"Jevousdiraiquel’excesesttoujoursunmal。"-
ANATOLEFRANCE
CONCERNINGLIFE
TABLEOFCONTENTS:
INNOFTRANQUILITY
MAGPIEOVERTHEHILL
SHEEP-SHEARING
EVOLUTION
RIDINGINTHEMIST
THEPROCESSION
ACHRISTIAN
WINDINTHEROCKS
MYDISTANTRELATIVE
THEBLACKGODMOTHER
THEINNOFTRANQUILLITY
Underaburningbluesky,amongthepine-treesandjunipers,thecypressesandolivesofthatOdysseancoast,wecameoneafternoononapinkhousebearingthelegend:"OsteriadiTranquillita,";and,partlybecauseofthename,andpartlybecausewedidnotexpecttofindahouseatallinthosegoat-hauntedgrovesabovethewaves,wetarriedforcontemplation。TothefamiliarsimplicityofthatItalianbuildingtherewerenotlackingsignsofacertainspiritualchange,foroutoftheolive-grovewhichgrewtoitsverydoorsaskittle-alleyhadbeenformed,andtwobabycypress-treeswerecutintotheeffigiesofacockandhen。Thesongofagramophone,too,wasbreakingforthintotheair,asitwerethepresidingvoiceofahighandcosmopolitanmind。And,lostinadmiration,webecameconsciousoftheodourofafull-flavouredcigar。Yes——intheskittle-alleyagentlemanwasstandingwhoworeabowlerhat,abrightbrownsuit,pinktie,andveryyellowboots。Hisheadwasround,hischeeksfatandwell-coloured,hislipsredandfullunderablackmoustache,andhewasregardingusthroughverythickandhalf-closedeyelids。
Perceivinghimtobetheproprietorofthehighandcosmopolitanmind,weaccostedhim。
"Good-day!"hereplied:"IspikEnglish。BeeninAmurricayes。"
"Youhavealovelyplacehere。"
Sweepingaglanceovertheskittle-alley,hesentforthalongpuffofsmoke;then,turningtomycompanion(ofthepolitersex)withtheairofonewhohasmadehimselfperfectmasterofaforeigntongue,hesmiled,andspoke。
"Too-quiet!"
"Precisely;thenameofyourinn,perhaps,suggests————"
"Ichangeallthat——soonIcallitAnglo-Americanhotel。"
"Ah!yes;youareveryup-to-datealready。"
Heclosedoneeyeandsmiled。
Havingpassedafewmorecompliments,wesalutedandwalkedon;and,comingpresentlytotheedgeofthecliff,laydownonthethymeandthecrumbledleaf-dust。Allthesmallsingingbirdshadlongbeenshotandeaten;therecametousnosoundbutthatofthewavesswimminginonagentlesouthwind。Thewantoncreaturesseemedstretchingoutwhitearmstotheland,flyingdesperatelyfromaseaofsuchstupendousserenity;andovertheirbareshoulderstheirhairfloatedback,paleinthesunshine。Iftheairwasvoidofsound,itwasfullofscent——thatdeliciousandenliveningperfumeofmingledgum,andherbs,andsweetwoodbeingburnedsomewherealongwayoff;
andasilky,goldenwarmthslantedontousthroughtheolivesandumbrellapines。Largewine-redvioletsweregrowingnear。OnsuchacliffmightTheocritushavelain,spinninghissongs;onthatdivineseaOdysseusshouldhavepassed。Andwefeltthatpresentlythegoat-godmustputhisheadforthfrombehindarock。
ItseemedalittlequeerthatourfriendinthebowlerhatshouldmoveandbreathewithinoneshortflightofacuckoofromthishomeofPan。OnecouldnotbutatfirstfeelinglyremembertheoldBoersaying:"OGod,whatthingsmanseeswhenhegoesoutwithoutagun!"
Butsoontheinfiniteincongruityofthisjuxtapositionbegantoproducewithinoneacuriouseagerness,asortofhalf-philosophicaldelight。Itbegantoseemtoogood,almosttooromantic,tobetrue。
Tothinkofthegramophoneweddedtothethinsweetsingingoftheoliveleavesintheeveningwind;torememberthescentofhisrankcigarmarryingwiththiswildincense;toreadthatenchantedname,"InnofTranquillity,"andheartheblandandaffableremarkofthegentlemanwhoownedit——suchwere,indeed,phenomenatostimulatesoulstospeculation。Andallunconsciouslyonebegantojustifythembythoughtsoftheotherincongruitiesofexistence——thestrange,thepassionateincongruitiesofyouthandage,wealthandpoverty,lifeanddeath;thewonderfuloddbedfellowsofthisworld;
allthoseluridcontrastswhichhauntaman’sspirittillsometimesheisreadytocryout:"Ratherthanlivewheresuchthingscanbe,letmedie!"
Likeawildbirdtrackingthroughtheair,one’smeditationwanderedon,followingthattrailofthought,tillthechanceencounterbecamespirituallyluminous。ThatItaliangentlemanoftheworld,withhisbowlerhat,hisskittle-alley,hisgramophone,whohadplantedhimselfdowninthistempleofwildharmony,washenotProgressitself——theblindfigurewiththestomachfullofnewmeatsandthebrainofrawnotions?Washenottheveryembodimentofthewonderfulchild,Civilisation,sopossessedbyanewtoyeachdaythatshehasnotimetomasteritsuse——naivecreaturelostamidherowndiscoveries!Washenottheverysymbolofthatwhichwasmakingeconomiststhin,thinkerspale,artistshaggard,statesmenbald——thesymbolofIndigestionIncarnate!Didhenot,delicious,gross,unconsciousman,personifybeneathhisAmerico-Italianpolishallthoserankandprimitiveinstincts,whosesatisfactionnecessitatedthemillionmiseriesofhisfellows;allthosethickrapacitieswhichstirthehatredofthehumaneandthin-skinned!Andyet,one’smeditationcouldnotstopthere——itwasnotconvenienttotheheart!
Alittleaboveus,amongtheolive-trees,twoblue-clothedpeasants,manandwoman,weregatheringthefruit——fromsomesuchcouple,nodoubt,ourfriendinthebowlerhathadsprung;more"virile"andadventurousthanhisbrothers,hehadnotstayedinthehomegroves,buthadgoneforthtodrinkthewatersofhustleandcommerce,andcomeback——whathewas。Andhe,inturn,wouldbegetchildren,andhavingmadehispileoutofhis’Anglo-Americanhotel’wouldplacethosechildrenbeyondthecoarserinfluencesoflife,tilltheybecame,perhaps,evenasourselves,thesaltoftheearth,anddespisedhim。AndIthought:"Idonotdespisethosepeasants——farfromit。Idonotdespisemyself——nomorethanreason;why,then,despisemyfriendinthebowlerhat,whois,afterall,butthenecessarylinkbetweenthemandme?"Ididnotdespisetheolive-
trees,thewarmsun,thepinescent,allthosematerialthingswhichhadmadehimsothickandstrong;Ididnotdespisethegolden,tenuousimaginingswhichthetreesandrocksandseawerestartinginmyownspirit。Why,then,despisetheskittle-alley,thegramophone,thoseexpressionsofthespiritofmyfriendinthebilly-cockhat?
