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ChapterII

HESHOOKhandswithme:"Well,thereyouare,onyourown,appointedofficiallyundermyre-

sponsibility。"

Hewasactuallywalkingwithmetothedoor。

Whatadistanceoffitseemed!Imovedlikeamaninbonds。Butwereacheditatlast。Iopeneditwiththesensationofdealingwithmeredream-

stuff,andthenatthelastmomentthefellowshipofseamenasserteditself,strongerthanthediffer-

enceofageandstation。ItasserteditselfinCaptainEllis’voice。

"Good-bye——andgoodlucktoyou,"hesaidsoheartilythatIcouldonlygivehimagratefulglance。ThenIturnedandwentout,nevertoseehimagaininmylife。IhadnotmadethreestepsintotheouterofficewhenIheardbehindmybackagruff,loud,authoritativevoice,thevoiceofourdeputy-Neptune。

ItwasaddressingtheheadShipping-Masterwho,havingletmein,had,apparently,remainedhoveringinthemiddledistanceeversince"Mr。R。,lettheharbourlaunchhavesteamuptotakethecaptainhereonboardtheMelitaathalf-

pastnineto-night。"

IwasamazedatthestartledalacrityofR’s"Yes,sir。"Heranbeforemeoutonthelanding。

MynewdignitysatyetsolightlyonmethatIwasnotawarethatitwasI,theCaptain,theobjectofthislastgraciousness。Itseemedasifallofasud-

denapairofwingshadgrownonmyshoulders。I

merelyskimmedalongthepolishedfloor。

ButR。wasimpressed。

"Isay!"heexclaimedonthelanding,whiletheMalaycrewofthesteam-launchstandingbylookedstonilyatthemanforwhomtheyweregoingtobekeptondutysolate,awayfromtheirgambling,fromtheirgirls,ortheirpuredomesticjoys。"I

say!Hisownlaunch。Whathaveyoudonetohim?"

Hisstarewasfullofrespectfulcuriosity。Iwasquiteconfounded。

"Wasitforme?Ihadn’ttheslightestnotion,"

Istammeredout。

Henoddedmanytimes。"Yes。AndthelastpersonwhohaditbeforeyouwasaDuke。So,there!"

Ithinkheexpectedmetofaintonthespot。

ButIwasintoomuchofahurryforemotionaldisplays。Myfeelingswerealreadyinsuchawhirlthatthisstaggeringinformationdidnotseemtomaketheslightestdifference。Itmerelyfellintotheseethingcauldronofmybrain,andIcarrieditoffwithmeafterashortbuteffusivepassageofleave-takingwithR。

Thefavourofthegreatthrowsanaureoleroundthefortunateobjectofitsselection。Thatex-

cellentmanenquiredwhetherhecoulddoanythingforme。Hehadknownmeonlybysight,andhewaswellawarehewouldneverseemeagain;Iwas,incommonwiththeotherseamenoftheport,merelyasubjectforofficialwriting,fillingupofformswithalltheartificialsuperiorityofamanofpenandinktothemenwhograpplewithrealitiesoutsidetheconsecratedwallsofofficialbuildings。

Whatghostswemusthavebeentohim!Meresymbolstojugglewithinbooksandheavyregisters,withoutbrainsandmusclesandper-

plexities;somethinghardlyusefulanddecidedlyinferior。

Andhe——theofficehoursbeingover——wantedtoknowifhecouldbeofanyusetome!

Iought——properlyspeaking——Ioughttohavebeenmovedtotears。ButIdidnoteventhinkofit。

Itwasmerelyanothermiraculousmanifestationofthatdayofmiracles。Ipartedfromhimasifhewereameresymbol。Ifloateddownthestaircase。

Ifloatedoutoftheofficialandimposingportal。I

wentonfloatingalong。

Iusethatwordratherthantheword"flew,"be-

causeIhaveadistinctimpressionthat,thoughup-

liftedbymyarousedyouth,mymovementsweredeliberateenough。Tothatmixedwhite,brown,andyellowportionofmankind,outabroadontheirownaffairs,Ipresentedtheappearanceofamanwalkingrathersedately。Andnothinginthewayofabstractioncouldhaveequalledmydeepde-

tachmentfromtheformsandcoloursofthisworld。

Itwas,asitwere,final。

Andyet,suddenly,IrecognizedHamilton。I

recognizedhimwithouteffort,withoutashock,withoutastart。Therehewas,strollingtowardtheHarbourOfficewithhisstiff,arrogantdignity。

Hisredfacemadehimnoticeableatadistance。Itflamed,overthere,ontheshadysideofthestreet。

Hehadperceivedme,too。Something(uncon-

sciousexuberanceofspiritsperhaps)movedmetowavemyhandtohimelaborately。ThislapsefromgoodtastehappenedbeforeIwasawarethatIwascapableofit。

Theimpactofmyimpudencestoppedhimshort,muchasabulletmighthavedone。Iverilybelievehestaggered,thoughasfarasIcouldseehedidn’tactuallyfall。Ihadgonepastinamomentanddidnotturnmyhead。Ihadforgottenhisexistence。

Thenexttenminutesmighthavebeentensecondsortencenturiesforallmyconsciousnesshadtodowithit。Peoplemighthavebeenfallingdeadaroundme,housescrumbling,gunsfiring,Iwouldn’thaveknown。Iwasthinking:"ByJove!Ihavegotit。"ITbeingthecommand。Ithadcomeaboutinawayutterlyunforeseeninmymodestday-dreams。

