeededBanquetLampFormyfriendstheSimpsons。

HeistheonlyonethatincouragesMywritingRemerniscencesandMyteacherMissDearbornwillHavemuchvaluablePoetryandThoughtsTogivehimunlesscarelesslydestroyed。

ThepicturesarebythesamehandthatWrotetheThoughts。

ITISNOTNOWDECIDEDWHETHERREBECCAROWENARANDALLWILLBEA

PAINTERORANAUTHOR,BUTAFTERHERDEATHITWILLBEKNOWNWHICH

SHEHASBEEN,IFANY。

FINIS

Fromthetitlepage,withitswealthofdetail,anditsunnecessaryandirrelevantinformation,thebookripplesonlikeabrook,andtothewearyreaderofproblemnovelsitmayhavesomethingofthebrook’srefreshingquality。

OURDIARIESMay,187——

AllthegirlsarekeepingadiarybecauseMissDearbornwasverymuchashamedwhentheschooltrusteestoldherthatmostofthegirls’andalloftheboys’compositionsweredisgraceful,andmustbeimproveduponnextterm。Sheaskedtheboystowriteletterstoheronceaweekinsteadofkeepingadiary,whichtheythoughtwasgirlishlikeplayingwithdolls。Theboysthoughtitwasdreadfultohavetowriteletterseverysevendays,butshetoldthemitwasnothalfasbadforthemasitwasforherwhohadtoreadthem。

TomakemydiaryalittledifferentIamgoingtocallitaTHOUGHTBook(writtenjustlikethat,withcapitals)。IhavethoughtsthatInevercanuseunlessIwritethemdown,forAuntMirandaalwayssays,Keepyourthoughtstoyourself。AuntJaneletsmetellhersome,butdoesnotlikemyqueeronesandmytruethoughtsaremostlyqueer。EmmaJanedoesnotmindhearingthemnowandthen,andthatismyonlychance。

IfMissDearborndoesnotlikethenameThoughtBookIwillcallitRemerniscences(writtenjustlikethatwithacapitalR)。

Remerniscencesarethingsyourememberaboutyourselfandwritedownincaseyoushoulddie。AuntJanedoesn’tliketoreadanyotherkindofbooksbutjustlivesofinterestingdeadpeopleandshesaysthatiswhatLongfellow(whowasborninthestateofMaineandweshouldbeveryproudofitandtrytowritelikehim)meantinhispoem:

"LivesofgreatmenallremindusWeshouldmakeourlivessublime,Anddeparting,leavebehindusFootprintsonthesandsoftime。"

IknowwhatthismeansbecausewhenEmmaJaneandIwenttothebeachwithUncleJerryCobbweranalongthewetsandandlookedattheshapesourbootsmade,justasiftheywerestampedinwax。EmmaJaneturnsinherleftfoot(splayfoottheboyscallit,whichisnotpolite)andSethStrouthadjustpatchedoneofmyshoesanditallcameoutinthesandpictures。WhenIlearnedThePsalmofLifeforFridayafternoonspeakingIthoughtI

shouldn’tliketoleaveapatchedfootprint,norhaveEmmaJane’slookcrookedonthesandsoftime,andrightawayIthoughtOh!

WhatasplendidthoughtformyThoughtBookwhenAuntJanebuysmeafifteen-centoneovertoWatson’sstore。

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REMERNISCENCES

June,187——

ItoldAuntJaneIwasgoingtobeginmyRemerniscences,andshesaysIamfullyoung,butIremindedherthatCandaceMilliken’ssisterdiedwhenshewasten,leavingnofootprintswhatever,andifIshoulddiesuddenlywhowouldwritedownmyRemerniscences?

AuntMirandasaysthesunandmoonwouldriseandsetjustthesame,anditwasnomatteriftheydidn’tgetwrittendown,andtogoupatticandfindherpiece-bag;butIsaiditwould,astherewasonlyoneofeverybodyintheworld,andnobodyelsecoulddotheirremerniscensingforthem。IfIshoulddietonightIknownowwhowoulddescribemeright。MissDearbornwouldsayonethingandbrotherJohnanother。EmmaJanewouldtrytodomejustice,buthasnowords;andIamgladAuntMirandanevertakesthepeninhand。

Mydictionaryissosmallithasnotmanygenteelwordsinit,andIcannotfindhowtospellRemerniscences,butIrememberfromthecoverofAuntJane’sbookthattherewasan"s"anda"c"closetogetherinthemiddleofit,whichIthoughtfoolishandnotneedful。