Todespisethemwasridiculous!
AndsuddenlyIwasvisitedbyasensationonlytobedescribedasasortofsmilingcertainty,emanatingfrom,and,asitwere,stilltinglingwithineverynerveofmyself,butyetvibratingharmoniouslywiththeworldaround。ItwasasifIhadsuddenlyseenwhatwasthetruthofthings;notperhapstoanybodyelse,butatalleventstome。AndIfeltatoncetranquilandelated,aswhensomethingismetwithwhichrousesandfascinatesinamanallhisfaculties。
"For,"Ithought,"ifitisridiculousinmetodespisemyfriend——
thatperfectmarvelofdisharmony——itisridiculousinmetodespiseanything。Ifheisalittlebitofcontinuity,asperfectlylogicalanexpressionofanecessaryphaseormoodofexistenceasImyselfam,then,surely,thereisnothinginalltheworldthatisnotalittlebitofcontinuity,theexpressionofalittlenecessarymood。
Yes,"Ithought,"heandI,andthoseolive-trees,andthisspideronmyhand,andeverythingintheUniversewhichhasanindividualshape,areallfitexpressionsoftheseparatemoodsofagreatunderlyingMoodorPrinciple,whichmustbeperfectlyadjusted,volvingandrevolvingonitself。ForifItdidnotvolveandrevolveonItself,Itwouldpeteroutatoneendortheother,andtheimageofthispeteringoutnomanwithhismentalapparatuscanconceive。
Therefore,onemustconcludeIttobeperfectlyadjustedandeverlasting。ButifItisperfectlyadjustedandeverlasting,wearealllittlebitsofcontinuity,andifwearealllittlebitsofcontinuityitisridiculousforoneofustodespiseanother。So,"
Ithought,"Ihavenowproveditfrommyfriendinthebilly-cockhatuptotheUniverse,andfromtheUniversedown,backagaintomyfriend。"
AndIlayonmybackandlookedatthesky。Itseemedfriendlytomythoughtwithitssmile,andfewwhiteclouds,saffron-tingedliketheplumesofawhiteduckinsunlight。"Andyet,"Iwondered,"thoughmyfriendandImaybeequallynecessary,Iamcertainlyirritatedbyhim,andshallascertainlycontinuetobeirritated,notonlybyhim,butbyathousandothermenandso,withalightheart,youmaygoonbeingirritatedwithyourfriendinthebowlerhat,youmaygoonlovingthosepeasantsandthisskyandsea。But,sinceyouhavethistheoryoflife,youmaynotdespiseanyoneoranything,notevenaskittle-alley,fortheyareallthreadedtoyou,andtodespisethemwouldbetoblasphemeagainstcontinuity,andtoblasphemeagainstcontinuitywouldbetodenyEternity。Loveyoucannothelp,andhateyoucannothelp;butcontemptis——foryou——thesovereignidiocy,theirreligiousfancy!"
Therewasabeeweighingdownablossomofthymecloseby,andunderneaththestalkaveryuglylittlecentipede。Thewildbee,withhislittledarkbodyandhisbusybear’slegs,waslovelytome,andthecreepycentipedegavemeshudderings;butitwasapleasantthingtofeelsosurethathe,nolessthanthebee,wasalittlemoodexpressinghimselfoutinharmonywithDesignstinythreadonthemiraculousquilt。AndIlookedathimwithasuddenzestandcuriosity;itseemedtomethatinthemysteryofhisqueerlittlecreepingsIwasenjoyingtheSupremeMystery;andIthought:"IfI
knewallaboutthatwrigglingbeast,then,indeed,Imightdespisehim;but,truly,ifIknewallabouthimIshouldknowallabouteverything——Mysterywouldbegone,andIcouldnotbeartolive!"
SoIstirredhimwithmyfingerandhewentaway。
"Buthow"——Ithought"aboutsuchasdonotfeelitridiculoustodespise;howaboutthosewhosetemperamentsandreligionsshowthemallthingssoplainlythattheyknowtheyarerightandotherswrong?
Theymustbeinabadway!"AndforsomesecondsIfeltsorryforthem,andwasdiscouraged。ButthenIthought:"Notatall——
obviouslynot!Foriftheydonotfinditridiculoustofeelcontempt,theyareperfectlyrighttofeelcontempt,itbeingnaturaltothem;andyouhavenobusinesstobesorryforthem,forthatis,afterall,onlyyoureuphemismforcontempt。Theyareallright,beingtheexpressionsofcontemptuousmoods,havingreligionsandsoforth,suitabletothesemoods;andthereligionofyourmoodwouldbeGreektothem,andprobablyamatterforcontempt。Butthisonlymakesitthemoreinteresting。Forthoughtoyou,forinstance,itmayseemimpossibletoworshipMysterywithonelobeofthebrain,andwiththeothertoexplainit,thethoughtthatthismaynotseemimpossibletoothersshouldnotdiscourageyou;itisbutanotherlittlepieceofthatMysterywhichmakeslifesowonderfulandsweet。"
Thesun,fallennowalmosttothelevelofthecliff,wasslantingupwardontotheburnt-redpineboughs,whichhadtakentothemselvesaquaintresemblancetothegreatbrownlimbsofthewildmenTitiandrewinhispaganpictures,anddownbelowusthesea-nymphs,stillswimmingtoshore,seemedeagertoembracethemintheenchantedgroves。Allwasfusedinthatgoldenglowofthesungoingdown-seaandlandgatheredintoonetranscendentmoodoflightandcolour,asifMysterydesiredtoblessusbyshowinghowperfectwasthatworshipfuladjustment,whosesecretwecouldneverknow。AndIsaidtomyself:"Noneofthosethoughtsofyoursarenew,andinavaguewayevenyouhavethoughtthembefore;butallthesame,theyhavegivenyousomelittlefeelingoftranquillity。"
AndatthatwordoffearIroseandinvitedmycompaniontoreturntowardthetown。Butaswestealthycreptbythe"OsteriadiTranquillita,"ourfriendinthebowlerhatcameoutwithagunoverhisshoulderandwavedhishandtowardtheInn。
"Youcomeagainintwoweek——Ichangeallthat!Andnow,"headded,"Igotoshootlittlebirdortwo,"andhedisappearedintothegoldenhazeundertheolive-trees。
Aminutelaterweheardhisgungooff,andreturnedhomewardwithaprayer。
1910。
MAGPIEOVERTHEHILL
Ilayoftenthatsummeronaslopeofsandandcoarsegrass,closetotheCornishsea,tryingtocatchthoughts;andIwastryingveryhardwhenIsawthemcominghandinhand。
Shewasdressedinbluelinen,andalittlecloudofhoney-colouredhair;hersmallfacehadseriouseyesthecolourofthechicoryflowersshewasholdinguptosniffat——acleansoberlittlemaid,withaverytouchingupwardlookoftrust。Hercompanionwasastrong,activeboyofperhapsfourteen,andhe,too,wasserious——hisdeep-set,blacklashedeyeslookeddownatherwithaqueerprotectivewonder;thewhileheexplainedinasoftvoicebrokenupbetweentwoages,thatexactprocesswhichbeesadopttodrawhoneyoutofflowers。Onceortwicethishoarsebutcharmingvoicebecamequitefervent,whenshehadevidentlyfailedtofollow;itwasasifhewouldhavebeenimpatient,onlyheknewhemustnot,becauseshewasaladyandyoungerthanhimself,andhelovedher。