Iperceivedthatmyimaginationhadbeenrun-

ninginconventionalchannelsandthatmyhopeshadalwaysbeendrabstuff。Ihadenvisagedacommandasaresultofaslowcourseofpromotionintheemployofsomehighlyrespectablefirm。

Therewardoffaithfulservice。Well,faithfulservicewasallright。Onewouldnaturallygivethatforone’sownsake,forthesakeoftheship,fortheloveofthelifeofone’schoice;notforthesakeofthereward。

Thereissomethingdistastefulinthenotionofareward。

AndnowhereIhadmycommand,absolutelyinmypocket,inawayundeniableindeed,butmostunexpected;beyondmyimaginings,outsideallreasonableexpectations,andevennotwithstandingtheexistenceofsomesortofobscureintriguetokeepitawayfromme。Itistruethattheintriguewasfeeble,butithelpedthefeelingofwonder——asifIhadbeenspeciallydestinedforthatshipIdidnotknow,bysomepowerhigherthantheprosaicagenciesofthecommercialworld。

Astrangesenseofexultationbegantocreepintome。IfIhadworkedforthatcommandtenyearsormoretherewouldhavebeennothingofthekind。

Iwasalittlefrightened。

"Letusbecalm,"Isaidtomyself。

OutsidethedooroftheOfficers’HomethewretchedStewardseemedtobewaitingforme。

Therewasabroadflightofafewsteps,andherantoandfroonthetopofitasifchainedthere。A

distressedcur。Helookedasthoughhisthroatweretoodryforhimtobark。

IregrettosayIstoppedbeforegoingin。Therehadbeenarevolutioninmymoralnature。Hewaitedopen-mouthed,breathless,whileIlookedathimforhalfaminute。

"Andyouthoughtyoucouldkeepmeoutofit,"

Isaidscathingly。

"Yousaidyouweregoinghome,"hesqueakedmiserably。"Yousaidso。Yousaidso。"

"IwonderwhatCaptainElliswillhavetosaytothatexcuse,"Iutteredslowlywithasinistermeaning。

Hislowerjawhadbeentremblingallthetimeandhisvoicewaslikethebleatingofasickgoat。"Youhavegivenmeaway?Youhavedoneforme?"

Neitherhisdistressnoryetthesheerabsurdityofitwasabletodisarmme。Itwasthefirstin-

stanceofharmbeingattemptedtobedonetome——atanyrate,thefirstIhadeverfoundout。AndIwasstillyoungenough,stilltoomuchonthissideoftheshadowline,nottobesurprisedandindig-

nantatsuchthings。

Igazedathiminflexibly。Letthebeggarsuffer。

HeslappedhisforeheadandIpassedin,pursued,intothediningroom,byhisscreech:"Ialwayssaidyou’dbethedeathofme。"

Thisclamournotonlyovertookme,butwentaheadasitwereontotheverandahandbroughtoutCaptainGiles。

Hestoodbeforemeinthedoorwayinallthecommonplacesolidityofhiswisdom。Thegoldchainglitteredonhisbreast。Heclutchedasmoulderingpipe。

Iextendedmyhandtohimwarmlyandheseemedsurprised,butdidrespondheartilyenoughintheend,withafaintsmileofsuperiorknowledgewhichcutmythanksshortasifwithaknife。I

don’tthinkthatmorethanonewordcameout。

Andevenforthatone,judgingbythetemperatureofmyface,Ihadblushedasifforabadaction。

Assumingadetachedtone,Iwonderedhowonearthhehadmanagedtospotthelittleunderhandgamethathadbeengoingon。

Hemurmuredcomplacentlythattherewerebutfewthingsdoneinthetownthathecouldnotseetheinsideof。Andastothishouse,hehadbeenusingitoffandonfornearlytenyears。Nothingthatwentoninitcouldescapehisgreatexperience。

Ithadbeennotroubletohim。Notroubleatall。

Theninhisquiet,thicktonehewantedtoknowifIhadcomplainedformallyoftheSteward’saction。

IsaidthatIhadn’t——though,indeed,itwasnotforwantofopportunity。CaptainEllishadgoneformebald-headedinamostridiculousfashionforbeingoutofthewaywhenwanted。

"Funnyoldgentleman,"interjectedCaptainGiles。"Whatdidyousaytothat?"

"IsaidsimplythatIcamealongtheverymo-

mentIheardofhismessage。Nothingmore。I

didn’twanttohurttheSteward。Iwouldscorntoharmsuchanobject。No。Imadenocom-

plaint,butIbelievehethinksI’vedoneso。Lethimthink。He’sgotafrighthewon’tforgetinahurry,forCaptainElliswouldkickhimoutintothemiddleofAsia……"

"Waitamoment,"saidCaptainGiles,leavingmesuddenly。Isatdownfeelingverytired,mostlyinmyhead。BeforeIcouldstartatrainofthoughthestoodagainbeforeme,murmuringtheexcusethathehadtogoandputthefellow’smindatease。

Ilookedupwithsurprise。ButinrealityIwasindifferent。HeexplainedthathehadfoundtheStewardlyingfacedownwardonthehorsehairsofa。

Hewasallrightnow。

"Hewouldnothavediedoffright,"Isaidcon-

temptuously。

"No。Buthemighthavetakenanoverdoseoutofoneofthemlittlebottleshekeepsinhisroom,"