Allthegirlsliketheirdairiesverymuch,butMinnieSmelliegotAliceRobinson’swhereshehadhiditundertheschoolwoodpileandreaditallthrough。Shesaiditwasnoworsethanreadinganybody’scomposition,butwetoldheritwasjustlikepeekingthroughakeyhole,orlisteningatawindow,oropeningabureaudrawer。Shesaidshedidn’tlookatitthatway,andI

toldherthatunlesshereyesgotunscealedshewouldneverleaveanykindofasublimefootprintonthesandsoftime。ItoldheradiarywasverysacredasyougenerallypouredyourdeepestfeelingsintoitexpectingnobodytolookatitbutyourselfandyourindulgentheavenlyFatherwhoseeethallthings。

OfcourseitwouldnothurtPersisWatsontoshowherdiarybecauseshehasnotasacredplanandthisisthewayitgoes,forshereadsitoutloudtous:

"Aroseatsixthismorning——(youalwaysariseinadiarybutyousaygetupwhenyoutalkaboutit)。Atebreakfastathalfpastsix。Hadsodabiscuits,coffee,fishhashanddoughnuts。Wipedthedishes,fedthehensandmademybedbeforeschool。Hadagoodarithmeticlesson,butwentdowntwoinspelling。AthalfpastfourplayedhideandcoopintheSawyerpasture。Fedhensandwenttobedateight。"

Shesaysshecan’tputinwhatdoesn’thappen,butasIdon’tthinkherdiaryisinterestingshewillaskhermothertohavemeathashinsteadoffish,withpiewhenthedoughnutsgiveout,andshewillfeedthehensbeforebreakfasttomakeachange。Weareallgoingnowtotryandmakesomethinghappeneverysingledaysothediarieswon’tbesodullandthefootprintssocommon。

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ANUNCOMMONTHOUGHT

July187——

Wedugupourrosecakestoday,andthatgavemeagoodRemerniscence。Thewayyoumakerosecakesis,youtaketheleavesoffullblownrosesandmixthemwithalittlecinnamonandasmuchbrownsugarastheywillgiveyou,whichisneverhalfenoughexceptPersisWatson,whoseaffectionateparentslethergotothebarrelintheirstore。Thenyoudouplittlebitslikesedlitzpowders,firstinsoftpaperandtheninbrown,andburytheminthegroundandletthemstayaslongasyoupossiblycanholdout;thendigthemupandeatthem。EmmaJaneandI

stickuplittlesignsovertheholesinthegroundwiththedateweburiedthemandwhenthey’llbedoneenoughtodigup,butwecanneverwait。WhenAuntJanesawusshesaiditwasthefirstthingforchildrentolearn,——nottobeimpatient,——sowhenI

wenttothebarnchamberImadeapoem。

IMPATIENCE

Wedugourrosecakesupoh!alltoosoon。

Twasintheorchardjustatnoon。

TwasinabrightJulyforenoon。

Twasinthesunnyafternoon。

Twasunderneaththeharvestmoon。

Itwasnotthatwayatall;itwasafoggymorningbeforeschool,andIshouldthinkpoetscouldneverpossiblygettoheaven,foritissohardtosticktothetruthwhenyouarewritingpoetry。

EmmaJanethinksitisnobody’sbusinesswhenwedugtherosecakesup。Ilikethelineabouttheharvestmoonbest,butitwouldgiveawrongideaofourlivesandcharacterstothepeoplethatreadmyThoughts,fortheywouldthinkwewereuplatenights,soIhavefixeditlikethis:

IMPATIENCE

Wedugourrosecakesupoh!alltoosoon,Wethoughttheirsweetnesswouldbesuchaboon。

Wene’ersuspicionedtheywouldnotbedoneAfterthreedaysofautumnwindandsun。

Whydidwefromtheearthourtreasuresdraw?

Twasnotforfearthatratormolemightnaw,Anagedauntdothsayimpatiencewasthereason,Shesaysthatyouthiseveroutofseason。

ThatisjustasAuntJanesaidit,anditgavemethethoughtforthepoemwhichisratheruncommon。

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ADREADFULQUESTION

September,187——

WHICHHASBEENTHEMOSTBENEFERCENTINFLUENCEONCHARACTER——

PUNISHMENTORREWARD?