Theysatdownjustbelowmynook,andbegantocountthepetalsofachicoryflower,andslowlyshenestledintohim,andheputhisarmroundher。NeverdidIseesuchsedate,sweetlovering,sotrustingonherpart,soguardianlikeonhis。Theywerelike,inminiature——-
thoughmoredewy,——thosesobercoupleswhohavelonglivedtogether,yetwhomonestillcatcheslookingateachotherwithconfidentialtenderness,andinwhom,onefeels,passionisatrophiedfromneverhavingbeeninuse。
LongIsatwatchingthemintheircoolcommunion,half-embraced,talkingalittle,smilingalittle,neveroncekissing。Theydidnotseemshyofthat;itwasratherasiftheyweretoomucheachother’stothinkofsuchathing。Andthenherheadslidlowerandlowerdownhisshoulder,andsleepbuttonedthelidsoverthosechicory-
blueeyes。Howcarefulhewas,then,nottowakeher,thoughIcouldseehisarmwasgettingstiff!Hestillsat,goodasgold,holdingher,tillitbeganquitetohurtmetoseehisshoulderthusinchancery。ButpresentlyIsawhimdrawhisarmawayeversocarefully,layherheaddownonthegrass,andleanforwardtostareatsomething。Straightinfrontofthemwasamagpie,balancingitselfonastrippedtwigofthorn-tree。Theagitatingbird,paintedofnightandday,wasmakingaqueernoiseandflirtingonewing,asiftryingtoattractattention。Risingfromthetwig,itcircled,vividandstealthy,twiceroundthetree,andflewtoanotheradozenpacesoff。Theboyrose;helookedathislittlemate,lookedatthebird,andbeganquietlytomovetowardit;bututteringagainitsqueercall,thebirdglidedontoathirdthorn-tree。Theboyhesitatedthen——butoncemorethebirdflewon,aridsuddenlydippedoverthehill。Isawtheboybreakintoarun;andgettingupquickly,Irantoo。
WhenIreachedthecresttherewastheblackandwhitebirdflyinglowintoadell,andtheretheboy,withhairstreamingback,wasrushinghelter-skelterdownthehill。Hereachedthebottomandvanishedintothedell。I,too,randownthehill。ForallthatI
waspryingandmustnotbeseenbybirdorboy,Icreptwarilyinamongthetreestotheedgeofapoolthatcouldknowbutlittlesunlight,sothicklyarchedwasitbywillows,birch-trees,andwildhazel。There,inaswingofboughsabovethewater,wasperchednopiedbird,butayoung,dark-hairedgirlwith,dangling,bare,brownlegs。Andonthebrinkoftheblackwatergoldened,withfallenleaves,theboywascrouching,gazingupatherwithallhissoul。
Sheswungjustoutofreachandlookeddownathimacrossthepool。
Howoldwasshe,withherbrownlimbs,andhergleaming,slantingeyes?Orwassheonlythespiritofthedell,thiself-thingswingingthere,entwinedwithboughsandthedarkwater,andcoveredwithashiftofwetbirchleaves。Sostrangeafaceshehad,wild,almostwicked,yetsotender;afacethatIcouldnottakemyeyesfrom。Herbaretoesjusttouchedthepool,andflickedupdropsofwaterthatfellontheboy’sface。
>Fromhimallthesobersteadfastnesswasgone;alreadyhelookedaswildasshe,andhisarmswerestretchedouttryingtoreachherfeet。Iwantedtocrytohim:"Goback,boy,goback!"butcouldnot;herelfeyesheldmedumb-theylookedsolostintheirtenderwildness。
Andthenmyheartstoodstill,forhehadslippedandwasstrugglingindeepwaterbeneathherfeet。Whatagazewasthathewasturninguptoher——notfrightened,butsolonging,sodesperate;andhershowtriumphant,andhowhappy!
Andthenheclutchedherfoot,andclung,andclimbed;andbendingdown,shedrewhimuptoher,allwet,andclaspedhimintheswingofboughs。
Itookalongbreaththen。Anorangegleamofsunlighthadflamedinamongtheshadowsandfellroundthosetwowheretheyswungoverthedarkwater,withlipsclosetogetherandspiritslostinoneanother’s,andintheireyessuchdrowningecstasy!Andthentheykissed!Allroundmepool,andleaves,andairseemedsuddenlytoswirlandmelt——Icouldseenothingplain!……Whattimepassed——Idonotknow——beforetheirfacesslowlyagainbecamevisible!Hisfacethesoberboy’s——wasturnedawayfromher,andhewaslistening;forabovethewhisperingofleavesasoundofweepingcamefromoverthehill。Itwastothathelistened。
AndevenasIlookedhesliddownfromoutofherarms;backintothepool,andbeganstrugglingtogaintheedge。Whatgriefandlonginginherwildfacethen!Butshedidnotwail。Shedidnottrytopullhimback;thatelfishheartofdignitycouldreachouttowhatwascoming,itcouldnotdragatwhatwasgone。Unmovingastheboughsandwater,shewatchedhimabandonher。
Slowlythestrugglingboygainedland,andlaythere,breathless。
Andstillthatsoundoflonelyweepingcamefromoverthehill。
Listening,butlookingatthosewild,mourningeyesthatnevermovedfromhim,helay。Onceheturnedbacktowardthewater,butfirehaddiedwithinhim;hishandsdropped,nerveless——hisyoungfacewasallbewilderment。
Andthequietdarknessofthepoolwaited,andthetrees,andthoselosteyesofhers,andmyheart。Andeverfromoverthehillcamethelittlefairmaiden’slonelyweeping。
Then,slowlydragginghisfeet,stumbling,half-blinded,turningandturningtolookback,theboygropedhiswayoutthroughthetreestowardthatsound;and,ashewent,thatdarkspirit-elf,abandoned,claspingherownlithebodywithherarms,nevermovedhergazefromhim。
I,too,creptaway,andwhenIwassafeoutsideinthepaleeveningsunlight,peeredbackintothedell。Thereunderthedarktreesshewasnolonger,butroundandroundthatcageofpassion,flutteringandwailingthroughtheleaves,overtheblackwater,wasthemagpie,flightingonitstwilightwings。
IturnedandranandrantillIcameoverthehillandsawtheboyandthelittlefair,sobermaidensittingtogetheroncemoreontheopenslope,underthehighblueheaven。Shewasnestlinghertear-
stainedfaceagainsthisshoulderandspeakingalreadyofindifferentthings。Andhe——hewasholdingherwithhisarmandwatchingoverherwitheyesthatseemedtoseesomethingelse。
AndsoIlay,hearingtheirsobertalkandgazingattheirsoberlittlefigures,tillIawokeandknewIhaddreamedallthatlittleallegoryofsacredandprofanelove,andfromithadreturnedtoreason,knowingnomorethaneverwhichwaswhich。
1912。
SHEEP-SHEARING