CaptainGilesarguedseriously。"Theconfoundedfoolhastriedtopoisonhimselfonce——afewyearsago。"

"Really,"Isaidwithoutemotion。"Hedoesn’tseemveryfittolive,anyhow。"

"Astothat,itmaybesaidofagoodmany。"

"Don’texaggeratelikethis!"Iprotested,laughingirritably。"ButIwonderwhatthispartoftheworldwoulddoifyouweretoleaveofflook-

ingafterit,CaptainGiles?HereyouhavegotmeacommandandsavedtheSteward’slifeinoneafternoon。ThoughwhyyoushouldhavetakenallthatinterestineitherofusismorethanIcanunderstand。"

CaptainGilesremainedsilentforaminute。

Thengravely:

"He’snotabadstewardreally。Hecanfindagoodcook,atanyrate。And,what’smore,hecankeephimwhenfound。Irememberthecookswehadherebeforehistime!……"

Imusthavemadeamovementofimpatience,becauseheinterruptedhimselfwithanapologyforkeepingmeyarningthere,whilenodoubtIneededallmytimetogetready。

WhatIreallyneededwastobealoneforabit。

Iseizedthisopeninghastily。Mybedroomwasaquietrefugeinanapparentlyuninhabitedwingofthebuilding。Havingabsolutelynothingtodo(forIhadnotunpackedmythings),Isatdownonthebedandabandonedmyselftotheinfluencesofthehour。Totheunexpectedinfluences……

AndfirstIwonderedatmystateofmind。WhywasInotmoresurprised?Why?HereIwas,in-

vestedwithacommandinthetwinklingofaneye,notinthecommoncourseofhumanaffairs,butmoreasifbyenchantment。Ioughttohavebeenlostinastonishment。ButIwasn’t。Iwasverymuchlikepeopleinfairytales。Nothingeverastonishesthem。Whenafullyappointedgalacoachisproducedoutofapumpkintotakehertoaball,Cinderelladoesnotexclaim。Shegetsinquietlyanddrivesawaytoherhighfor-

tune。

CaptainEllis(afiercesortoffairy)hadpro-

ducedacommandoutofadraweralmostasun-

expectedlyasinafairytale。Butacommandisanabstractidea,anditseemedasortof"lessermarvel"tillitflasheduponmethatitinvolvedtheconcreteexistenceofaship。

Aship!Myship!Shewasmine,moreabso-

lutelymineforpossessionandcarethananythingintheworld;anobjectofresponsibilityandde-

votion。Shewastherewaitingforme,spell-bound,unabletomove,tolive,togetoutintotheworld(tillIcame),likeanenchantedprincess。Hercallhadcometomeasiffromtheclouds。Ihadneversuspectedherexistence。Ididn’tknowhowshelooked,Ihadbarelyheardhername,andyetwewereindissolublyunitedforacertainportionofourfuture,tosinkorswimtogether!

Asuddenpassionofanxiousimpatiencerushedthroughmyveins,gavemesuchasenseofthein-

tensityofexistenceasIhaveneverfeltbeforeorsince。IdiscoveredhowmuchofaseamanIwas,inheart,inmind,and,asitwere,physically——amanexclusivelyofseaandships;theseatheonlyworldthatcounted,andtheships,thetestofman-

liness,oftemperament,ofcourageandfidelity——

andoflove。

Ihadanexquisitemoment。Itwasuniquealso。

Jumpingupfrommyseat,Ipacedupanddownmyroomforalongtime。ButwhenIcamedown-

stairsIbehavedwithsufficientcomposure。I

onlycouldn’teatanythingatdinner。

Havingdeclaredmyintentionnottodrivebuttowalkdowntothequay,ImustrenderthewretchedStewardjusticethathebestirredhimselftofindmesomecooliesfortheluggage。Theyde-

parted,carryingallmyworldlypossessions(exceptalittlemoneyIhadinmypocket)slungfromalongpole。CaptainGilesvolunteeredtowalkdownwithme。

Wefollowedthesombre,shadedalleyacrosstheEsplanade。Itwasmoderatelycoolthereunderthetrees。CaptainGilesremarked,withasuddenlaugh:"Iknowwho’sjollythankfulathavingseenthelastofyou。"

IguessedthathemeanttheSteward。Thefellowhadbornehimselftomeinasulkilyfrightenedmanneratthelast。Iexpressedmywonderthatheshouldhavetriedtodomeabadturnfornoreasonatall。

"Don’tyouseethatwhathewantedwastogetridofourfriendHamiltonbydodginghiminfrontofyouforthatjob?Thatwouldhaveremovedhimforgood。See?"

"Heavens!"Iexclaimed,feelinghumiliatedsomehow。"Canitbepossible?Whatafoolhemustbe!Thatoverbearing,impudentloafer!

Why!Hecouldn’t……Andyethe’snearlydoneit,Ibelieve;fortheHarbourOfficewasboundtosendsomebody。"

"Aye。AfoollikeourStewardcanbedangeroussometimes,"declaredCaptainGilessententiously。

"Justbecauseheisafool,"headded,impartingfurtherinstructioninhiscomplacentlowtones。

"For,"hecontinuedinthemannerofasetdemon-

stration,"nosensiblepersonwouldriskbeingkickedoutoftheonlyberthbetweenhimselfandstarvationjusttogetridofasimpleannoyance——

asmallworry。Wouldhenow?"