ThistrulydreadfulquestionwasgivenusbyDr。Moseswhenhevisitedschooltoday。HeisaSchoolCommittee;notawholeonebutIdonotknowthesingularnumberofhim。Hetolduswecouldaskourfamilieswhattheythought,thoughhewouldratherwewouldn’t,butwemustwriteourownwordsandhewouldhearthemnextweek。

Afterhewentoutandshutthedoorthescholarswereallplungedingloomandyoucouldhaveheardapindrop。AliceRobinsoncriedandborrowedmyhandkerchief,andtheboyslookedasiftheschoolhousehadbeenstruckbylightning。TheworstofallwaspoorMissDearborn,whowillloseherplaceifshedoesnotmakeusbetterscholarssoon,forDr。Moseshasadaughterallreadytoputrightintotheschoolandshecanboardathomeandsaveallherwages。LibbyMosesishername。

MissDearbornstaredoutthewindow,andhermouthandchinshooklikeAliceRobinson’s,forsheknew,ah!alltowell,whatthecomingweekwouldbringforth。

ThenIraisedmyhandforpermissiontospeak,andstoodupandsaid:"MissDearborn,don’tyoumind!Justexplaintouswhatbenefercent’meansandwe’llwritesomethingrealinteresting;

forallofusknowwhatpunishmentis,andhaveseenothersgetrewards,anditisnotsobadasubjectassome。"AndDickCarterwhispered,"GOODONYOURHEAD,REBECCA!"whichmeanhewassorryforhertoo,andwouldtryhisbest,buthasnowords。

Thenteachersmiledandsaidbenefercentmeantgoodorhealthyforanybody,andwouldallrisewhothoughtpunishmentmadethebestscholarsandmenandwomen;andeverybodysatstockstill。

Andthensheaskedalltostandwhobelievedthatrewardsproducedthefinestresults,andtherewasamightysoundlikeuntotherushingofwaters,butreallywasourfeetscrapingthefloor,andthescholarsstoodup,anditlookedlikeanarmy,thoughitwasonlynineteen,becauseofthestrongbeliefthatwasinthem。ThenMissDearbornlaughedandsaidshewasthankfulforeverywhippingshehadwhenshewasachild,andLivingPerkinssaidperhapswehadn’tgottothethankfulage,orperhapsherfatherhadn’tusedastrap,andshesaidoh!no,itwashermotherwiththeopenhand;andDickCartersaidhewouldn’tcallthatpunishment,andSamSimpsonsaidsotoo。

IamgoingtowriteaboutthesubjectinmyThoughtBookfirst,andwhenImakeitintoacomposition,Icanleaveoutanythingaboutthefamilyornotgenteel,asthereismuchtorelateaboutpunishmentnotpleasantorniceandhardlypolite。

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PUNISHMENT

Punishmentisaverypuzzlything,butIbelieveinitwhenreallydeserved,onlywhenIpunishmyselfitdoesnotalwaysturnoutwell。WhenIleanedoverthenewbridge,andgotmydressallpaint,andAuntSarahCobbcouldn’tgetitout,Ihadtowearitspottedforsixmonthswhichhurtmypride,butwasright。IstayedathomefromAliceRobinson’sbirthdaypartyforapunishment,andwenttothecircusnextdayinstead,butAlice’spartiesareverycoldandstiff,asMrs。Robinsonmakestheboysstandonnewspapersiftheycomeinsidethedoor,andtheblindsarealwaysshut,andMrs。Robinsontellsmehowbadherlivercomplaintisthisyear。SoIthought,topayforthecircusandafewotherthings,Ioughttogetmorepunishment,andIthrewmypinkparasoldownthewell,asthemothersinthemissionarybooksthrowtheirinfantstothecrocodilesintheGangesriver。Butitgotstuckinthechainthatholdsthebucket,andAuntMirandahadtogetAbijahFlaggtotakeoutallthebrokenbitsbeforewecouldringupwater。

IpunishedmyselfthiswaybecauseAuntMirandasaidthatunlessIimprovedIwouldbenothingbutaBurdenandaBlight。

Therewasanoldmanusedtogobyourfarmcarryingalotofbrokenchairstobottom,andmotherusedtosay——"Poorman!Hisbackistooweakforsuchaburden!"andIusedtotakehimoutadoughnut,andthisisthepartIwanttogointotheRemerniscences。OnceItoldhimweweresorrythechairsweresoheavy,andhesaidTHEYDIDN’TSEEMSOHEAVYWHENHEHADETTHE

DOUGHNUT。ThisdoesnotmeanthatthedoughnutwasheavierthanthechairswhichiswhatbrotherJohnsaid,butitisabeautifulthoughtandshowshowthehumanraceshouldhavesympathy,andhelpbearburdens。

IknowaboutaBlight,fortherewasadreadfuleastwindoveratourfarmthatdestroyedallthelittleyoungcropsjustoutoftheground,andthefarmerscalledittheBlight。AndIwouldratherbehail,sleet,frost,orsnowthanaBlight,whichismeanandsecret,andwhichisthereasonIthrewawaythedearestthingonearthtome,thepinkparasolthatMissRossbroughtmefromParis,France。Ihavealsowrappedupmybeadpurseinthreepapersandputitawaymarkednottobeopenedtillaftermydeathunlessneededforaparty。

ImustnotbeBurden,ImustnotbeBlight,Theangelsinheavenwouldweepatthesight。

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