>Fromearlymorningtherehadbeenbleatingofsheepintheyard,sothatoneknewthecreatureswerebeingsheared,andtowardeveningI
wentalongtosee。Thirtyorfortynaked-lookingghostsofsheepwerepennedagainstthebarn,andperhapsadozenstillinhabitingtheircoats。Intothewoolofoneofthesebulkyewesthefarmer’ssmall,yellow-haireddaughterwastwistingherfist,hustlingittowardFate;thoughpulledalmostoffherfeetbythefrightened,stubborncreature,sheneverletgo,till,withadespairingcough,theewehadpassedoverthethresholdandwasfastinthehandsofashearer。Atthefarendofthebarn,closebythedoors,Istoodaminuteortwobeforeshiftinguptowatchtheshearing。Intothatdim,beautifulhomeofage,withitsgreatraftersandmellowstonearchways,theJunesunlightshonethroughloopholesandchinks,inthinglamour,powderingwithitsverystrangenessthedarkcathedraledair,where,highup,clungafogofoldgreycobwebssothickaseverwerethestalactitesofahugecave。Atthisendthescentofsheepandwoolandmenhadnotyetroutedthathomeessenceofthebarn,likethesavourofacornsandwitheringbeechleaves。
Theywereshearingbyhandthisyear,nineofthem,countingthepostman,who,thoughfarm-bred,"did’nputtmuchtotheshearin’,"
buthadcometoroundthesheepupandgivegeneralaid。
Sittingonthecreatures,orwithalegfirmlycrookedovertheirheads,eachshearer,eventhetwoboys,hadanairofgoingatitinhisownway。Intheirwhitecanvasshearingsuitstheyworkedverysteadily,almostinsilence,asifdrowsedbythe"click-clip,click-
clip"oftheshears。Andthesheep,butforanoccasionalwriggleoflegsorhead,layquietenough,havinganinbornsenseperhapsofthefitnessofthings,evenwhen,onceinaway,theylostmorethanwool;gladtoo,mayhap,toberidoftheirmattedvestments。Fromtimetotimethelittledamselofferedeachshearerajugandglass,butnomandranktillhehadfinishedhissheep;thenhewouldgetup,stretchhiscrampedmuscles,drinkdeep,andalmostinstantlysitdownagainonafreshbeast。Andalwaystherewasthebuzzoffliesswarminginthesunlightoftheopendoorway,thedryrustleofthepollardedlime-treesinthesharpwindoutside,thebleatingofsomereleasedewe,upsetatherownnakedness,thescrapeandshuffleofheelsandsheep’slimbsonthefloor,togetherwiththe"click-clip,click-clip"oftheshears。
Aseachewe,finishedwith,struggledup,helpedbyafriendlyshove,andboltedoutdazedlyintothepen,Icouldnothelpwonderingwhatwaspassinginherhead——intheheadsofallthoseunceremoniouslytreatedcreatures;and,movingnearertothepostman,Isaid:
"They’rereallyverygood,onthewhole。"
Helookedatme,Ithought,queerly。
"Yaas,"heanswered;"Mr。Molton’sthebestofthem。"
IlookedaskanceatMr。Molton;but,withhiskneecrookedroundayoungewe,hewasshearingcalmly。
"Yes,"Iadmitted,"heiscertainlygood。"
"Yaas,"repliedthepostman。
Edgingbackintothedarkness,awayfromthatuncomprehendingyouth,Iescapedintotheair,andpassingtheremainsoflastyear’sstacksunderthetall,topplingelms,satdowninafieldunderthebank。
ItseemedtomethatIhadfoodforthought。Inthatlittlemisunderstandingbetweenmeandthepostmanwasalltheessenceofthedifferencebetweenthatstateofcivilisationinwhichsheepcouldpromptasentiment,andthatstateinwhichsheepcouldnot。
Theheatfromthedroppingsun,notfarnowabovethemoorline,struckfullintothefernsandlonggrassofthebankwhereIwassitting,andthemidgesriotedonmeinthislastwarmth。Thewindwasbarredout,sothatonehadthefullsweetnessoftheclover,fastbecominghay,overwhichtheswallowswerewheelingandswoopingafterflies。Andfarup,asitwerethecrownofNature’sbeautifuldevouringcircle,abuzzardhawk,almoststationaryontheair,floated,intentonsomethingpleasantbelowhim。Anumberoflittlehenscreptthroughthegateonebyone,andcameroundme。ItseemedtothemthatIwastheretofeedthem;andtheyheldtheirneatredoryellowheadstoonesideandtheother,inquiringwiththeirbeadyeyes,surprisedatmystillness。Theywereprettywiththeirspeckledfeathers,andasitseemedtome,plumpandyoung,sothatI
wonderedhowmanyofthemwouldintimefeedme。Finding,however,thatIgavethemnothingtoeat,theywentaway,andtherearose,inplaceoftheirclucking,thethinsingingofairpassingthroughsomelongtube。Iknewitforthewhiningofmydog,whohadnosedmeout,butcouldnotgetthroughthepadlockedgate。AndasIliftedhimover,Iwasgladthepostmancouldnotseeme——forIfeltthattoliftadogoveragatewouldbeagainsttheprinciplesofoneforwhomtheconnectionofsheepwithgoodbehaviourhadbeentoostrangeathought。Anditsuddenlyrushedintomymindthatthetimewouldnodoubtcomewhentheconductofapples,beingpluckedfromthemothertree,wouldinspireus,andweshouldsay:"They’rereallyverygood!"AndIwondered,werethosefuturewatchersofapple-gatheringfartherfrommethanI,watchingsheep-shearing,fromthepostman?
Ithought,too,oftheprettydreamsbeingdreamtabouttheland,andofthepeoplewhodreamedthem。AndIlookedatthatland,coveredwiththesweetpinkish-greenoftheclover,andconsideredhowmuchofit,throughthemediumofsheep,wouldfinditswayintome,toenablemetocomeouthereandbeeatenbymidges,andspeculateaboutthings,andconceivethesentimentofhowgoodthesheepwere。
Anditallseemedqueer。Ithought,too,ofaworldentirelycomposedofpeoplewhocouldseethesheenripplingonthatclover,andfeelasortofsweetelationatthescentofit,andIwonderedhowmuchcloverwouldbesownthen?ManythingsIthoughtof,sittingthere,tillthesunsankbelowthemoorline,thewinddiedofftheclover,andthemidgesslept。Hereandthereintheiris-
colouredskyastarcreptout;thesoft-hootingowlsawoke。ButstillIlingered,watchinghow,oneafteranother,shapesandcoloursdiedintotwilight;andIwonderedwhatthepostmanthoughtoftwilight,thatinconvenientstate,whenthingswereneitherdarknorlight;andIwonderedwhatthesheepwerethinkingthisfirstnightwithouttheircoats。Then,slinkingalongthehedge,noiseless,unheardbymysleepingspaniel,Isawatawnydogstealingby。Hepassedwithoutseeingus,lickinghisleanchops。
"Yes,friend,"Ithought,"youhavebeenaftersomethingveryunholy;
youhavebeendiggingupburiedlamb,orsomedesirablepersonofthatkind!"