"Well,no,"Iconceded,restrainingadesiretolaughatthatsomethingmysteriouslyearnestindeliveringtheconclusionsofhiswisdomasthoughitweretheproductofprohibitedoperations。"Butthatfellowlooksasifhewererathercrazy。Hemustbe。"

"Astothat,Ibelieveeverybodyintheworldisalittlemad,"heannouncedquietly。

"Youmakenoexceptions?"Iinquired,justtohearhismanner。

"Why!Kentsaysthatevenofyou。"

"Doeshe?"Iretorted,extremelyembitteredallatonceagainstmyformercaptain。"There’snothingofthatinthewrittencharacterfromhimwhichI’vegotinmypocket。Hashegivenyouanyinstancesofmylunacy?"

CaptainGilesexplainedinaconciliatingtonethatithadbeenonlyafriendlyremarkinrefer-

encetomyabruptleavingtheshipfornoapparentreason。

Imutteredgrumpily:"Oh!leavinghisship,"

andmendedmypace。Hekeptupbymysideinthedeepgloomoftheavenueasifitwerehiscon-

scientiousdutytoseemeoutofthecolonyasanundesirablecharacter。Hepantedalittle,whichwasratherpatheticinaway。ButIwasnotmoved。Onthecontrary。Hisdiscomfortgavemeasortofmaliciouspleasure。

PresentlyIrelented,sloweddown,andsaid:

"WhatIreallywantedwastogetafreshgrip。

Ifeltitwastime。Isthatsoverymad?"

Hemadenoanswer。Wewereissuingfromtheavenue。Onthebridgeoverthecanaladark,ir-

resolutefigureseemedtobeawaitingsomethingorsomebody。

ItwasaMalaypoliceman,barefooted,inhisblueuniform。Thesilverbandonhislittleroundcapshonedimlyinthelightofthestreetlamp。Hepeeredinourdirectiontimidly。

Beforewecouldcomeuptohimheturnedaboutandwalkedinfrontofusinthedirectionofthejetty。Thedistancewassomehundredyards;andthenIfoundmycooliessquattingontheirheels。

Theyhadkeptthepoleontheirshoulders,andallmyworldlygoods,stilltiedtothepole,wererestingonthegroundbetweenthem。Asfarastheeyecouldreachalongthequaytherewasnotanothersoulabroadexceptthepolicepeon,whosalutedus。

Itseemshehaddetainedthecooliesassuspiciouscharacters,andhadforbiddenthemthejetty。Butatasignfrommehetookofftheembargowithalacrity。Thetwopatientfellows,risingtogetherwithafaintgrunt,trottedoffalongtheplanks,andIpreparedtotakemyleaveofCaptainGiles,whostoodtherewithanairasthoughhismissionweredrawingtoaclose。Itcouldnotbedeniedthathehaddoneitall。AndwhileIhesitatedaboutanappropriatesentencehemadehimselfheard:

"Iexpectyou’llhaveyourhandsprettyfulloftangled-upbusiness。"

Iaskedhimwhatmadehimthinkso;andhean-

sweredthatitwashisgeneralexperienceoftheworld。Shipalongtimeawayfromherport,ownersinaccessiblebycable,andtheonlymanwhocouldexplainmattersdeadandburied。

"Andyouyourselfnewtothebusinessinaway,"

heconcludedinasortofunanswerabletone。

"Don’tinsist,"Isaid。"Iknowitonlytoowell。

IonlywishyoucouldimparttomesomesmallportionofyourexperiencebeforeIgo。Asitcan’tbedoneintenminutesIhadbetternotbegintoaskyou。There’sthatharbourlaunchwaitingforme,too。ButIwon’tfeelreallyatpeacetillIhavethatshipofmineoutintheIndianOcean。"

HeremarkedcasuallythatfromBangkoktotheIndianOceanwasaprettylongstep。Andthismurmur,likeadimflashfromadarklantern,showedmeforamomentthebroadbeltofislandsandreefsbetweenthatunknownship,whichwasmine,andthefreedomofthegreatwatersoftheglobe。

ButIfeltnoapprehension。IwasfamiliarenoughwiththeArchipelagobythattime。Ex-

tremepatienceandextremecarewouldseemethroughtheregionofbrokenland,offaintairs,andofdeadwatertowhereIwouldfeelatlastmycommandswingonthegreatswellandlistovertothegreatbreathofregularwinds,thatwouldgiveherthefeelingofalarge,moreintenselife。Theroadwouldbelong。Allroadsarelongthatleadtowardone’sheart’sdesire。Butthisroadmymind’seyecouldseeonachart,professionally,withallitscomplicationsanddifficulties,yetsimpleenoughinaway。Oneisaseamanoroneisnot。

AndIhadnodoubtofbeingone。

TheonlypartIwasastrangertowastheGulfofSiam。AndImentionedthistoCaptainGiles。

NotthatIwasconcernedverymuch。ItbelongedtothesameregionthenatureofwhichIknew,intowhoseverysoulIseemedtohavelookedduringthelastmonthsofthatexistencewithwhichIhadbrokennow,suddenly,asonepartswithsomeen-

chantingcompany。

"Thegulf……Ay!Afunnypieceofwater——that,"saidCaptainGiles。

Funny,inthisconnection,wasavagueword。

Thewholethingsoundedlikeanopinionutteredbyacautiouspersonmindfulofactionsforslander。

Ididn’tinquireastothenatureofthatfunni-

ness。Therewasreallynotime。Butattheverylasthevolunteeredawarning。

"Whateveryoudokeeptotheeastsideofit。

Thewestsideisdangerousatthistimeoftheyear。

Don’tletanythingtemptyouover。You’llfindnothingbuttroublethere。"