Sneakingpast,inthissweetnight,whichstirredinonesuchsentiment,thatghoulishcurwasliketheomnivorousnessofNature。
Anditcametome,howwonderfulandqueerwasaworldwhichembracedwithinit,notonlythisredgloatingdog,freshfromhisfeastonthedecayingfleshoflamb,butallthosehundredsofbeingsinwhomthesightofaflywithonelegshortenedproducedaquiverofcompassion。Forinthissavage,slinkingshadow,IknewthatIhadbeheldamanifestationofdivinitynolessthaninthesmileofthesky,eachminutegrowingmorestarry。WithwhatHarmony——
Ithought——canthesetwobeenwrappedinthisroundworldsofastthatitcannotbemoved!Whatsecret,marvellous,all-pervadingPrinciplecanharmonisethesethings!Andtheoldwords’good’and’evil’seemedtomemorethaneverquaint。
Itwasalmostdark,andthedewfallingfast;Irousedmyspanieltogoin。
Overthehigh-walledyard,thebarns,themoon-whiteporch,duskhadbrusheditsvelvet。Throughanopenwindowcamearoaringsound。
Mr。Moltonwassinging"TheHappyWarrior,"tocelebratethefinishoftheshearing。Thebigdoorsintothegarden,passedthrough,cutoffthefullsweetnessofthatsong;fortheretheowlswerealreadymastersofnightwiththeirmusic。
Onthedew-whitenedgrassofthelawn,wecameonalittledarkbeast。Myspaniel,likingitssavour,stoodwithhisnoseatpoint;
but,beingcalledoff,Icouldfeelhimobedient,stillquivering,undermyhand。
Inthefield,awanhuddleintheblackness,thedismantledsheeplayunderahollyhedge。Thewindhaddied;itwasmist-warm。
1910
EVOLUTION
Comingoutofthetheatre,wefounditutterlyimpossibletogetataxicab;and,thoughitwasrainingslightly,walkedthroughLeicesterSquareinthehopeofpickingoneupasitreturneddownPiccadilly。Numbersofhansomsandfour-wheelerspassed,orstoodbythecurb,hailingusfeebly,ornotevenattemptingtoattractourattention,buteverytaxiseemedtohaveitsload。AtPiccadillyCircus,losingpatience,webeckonedtoafour-wheelerandresignedourselvestoalong,slowjourney。Asou’-westerlyairblewthroughtheopenwindows,andtherewasinitthescentofchange,thatwetscentwhichvisitseventheheartsoftownsandinspiresthewatcheroftheirmyriadactivitieswiththoughtoftherestlessForcethatforevercries:"On,on!"Butgraduallythesteadypatterofthehorse’shoofs,therattlingofthewindows,theslowthuddingofthewheels,pressedonussodrowsilythatwhen,atlast,wereachedhomeweweremorethanhalfasleep。Thefarewastwoshillings,and,standinginthelamplighttomakesurethecoinwasahalf-crownbeforehandingittothedriver,wehappenedtolookup。Thiscabmanappearedtobeamanofaboutsixty,withalong,thinface,whosechinanddroopinggreymoustachesseemedinpermanentreposeontheup-turnedcollarofhisoldblueovercoat。Buttheremarkablefeaturesofhisfacewerethetwofurrowsdownhischeeks,sodeepandhollowthatitseemedasthoughthatfacewereacollectionofboneswithoutcoherentflesh,amongwhichtheeyesweresunkbacksofarthattheyhadlosttheirlustre。Hesatquitemotionless,gazingatthetailofhishorse。And,almostunconsciously,oneaddedtherestofone’ssilvertothathalf-crown。Hetookthecoinswithoutspeaking;but,aswewereturningintothegardengate,weheardhimsay:
"Thankyou;you’vesavedmylife。"
Notknowing,eitherofus,whattoreplytosuchacuriousspeech,weclosedthegateagainandcamebacktothecab。
"Arethingssoverybad?"
"Theyare,"repliedthecabman。"It’sdonewith——isthisjob。We’renotwantednow。"And,takinguphiswhip,hepreparedtodriveaway。
"Howlonghavetheybeenasbadasthis?"
Thecabmandroppedhishandagain,asthoughgladtorestit,andansweredincoherently:
"Thirty-fiveyearI’vebeendrivin’acab。"
And,sunkagainincontemplationofhishorse’stail,hecouldonlyberousedbymanyquestionstoexpresshimself,having,asitseemed,noknowledgeofthehabit。
"Idon’tblamethetaxis,Idon’tblamenobody。It’scomeonus,that’swhatithas。Ileftthewifethismorningwithnothinginthehouse。Shewassayingtomeonlyyesterday:’Whathaveyoubroughthomethelastfourmonths?’’Putitatsixshillingsaweek,’I
said。’No,’shesaid,’seven。’Well,that’sright——sheentersitalldowninherbook。"
"Youarereallygoingshortoffood?"
Thecabmansmiled;andthatsmilebetweenthosetwodeephollowswassurelyasstrangeasevershoneonahumanface。
"Youmaysaythat,"hesaid。"Well,whatdoesitamountto?BeforeIpickedyouup,Ihadoneeighteen-pennyfareto-day;andyesterdayItookfiveshillings。AndI’vegotsevenbobadaytopayforthecab,andthat’slow,too。There’smanyandmanyaproprietorthat’sbrokeandgone——everybitasbadasus。Theyletusdownaseasyasevertheycan;youcan’tgetbloodfromastone,canyou?"Onceagainhesmiled。"I’msorryforthem,too,andI’msorryforthehorses,thoughtheycomeoutbestofthethreeofus,Idobelieve。"
OneofusmutteredsomethingaboutthePublic。
Thecabmanturnedhisfaceandstareddownthroughthedarkness。
"ThePublic?"hesaid,andhisvoicehadinitafaintsurprise。
"Well,theyallwantthetaxis。It’snatural。Theygetaboutfasterinthem,andtime’smoney。IwassevenhoursbeforeIpickedyouup。
Andthenyouwaslookin’forataxi。Themastakeusbecausetheycan’tgetbetter,they’renotinagoodtemper,asarule。Andthere’safewoldladiesthat’sfrightenedofthemotors,butoldladiesaren’tneververyfreewiththeirmoney——can’taffordtobe,themostofthem,Iexpect。"
"Everybody’ssorryforyou;onewouldhavethoughtthat————"
Heinterruptedquietly:"Sorrowdon’tbuybread……Ineverhadnobodyaskmeaboutthingsbefore。"And,slowlymovinghislongfacefromsidetoside,headded:"Besides,whatcouldpeopledo?