ThoughIcouldhardlyimaginewhatcouldtemptmetoinvolvemyshipamongstthecurrentsandreefsoftheMalayshore,Ithankedhimfortheadvice。

Hegrippedmyextendedarmwarmly,andtheendofouracquaintancecamesuddenlyinthewords:"Good-night。"

Thatwasallhesaid:"Good-night。"Nothingmore。Idon’tknowwhatIintendedtosay,butsurprisemademeswallowit,whateveritwas。I

chokedslightly,andthenexclaimedwithasortofnervoushaste:"Oh!Good-night,CaptainGiles,good-night。"

Hismovementswerealwaysdeliberate,buthisbackhadrecededsomedistancealongthedesertedquaybeforeIcollectedmyselfenoughtofollowhisexampleandmadeahalfturninthedirectionofthejetty。

Onlymymovementswerenotdeliberate。I

hurrieddowntothesteps,andleapedintothelaunch。BeforeIhadfairlylandedinherstern-

sheetstheslimlittlecraftdartedawayfromthejettywithasuddenswirlofherpropellerandthehard,rapidpuffingoftheexhaustinhervaguelygleamingbrassfunnelamidships。

Themistychurningathersternwastheonlysoundintheworld。Theshorelayplungedinthesilenceofthedeeperslumber。Iwatchedthetownrecedestillandsoundlessinthehotnight,tilltheabrupthail,"Steam-launch,ahoy!"mademespinroundfaceforward。Wewereclosetoawhiteghostlysteamer。Lightsshoneonherdecks,inherportholes。Andthesamevoiceshoutedfromher:

"Isthatourpassenger?"

"Itis,"Iyelled。

Hercrewhadbeenobviouslyonthejump。I

couldhearthemrunningabout。Themodernspiritofhastewasloudlyvocalintheordersto"Heaveawayonthecable"——to"Lowertheside-

ladder,"andinurgentrequeststometo"Comealong,sir!Wehavebeendelayedthreehoursforyou……Ourtimeisseveno’clock,youknow!"

Isteppedonthedeck。Isaid"No!Idon’tknow。"Thespiritofmodernhurrywasembodiedinathin,long-armed,long-leggedman,withacloselyclippedgraybeard。Hismeagrehandwashotanddry。Hedeclaredfeverishly:

"IamhangedifIwouldhavewaitedanotherfiveminutesHarbour-MasterornoHarbour-

Master。"

"That’syourownbusiness,"Isaid。"Ididn’taskyoutowaitforme。"

"Ihopeyoudon’texpectanysupper,"heburstout。"Thisisn’taboarding-houseafloat。YouarethefirstpassengerIeverhadinmylifeandIhopetogoodnessyouwillbethelast。"

Imadenoanswertothishospitablecommuni-

cation;and,indeed,hedidn’twaitforany,boltingawayontohisbridgetogethisshipunderway。

Forthethreedayshehadmeonboardhedidnotdepartfromthathalf-hostileattitude。Hisshiphavingbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccounthecouldn’tforgivemefornotbeingamoredistin-

guishedperson。Hewasnotexactlyoutspokenaboutit,butthatfeelingofannoyedwonderwaspeepingoutperpetuallyinhistalk。

Hewasabsurd。

Hewasalsoamanofmuchexperience,whichhelikedtotrotout;butnogreatercontrastwithCap-

tainGilescouldhavebeenimagined。HewouldhaveamusedmeifIhadwantedtobeamused。

ButIdidnotwanttobeamused。Iwaslikealoverlookingforwardtoameeting。Humanhos-

tilitywasnothingtome。Ithoughtofmyun-

knownship。Itwasamusementenough,tormentenough,occupationenough。

Heperceivedmystate,forhiswitsweresuffi-

cientlysharpforthat,andhepokedslyfunatmypreoccupationinthemannersomenasty,cynicaloldmenassumetowardthedreamsandillusionsofyouth。I,onmyside,refrainedfromquestioninghimastotheappearanceofmyship,thoughI

knewthatbeinginBangkokeveryfortnightorsohemusthaveknownherbysight。Iwasnotgoingtoexposetheship,myship!tosomeslightingreference。

HewasthefirstreallyunsympatheticmanIhadevercomeincontactwith。Myeducationwasfarfrombeingfinished,thoughIdidn’tknowit。No!

Ididn’tknowit。

AllIknewwasthathedislikedmeandhadsomecontemptformyperson。Why?Apparentlybecausehisshiphadbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccount。WhowasItohavesuchathingdoneforme?Suchathinghadneverbeendoneforhim。

Itwasasortofjealousindignation。

Myexpectation,mingledwithfear,waswroughttoitshighestpitch。Howslowhadbeenthedaysofthepassageandhowsoontheywereover。Onemorning,early,wecrossedthebar,andwhilethesunwasrisingsplendidlyovertheflatspacesofthelandwesteameduptheinnumerablebends,passedundertheshadowofthegreatgiltpagoda,andreachedtheoutskirtsofthetown。