Theycan’tbeexpectedtosupportyou;andiftheystartedaskin’youquestionsthey’dfeelitveryawkward。Theyknowthat,Isuspect。
Ofcourse,there’ssuchalotofus;thehansomsareprettynighasbadoffasweare。Well,we’regettin’fewereveryday,that’sonething。"
Notknowingwhetherornotomanifestsympathywiththisextinction,weapproachedthehorse。Itwasahorsethat"stoodover"agooddealattheknee,andinthedarknessseemedtohaveinnumerableribs。Andsuddenlyoneofussaid:"Manypeoplewanttoseenothingbuttaxisonthestreets,ifonlyforthesakeofthehorses。"
Thecabmannodded。
"Thisoldfellow,"hesaid,"nevercarriedadealofflesh。Hisgrubdon’tputspiritintohimnowadays;it’snotuptomuchinquality,buthegetsenoughofit。"
"Andyoudon’t?"
Thecabmanagaintookuphiswhip。
"Idon’tsuppose,"hesaidwithoutemotion,"anyonecouldeverfindanotherjobformenow。I’vebeenatthistoolong。It’llbetheworkhouse,ifit’snottheotherthing。"
Andhearingusmutterthatitseemedcruel,hesmiledforthethirdtime。
"Yes,"hesaidslowly,"it’sabit’ardonus,becausewe’vedonenothingtodeserveit。Butthingsarelikethat,sofarasIcansee。Onethingcomespushin’outanother,andsoyougoon。I’vethoughtaboutit——yougettothinkin’andworryin’abouttherightso’things,sittin’uphereallday。No,Idon’tseeanythingforit。
It’llsoonbetheendofusnow——can’tlastmuchlonger。AndIdon’tknowthatI’llbesorrytohavedonewithit。It’sprettywellbrokemyspirit。"
"Therewasafundgotup。"
"Yes,ithelpedafewofustolearnthemotor-drivin’;butwhat’sthegoodofthattome,atmytimeoflife?Sixty,that’smyage;
I’mnottheonlyone——there’shundredslikeme。We’renotfitforit,that’sthefact;wehaven’tgotthenervenow。It’dwantamintofmoneytohelpus。Andwhatyousay’sthetruth——peoplewanttoseetheendofus。Theywantthetaxis——ourday’sover。I’mnotcomplaining;youaskedmeaboutityourself。"
Andforthethirdtimeheraisedhiswhip。
"Tellmewhatyouwouldhavedoneifyouhadbeengivenyourfareandjustsixpenceover?"
Thecabmanstareddownward,asthoughpuzzledbythatquestion。
"Done?Why,nothing。WhatcouldIhavedone?"
"Butyousaidthatithadsavedyourlife。"
"Yes,Isaidthat,"heansweredslowly;"Iwasfeelin’abitlow。
Youcan’thelpitsometimes;it’sthethingcomin’onyou,andnowayoutofit——that’swhatgetsoveryou。Wetrynottothinkaboutit,asarule。"
Andthistime,witha"Thankyou,kindly!"hetouchedhishorse’sflankwiththewhip。Likeathingarousedfromsleeptheforgottencreaturestartedandbegantodrawthecabmanawayfromus。Veryslowlytheytravelleddowntheroadamongtheshadowsofthetreesbrokenbylamplight。Aboveus,whiteshipsofcloudweresailingrapidlyacrossthedarkriverofskyonthewindwhichsmelledofchange。And,afterthecabwaslosttosight,thatwindstillbroughttousthedyingsoundoftheslowwheels。
1910。
RIDINGINMIST
Wetandhot,havingherwintercoat,themareexactlymatchedthedrenchedfox-colouredbeech-leafdrifts。Aswasherwontonsuchmistydays,shedancedalongwithheadheldhigh,herneckalittlearched,herearspricked,pretendingthatthingswerenotwhattheyseemed,andnowandthenvigorouslytryingtoleavemeplantedontheair。Stoneswhichhadrolledoutofthelanebankswereherespecialgoblins,foronesuchhadmaltreatedhernervesbeforeshecameintothisball-roomworld,andshehadnotforgotten。
Therewasnowindthatday。Onthebeech-treeswerestilljustenoughofcopperyleavestolooklikefireslightedhigh-uptoairtheeeriness;butmostofthetwigs,pearledwithwater,werepatternedverynakedagainstuniversalgrey。Berrieswerefew,exceptthepinkspindleone,sofarthemostbeautiful,ofwhichthereweremorethanEarthgenerallyvouchsafes。Therewasnosoundinthedeeplanes,noneofthatsweet,overheadsighingofyesterdayatthesamehour,buttherewasaqualityofsilence——adumbmistmurmuration。Wepassedatreewithaproudpigeonsittingonitstopspire,quitetooheavyforthetwigdelicacybelow;undisturbedbythemare’shoofsorthecreakingofsaddleleather,heletuspass,absorbedinhisworldoftranquilturtledoves。Themisthadthickenedtoawhite,infinitesimalrain-dust,andinitthetreesbegantolookstrange,asthoughtheyhadlostoneanother。Theworldseemedinhabitedonlybyquick,soundlesswraithsasonetrottedpast。
Closetoafarm-housethemarestoodstillwiththatextremesuddennesspeculiartoherattimes,andfourblackpigsscuttledbyandatoncebecamewhiteair。Bynowwewerebothhotandinclinedtoclingcloselytogetherandtakelibertieswitheachother;I
tellingherabouthernature,name,andappearance,togetherwithcommentsonhermanners;andshegivingforththatsterterous,sweetsnuffle,whichbeginsunderthestaronherforehead。Onsuchdaysshedidnotsneeze,reservingthoseexpressionsofherjoyforsunnydaysandthecrispwinds。Ataforkingofthewayswecamesuddenlyononegreyandthreebrownponies,whoshiedroundandflungawayinfrontofus,avisionofprettyheadsandhaunchestangledinthethinlane,till,consciousthattheywerebeyondtheirbeat,theyfacedthebankand,onebyone,scrambledovertojointheotherghostsoutonthedimcommon。
Dippingdownnowovertheroad,wepassedhoundsgoinghome。Pied,dumb-footedshapes,paddingalonginthatsoft-eyed,remoteworldoftheirs,withatallridingsplashofredinfront,andatallsplashofridingredbehind。Thenthroughagatewecameontothemoor,amongstwhitenedfurze。Themistthickened。Acurlewwaswhistlingonitsinvisibleway,farup;andthatwistful,wildcallingseemedtheveryvoiceoftheday。Keepinginviewtheglintoftheroad,wegalloped;rejoicing,bothofus,tobefreeofthejogjogofthelanes。
Andfirstthevoiceofthecurlewdied;thentheglintoftheroadvanished;andwewerequitealone。Eventhefurzewasgone;noshapeofanythingleft,onlytheblack,peatyground,andthethickeningmist。Wemightaswellhavebeenthatlonelybirdcrossingupthereintheblindwhitenothingness,likeahumanspiritwanderingontheundiscoveredmoorofitsownfuture。
Themarejumpedapileofstones,whichappeared,asitwere,afterwehadpassedover;anditcameintomymindthat,ifwehappenedtostrikeoneoftheoldquarrypits,weshouldinfalliblybekilled。
Somehow,therewaspleasureinthisthought,thatwemight,ormightnot,strikethatoldquarrypit。Thebloodinusbeinghot,wehadpurejoyinchargingitswhite,impalpablesolidity,whichmadeway,andatonceclosedinbehindus。Therewasgreatfuninthisyard-
by-yarddiscoverythatwewerenotyetdead,thisflying,shelterlesschallengetowhatevermightlieoutthere,fiveyardsinfront。Wefeltsupremelyabovethewishtoknowthatournecksweresafe;wewerehappy,pantinginthevapourthatbeatagainstourfacesfromthesheerspeedofourgalloping。Suddenlythegroundgrewlumpyandmadeup-hill。Themareslackenedpace;westopped。Beforeus,behind,torightandleft,whitevapour。Nosky,nodistance,barelytheearth。Nowindinourfaces,nowindanywhere。Atfirstwejustgotourbreath,thoughtnothing,talkedalittle。Thencameachillness,afaintclutchingovertheheart。Themaresnuffled;weturnedandmadedown-hill。Andstillthemistthickened,andseemedtodarkeneversolittle;wewentslowly,suddenlydoubtfulofallthatwasinfront。Therecameintoourmindsvisions,sodistantinthatdarkeningvapour,ofawarmstallandmangerofoats;ofteaandalogfire。Themistseemedtohavefingersnow,long,darkwhite,crawlingfingers;itseemed,too,tohaveinitssheersilenceasortofmutteredmenace,ashudderylurkingness,asiffromoutofitthatspiritoftheunknown,whichinhotbloodwehadjustnowsogleefullymocked,werecreepingupatus,intentonitsvengeance。
Sincethegroundnolongersloped,wecouldnotgodown-hill;therewerenomeansleftoftellinginwhatdirectionweweremoving,andwestoppedtolisten。Therewasnosound,notonetinynoiseofwater,windintrees,orman;notevenofbirdsorthemoorponies。
Andthemistdarkened。Themarereachedherheaddownandwalkedon,smellingattheheather;everytimeshesniffed,one’sheartquivered,hopingshehadfoundtheway。Shethrewupherhead,snorted,andstoodstill;andtherepassedjustinfrontofusaponyandherfoal,shapesofscamperingdusk,whiskedlikeblurredshadowsacrossasheet。Hoof-silentinthelongheather——aseverwerevisitingghosts——theyweregoneinaflash。Themareplungedforward,following。But,inthefeelofhergallop,andthefeelofmyheart,therewasnomorethatecstasyoffacingtheunknown;therewasonlythecold,hastydreadofloneliness。Farasunderasthepoleswerethosetwosensations,evokedbythissamemotion。Themareswervedviolentlyandstopped。There,passingwithinthreeyards,fromthesamedirectionasbefore,thesoundlessshapesoftheponyandherfoalflewbyagain,moreintangible,lessduskynowagainstthedarkerscreen。Werewe,then,tobehauntedbythosebewilderinguncannyones,flittingpasteverfromthesamedirection?
Thistimethemaredidnotfollow,butstoodstill;knowingaswellasIthatdirectionwasquitelost。Soon,withawhimper,shepickedherwayonagain,smellingattheheather。Andthemistdarkened!
Then,outoftheheartofthatduskywhiteness,cameatinysound;westood,notbreathing,turningourheads。Icouldseethemare’seyefixedandstrainingatthevapour。Thetinysoundgrewtillitbecamethemutteringofwheels。Themaredashedforward。Themutteringceaseduntimely;butshedidnotstop;turningabruptlytotheleft,sheslid,scrambled,anddroppedintoatrot。Themistseemedwhiterbelowus;wewereontheroad。Andinvoluntarilytherecamefrommeasound,notquiteashout,notquiteanoath。Isawthemare’seyeturnback,faintlyderisive,aswhoshouldsay:AloneIdidit!Thenslowly,comfortably,alittleashamed,wejoggedon,inthemoodofmenandhorseswhendangerisover。Sopleasantitseemednow,inoneshorthalf-hour,tohavepassedthroughthecircle-swingoftheemotions,fromtheecstasyofhotrecklessnesstotheclutchingofchillfear。Butthemeeting-pointofthosetwosensationswehadleftoutthereonthemysteriousmoor!Why,atonemoment,hadwethoughtitfinerthananythingonearthtoriskthebreakingofournecks;andthenext,shudderedatbeinglostinthedarkeningmistwithwinternightfastcomingon?
Andveryluxuriouslyweturnedoncemoreintothelanes,enjoyingthepast,scentingthefuture。Closetohome,thefirstlittleeddyofwindstirred,andthesongofdrippingtwigsbegan;anowlhooted,honey-soft,inthefog。Wecameontwofarmhandsmendingthelaneattheturnoftheavenue,and,curledonthetopofthebank,theircosyredcolliepup,waitingforthemtofinishworkfortheday。
Heraisedhissharpnoseandlookedatusdewily。Weturneddown,paddingsoftlyinthewetfox-reddriftsunderthebeechtrees,whereonthelastleavesstillflickeredoutinthedarkeningwhiteness,thatnowseemedsolittleeerie。Wepassedthegrey-greenskeletonofthefarm-yardgate。Ahenranacrossus,clucking,intothedusk。Themazedrewherlong,home-comingsnuffle,andstoodstill。
1910。
THEPROCESSION
Inoneofthosecornersofourlandcanopiedbythefumesofblindindustry,therewas,onthatday,alullindarkness。Afreshwindhadsplitthecustomaryheaven,orroofofhell;wassweepinglongdriftsofcreamycloudsacrossabluestillpallidwithreek。Thesunevenshone——asunwhosefaceseemedwhiteandwondering。Andunderthatraresunallthelittletown,amongitsslagheapsandfewtallchimneys,hadanairoflivingfaster。Inthosecontinuouscourtsandalleys,wherethewomenworked,smokefromeachlittleforgeroseanddispersedintothewindwithstrangealacrity;amongstthewomen,too,therewasthatsameeagerness,forthesunshinehadcreptinandwasmakingpaleallthosedark-raftered,sootedceilingswhichcoveredthemin,togetherwiththeirimmortalcomrades,thesmallopenfurnaces。Abouttheirworktheyhadbeenbusysinceseveno’clock;theirfeetpressingtheleatherlungswhichfannedtheconicalheapsofglowingfuel,theirhandspokingintotheglowathinironrodtilltheendcouldbecurvedintoafieryhook;
snappingitwithamallet;threadingitwithtongsontothechain;
hammering,closingthelink;and;withoutasecond’spause,thrustingtheironrodagainintotheglow。Andwhiletheyworkedtheychattered,laughedsometimes,nowandthensighed。Theyseemedofallagesandalltypes;fromherwholookedlikeapeasantofProvence,broad,brown,andstrong,totheweariestwhiteconsumptivewisp;fromoldwomenofseventy,withstragglinggreyhair,tofifteen-year-oldgirls。Inthecottageforgestherewouldbebutoneworker,ortwoatmost;intheshopforgesfour,orevenfive,littleglowingheaps;fourorfiveofthegrimy,palelung-bellows;andneveramomentwithoutafieryhookabouttotakeitsplaceonthegrowingchains,neverasecondwhenthethinsmokeoftheforges,andofthoselivesconsumingslowlyinfrontofthem,didnotescapefromoutofthedingy,whitewashedspacespastthedarkrafters,awaytofreedom。