Thereitwas,spreadlargelyonbothbanks,theOrientalcapitalwhichhadasyetsufferednowhiteconqueror;anexpanseofbrownhousesofbamboo,ofmats,ofleaves,ofavegetable-matterstyleofarchitecture,sprungoutofthebrownsoilonthebanksofthemuddyriver。Itwasamazingtothinkthatinthosemilesofhumanhabitationstherewasnotprobablyhalfadozenpoundsofnails。Someofthosehousesofsticksandgrass,likethenestsofanaquaticrace,clungtothelowshores。Othersseemedtogrowoutofthewater;othersagainfloatedinlonganchoredrowsintheverymiddleofthestream。Hereandthereinthedistance,abovethecrowdedmoboflow,brownroofridges,toweredgreatpilesofmasonry,King’sPalace,temples,gorgeousanddilapidated,crumblingundertheverticalsunlight,tremendous,overpowering,al-

mostpalpable,whichseemedtoenterone’sbreastwiththebreathofone’snostrilsandsoakintoone’slimbsthrougheveryporeofone’sskin。

Theridiculousvictimofjealousyhadforsomereasonorothertostophisenginesjustthen。Thesteamerdriftedslowlyupwiththetide。ObliviousofmynewsurroundingsIwalkedthedeck,inanx-

ious,deadenedabstraction,acomminglingofromanticreveriewithaverypracticalsurveyofmyqualifications。Forthetimewasapproachingformetobeholdmycommandandtoprovemyworthintheultimatetestofmyprofession。

SuddenlyIheardmyselfcalledbythatimbe-

cile。Hewasbeckoningmetocomeuponhisbridge。

Ididn’tcareverymuchforthat,butasitseemedthathehadsomethingparticulartosayI

wentuptheladder。

Helaidhishandonmyshoulderandgavemeaslightturn,pointingwithhisotherarmatthesametime。

"There!That’syourship,Captain,"hesaid。

Ifeltathumpinmybreast——onlyone,asifmyhearthadthenceasedtobeat。Thereweretenormoreshipsmooredalongthebank,andtheonehemeantwaspartlyhiddenawayfrommysightbyhernextastern。Hesaid:"We’lldriftabreastherinamoment。"

Whatwashistone?Mocking?Threatening?

Oronlyindifferent?Icouldnottell。Isuspectedsomemaliceinthisunexpectedmanifestationofinterest。

Heleftme,andIleanedovertherailofthebridgelookingovertheside。Idarednotraisemyeyes。Yetithadtobedone——and,indeed,Icouldnothavehelpedmyself。IbelieveItrembled。

Butdirectlymyeyeshadrestedonmyshipallmyfearvanished。Itwentoffswiftly,likeabaddream。Onlythatadreamleavesnoshamebe-

hindit,andthatIfeltamomentaryshameatmyunworthysuspicions。

Yes,thereshewas。Herhull,herriggingfilledmyeyewithagreatcontent。Thatfeelingoflife-

emptinesswhichhadmademesorestlessforthelastfewmonthslostitsbitterplausibility,itsevilinfluence,dissolvedinaflowofjoyousemotion。

AtfirstglanceIsawthatshewasahigh-classvessel,aharmoniouscreatureinthelinesofherfinebody,intheproportionedtallnessofherspars。

Whateverherageandherhistory,shehadpre-

servedthestampofherorigin。Shewasoneofthosecraftthat,invirtueoftheirdesignandcom-

pletefinish,willneverlookold。Amongsthercom-

panionsmooredtothebank,andallbiggerthanherself,shelookedlikeacreatureofhighbreed——

anArabsteedinastringofcart-horses。

Avoicebehindmesaidinanastyequivocaltone:

"Ihopeyouaresatisfiedwithher,Captain。"I

didnoteventurnmyhead。Itwasthemasterofthesteamer,andwhateverhemeant,whateverhethoughtofher,Iknewthat,likesomerarewomen,shewasoneofthosecreatureswhosemereexistenceisenoughtoawakenanunselfishdelight。Onefeelsthatitisgoodtobeintheworldinwhichshehasherbeing。

Thatillusionoflifeandcharacterwhichcharmsoneinmen’sfinesthandiworkradiatedfromher。

Anenormousbulkofteak-woodtimberswungoverherhatchway;lifelessmatter,lookingheavierandbiggerthananythingaboardofher。Whentheystartedloweringitthesurgeofthetacklesentaquiverthroughherfromwater-linetothetrucksupthefinenervesofherrigging,asthoughshehadshudderedattheweight。Itseemedcrueltoloadherso……

Halfanhourlater,puttingmyfootonherdeckforthefirsttime,Ireceivedthefeelingofdeepphysicalsatisfaction。Nothingcouldequalthefullnessofthatmoment,theidealcompletenessofthatemotionalexperiencewhichhadcometomewithoutthepreliminarytoilanddisenchantmentsofanobscurecareer。

Myrapidglanceranoverher,enveloped,ap-

propriatedtheformconcretingtheabstractsenti-

mentofmycommand。Alotofdetailsperceptibletoaseamanstruckmyeye,vividlyinthatinstant。

Fortherest,Isawherdisengagedfromthematerialconditionsofherbeing。Theshoretowhichshewasmooredwasasifitdidnotexist。Whatweretomeallthecountriesoftheglobe?Inallthepartsoftheworldwashedbynavigablewatersourrelationtoeachotherwouldbethesame——andmoreintimatethantherearewordstoexpressinthelanguage。Apartfromthat,everysceneandepisodewouldbeamerepassingshow。Theverygangofyellowcooliesbusyaboutthemainhatchwaslesssubstantialthanthestuffdreamsaremadeof。ForwhoonearthwoulddreamofChinamen?……

Iwentaft,ascendedthepoop,where,undertheawning,gleamedthebrassesoftheyacht-likefittings,thepolishedsurfacesoftherails,theglassoftheskylights。Rightafttwoseamen,busycleaningthesteeringgear,withthereflectedripplesoflightrunningplayfullyuptheirbentbacks,wentonwiththeirwork,unawareofmeandoftheal-

mostaffectionateglanceIthrewattheminpassingtowardthecompanion-wayofthecabin。

Thedoorsstoodwideopen,theslidewaspushedrightback。Thehalf-turnofthestaircasecutofftheviewofthelobby。Alowhummingascendedfrombelow,butitstoppedabruptlyatthesoundofmydescendingfootsteps。

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THEfirstthingIsawdowntherewastheupperpartofaman’sbodyprojectingbackward,asitwere,fromoneofthedoorsatthefootofthestairs。Hiseyeslookedatmeverywideandstill。Inonehandheheldadinnerplate,intheotheracloth。

"IamyournewCaptain,"Isaidquietly。

Inamoment,inthetwinklingofaneye,hehadgotridoftheplateandtheclothandjumpedtoopenthecabindoor。AssoonasIpassedintothesaloonhevanished,butonlytoreappearinstantly,buttoningupajackethehadputonwiththeswiftnessofa"quick-change"artist。

"Where’sthechiefmate?"Iasked。

"Inthehold,Ithink,sir。Isawhimgodowntheafter-hatchtenminutesago。"

"TellhimIamonboard。"

Themahoganytableundertheskylightshoneinthetwilightlikeadarkpoolofwater。Theside-

board,surmountedbyawidelooking-glassinanormuluframe,hadamarbletop。Itboreapairofsilver-platedlampsandsomeotherpieces——

obviouslyaharbourdisplay。Thesaloonitselfwaspanelledintwokindsofwoodintheexcellentsimpletasteprevailingwhentheshipwasbuilt。

Isatdowninthearmchairattheheadofthetable——thecaptain’schair,withasmalltell-talecompassswungaboveit——amutereminderofun-

remittingvigilance。

Asuccessionofmenhadsatinthatchair。Ibe-

cameawareofthatthoughtsuddenly,vividly,asthougheachhadleftalittleofhimselfbetweenthefourwallsoftheseornatebulkheads;asifasortofcompositesoul,thesoulofcommand,hadwhisperedsuddenlytomineoflongdaysatseaandofanxiousmoments。

"You,too!"itseemedtosay,"you,too,shalltasteofthatpeaceandthatunrestinasearchingintimacywithyourownself——obscureaswewereandassupremeinthefaceofallthewindsandalltheseas,inanimmensitythatreceivesnoimpress,preservesnomemories,andkeepsnoreckoningoflives。"

Deepwithinthetarnishedormuluframe,inthehothalf-lightsiftedthroughtheawning,Isawmyownfaceproppedbetweenmyhands。AndI

staredbackatmyselfwiththeperfectdetachmentofdistance,ratherwithcuriositythanwithanyotherfeeling,exceptofsomesympathyforthislatestrepresentativeofwhatforallintentsandpurposeswasadynasty,continuousnotinbloodindeed,butinitsexperience,initstraining,initsconceptionofduty,andintheblessedsimplicityofitstraditionalpointofviewonlife。

ItstruckmethatthisquietlystaringmanwhomIwaswatching,bothasifheweremyselfandsome-

bodyelse,wasnotexactlyalonelyfigure。Hehadhisplaceinalineofmenwhomhedidnotknow,ofwhomhehadneverheard;butwhowerefashionedbythesameinfluences,whosesoulsinrelationtotheirhumblelife’sworkhadnosecretsforhim。

SuddenlyIperceivedthattherewasanothermaninthesaloon,standingalittleononesideandlook-

ingintentlyatme。Thechiefmate。Hislong,redmoustachedeterminedthecharacterofhisphysiognomy,whichstruckmeaspugnaciousin(strangetosay)aghastlysortofway。

Howlonghadhebeentherelookingatme,ap-

praisingmeinmyunguardedday-dreamingstate?

Iwouldhavebeenmoredisconcertedif,havingtheclocksetinthetopofthemirror-framerightinfrontofme,Ihadnotnoticedthatitslonghandhadhardlymovedatall。

Icouldnothavebeeninthatcabinmorethantwominutesaltogether。Saythree……Sohecouldnothavebeenwatchingmemorethanamerefractionofaminute,luckily。Still,Ire-

grettedtheoccurrence。

ButIshowednothingofitasIroseleisurely(ithadtobeleisurely)andgreetedhimwithperfectfriendliness。

Therewassomethingreluctantandatthesametimeattentiveinhisbearing。HisnamewasBurns。Weleftthecabinandwentroundtheshiptogether。Hisfaceinthefulllightofdayap-

pearedverypale,meagre,evenhaggard。Some-

howIhadadelicacyastolookingtoooftenathim;

hiseyes,onthecontrary,remainedfairlygluedonmyface。Theyweregreenishandhadanex-

pectantexpression。

Heansweredallmyquestionsreadilyenough,butmyearseemedtocatchatoneofunwillingness。

Thesecondofficer,withthreeorfourhands,wasbusyforward。ThematementionedhisnameandInoddedtohiminpassing。Hewasveryyoung。