Buttherehadbeenintheairthatmorningsomethingmorethanthewhitesunlight。Therehadbeenanticipation。Andattwoo’clockbeganfulfilment。Theforgeswerestilled,andfromcourtandalleyforthcamethewomen。Intheirraggedworkingclothes,intheirbestclothes——solittledifferent;inbonnets,inhats,bareheaded;withbabiesbornandunborn,theyswarmedintothehighstreetandformedacrossitbehindtheband。Astrange,magpie,jay-likeflock;black,white,patchedwithbrownandgreenandblue,shifting,chattering,laughing,seemingunconsciousofanypurpose。Athousandandmoreofthem,withfacestwistedandscoredbythosemyriaddeformingswhichadesperatetown-toilingandlittlefoodfastenonhumanvisages;yetwithhardlyasingleevilorbrutalface。Seeminglyitwasnoteasytobeevilorbrutalonawagethatscarcelyboundsoulandbody。A
thousandandmoreofthepoorest-paidandhardest-workedhumanbeingsintheworld。
Onthepavementalongsidethisstrange,acquiescingassemblyofrevolt,abouttomarchinprotestagainsttheconditionsoftheirlives,stoodayoungwomanwithoutahatandinpoorclothes,butwithasortofbeautyinherrough-haired,highcheek-boned,dark-
eyedface。Shewasnotoneofthem;yet,byastrokeofNature’sirony,therewasgravenonherfacealoneofallthosefaces,thetruelookofrebellion;ahaughty,almostfierce,uneasylook——anuntamedlook。Onalltheotherthousandfacesonecouldseenobitterness,nofierceness,notevenenthusiasm;onlyahalf-stolid,half-vivaciouspatienceandeagernessasofchildrengoingtoaparty。
Thebandplayed;andtheybegantomarch。
Laughing,talking,wavingflags,tryingtokeepstep;withthesameexpressionslowlybutsurelycomingovereveryface;thefuturewasnot;onlythepresent——thishappypresentofmarchingbehindthediscordanceofabrassband;thisstrangepresentofcrowdedmovementandlaughterinopenair。
Weothers——somedozenaccidentalslikemyself,andthetall,grey-
hairedladyinterestedin"thepeople,"togetherwiththosefewkindspiritsinchargeof"theshow"——marchedtoo,alittleself-
conscious,desiringwithavaguemilitarysensationtoholdourheadsup,butnottoomuch,undertheeyesofthecuriousbystanders。
These——nearlyallmen——werewell-wishers,itwassaid,thoughtheirfaces,palefromtheirownworkinshoporfurnace,expressednothingbutapathy。Theywishedwell,verydumbly,inthepresenceofthisnewthing,asiftheyfounditqueerthatwomenshouldbedoingsomethingforthemselves;queerandratherdangerous。Afew,indeed,shuffledalongbetweenthecolumnandthelittlehopelessshopsandgrimyfactorysheds,andoneortwoaccompaniedtheirwomen,carryingthebaby。Nowandthentherepassedussomebetter-to-docitizen-ahousewife,orlawyer’sclerk,orironmonger,withlipspressedrathertightlytogetherandanairoftakingnonoticeofthisdisturbanceoftraffic,asthoughthewholethingwerearatherpoorjokewhichtheyhadalreadyheardtoooften。
So,withlaughterandacontinualcrackofvoicesourjay-likecrewswungon,swayingandthumpinginthestrangeecstasyofirreflection,happytobemovingtheyknewnotwhere,norgreatlywhy,underthevisitingsun,tothesoundofmurderedmusic。
Wheneverthebandstoppedplaying,disciplinebecameastatterdemalionastheveryflagsandgarments;butneveroncedidtheylosethatlookofessentialorder,asifindeedtheyknewthat,beingtheworst-servedcreaturesintheChristianworld,theywerethechiefguardiansoftheinherentdignityofman。
Hatless,intheveryfrontrow,marchedatallslipofagirl,arrow-
straight,andsothin,withdirtyfairhair,inablouseandskirtgapingbehind,everturningherprettyfaceonitsprettyslimneckfromsidetoside,sothatonecouldseeherblueeyessweepinghere,there,everywhere,withasortofflower-likewildness,asifasecretembracingofeachmomentforbadehertoletthemrestonanythingandbreakthispleasureofjustmarching。Itseemedthatinthenever-stilleyesofthatanaemic,happygirlthespiritofourmarchhadelectedtoenshrineitselfandtomakethenceitslittleexcursionstoeachecstaticfollower。Justbehindhermarchedalittleoldwoman——amakerofchains,theysaid,forfortyyears——
whoseblackslitsofeyesweresparkling,whoflutteredabitofribbon,andreeledwithhersenseoftheexquisitehumouroftheworld。Everynowandthenshewouldmakearushatoneofherleaderstodemonstratehowimmoderatelygloriouswaslife。Andeachtimeshespokethewomannexttoher,ladenwithaheavybaby,wentoffintosquealsoflaughter。Behindher,again,marchedonewhobeattimewithherheadandwavedalittlebitofstick,intoxicatedbythisnoblemusic。
Foranhourthepageantwoundthroughthedejectedstreet,pursuingneithermethodnorsetroute,tillitcametoadesertedslag-heap,selectedforthespeech-making。Slowlythemotleyregimentswungintothatgrimamphitheatreunderthepalesunshine;and,asI
watched,astrangefancyvisitedmybrain。Iseemedtoseeovereveryraggedheadofthosemarchingwomenalittleyellowflame,athin,flickeringgleam,spiringupwardandblownbackbythewind。A
trickofthesunlight,maybe?Orwasitthatthelifeintheirhearts,theinextinguishablebreathofhappiness,hadforamomentescapedprison,andwasflutteringatthepleasureofthebreeze?
Silentnow,justenjoyingthesoundofthewordsthrowndowntothem,theystood,unimaginablypatient,withthathappinessoftheyknewnotwhatgildingtheairabovethembetweenthepatchworkribandsoftheirpoorflags。Iftheycouldnottellverymuchwhytheyhadcome,norbelieveverymuchthattheywouldgainanythingbycoming;
iftheirdemonstrationdidnotmeantotheworldquiteallthatoratorywouldhavethemthink;iftheythemselveswerebutthepoorest,humblest,leastlearnedwomenintheland——forallthat,itseemedtomethatinthosetattered,wistfulfigures,sostill,sotrustful,IwaslookingonsuchbeautyasIhadneverbeheld。Alltheelaboratedgloryofthingsmade,theperfecteddreamsofaesthetes,theembroideriesofromance,seemedasnothingbesidethissuddenvisionofthewildgoodnessnativeinhumblehearts。