Hestruckmeasratheracub。

Whenwereturnedbelow,Isatdownononeendofadeep,semi-circular,or,rather,semi-ovalsettee,upholsteredinredplush。Itextendedrightacrossthewholeafter-endofthecabin。Mr。Burnsmotionedtositdown,droppedintooneoftheswivel-chairsroundthetable,andkepthiseyesonmeaspersistentlyasever,andwiththatstrangeairasifallthisweremake-believeandheexpectedmetogetup,burstintoalaugh,slaphimontheback,andvanishfromthecabin。

Therewasanoddstressinthesituationwhichbegantomakemeuncomfortable。Itriedtoreactagainstthisvaguefeeling。

"It’sonlymyinexperience,"Ithought。

Inthefaceofthatman,severalyears,Ijudged,olderthanmyself,IbecameawareofwhatIhadleftalreadybehindme——myyouth。Andthatwasindeedpoorcomfort。Youthisafinething,amightypower——aslongasonedoesnotthinkofit。IfeltIwasbecomingself-conscious。AlmostagainstmywillIassumedamoodygravity。I

said:"Iseeyouhavekeptherinverygoodorder,Mr。Burns。"

DirectlyIhadutteredthesewordsIaskedmy-

selfangrilywhythedeucedidIwanttosaythat?

Mr。Burnsinanswerhadonlyblinkedatme。Whatonearthdidhemean?

Ifellbackonaquestionwhichhadbeeninmythoughtsforalongtime——themostnaturalques-

tiononthelipsofanyseamanwhateverjoiningaship。Ivoicedit(confoundthisself-consciousness)

inadegagecheerfultone:"Isupposeshecantravel——what?"

Nowaquestionlikethismighthavebeenan-

swerednormally,eitherinaccentsofapologeticsorroworwithavisiblysuppressedpride,ina"I

don’twanttoboast,butyoushallsee,"sortoftone。Therearesailors,too,whowouldhavebeenroughlyoutspoken:"Lazybrute,"oropenlyde-

lighted:"She’saflyer。"Twoways,iffourmanners。

ButMr。Burnsfoundanotherway,awayofhisownwhichhad,atallevents,themeritofsavinghisbreath,ifnoother。

Againhedidnotsayanything。Heonlyfrowned。Anditwasanangryfrown。Iwaited。

Nothingmorecame。

"What’sthematter?……Can’tyoutellafterbeingnearlytwoyearsintheship?"Iad-

dressedhimsharply。

Helookedasstartledforamomentasthoughhehaddiscoveredmypresenceonlythatverymo-

ment。Butthispassedoffalmostatonce。Heputonanairofindifference。ButIsupposehethoughtitbettertosaysomething。Hesaidthatashipneeded,justlikeaman,thechancetoshowthebestshecoulddo,andthatthisshiphadneverhadachancesincehehadbeenonboardofher。Notthathecouldremember。Thelastcaptain……

Hepaused。

"Hashebeensoveryunlucky?"Iaskedwithfrankincredulity。Mr。Burnsturnedhiseyesawayfromme。No,thelatecaptainwasnotanunluckyman。Onecouldn’tsaythat。Buthehadnotseemedtowanttomakeuseofhisluck。

Mr。Burns——manofenigmaticmoods——madethisstatementwithaninanimatefaceandstaringwilfullyattheruddercasing。Thestatementitselfwasobscurelysuggestive。Iaskedquietly:

"Wheredidhedie?"

"Inthissaloon。Justwhereyouaresittingnow,"answeredMr。Burns。

Irepressedasillyimpulsetojumpup;butuponthewholeIwasrelievedtohearthathehadnotdiedinthebedwhichwasnowtobemine。I

pointedouttothechiefmatethatwhatIreallywantedtoknowwaswherehehadburiedhislatecaptain。

Mr。Burnssaidthatitwasattheentrancetothegulf。Aroomygrave;asufficientanswer。Butthemate,overcomingvisiblysomethingwithinhim——somethinglikeacuriousreluctancetobelieveinmyadvent(asanirrevocablefact,atanyrate),didnotstopatthat——though,indeed,hemayhavewishedtodoso。

Asacompromisewithhisfeelings,Ibelieve,headdressedhimselfpersistentlytotherudder-casing,sothattomehehadtheappearanceofamantalkinginsolitude,alittleunconsciously,however。

Histalewasthatatsevenbellsintheforenoonwatchhehadallhandsmusteredonthequarter-

deckandtoldthemtheyhadbettergodowntosaygood-byetothecaptain。

Thosewords,asifgrudgedtoanintrudingper-

sonage,wereenoughformetoevokevividlythatstrangeceremony:Thebare-footed,bare-headedseamencrowdingshylyintothatcabin,asmallmobpressedagainstthatsideboard,uncomfortableratherthanmoved,shirtsopenonsunburntchests,weather-beatenfaces,andallstaringatthedyingmanwiththesamegraveandexpectantexpression。

"Washeconscious?"Iasked。

"Hedidn’tspeak,buthemovedhiseyestolookatthem,"saidthemate。

Afterwaitingamoment,Mr。Burnsmotionedthecrewtoleavethecabin,buthedetainedthetwoeldestmentostaywiththecaptainwhilehewentondeckwithhissextantto"takethesun。"Itwasgettingtowardnoonandhewasanxioustoobtainagoodobservationforlatitude。Whenhereturnedbelowtoputhissextantawayhefoundthatthetwomenhadretreatedoutintothelobby。

Throughtheopendoorhehadaviewofthecaptainlyingeasyagainstthepillows。Hehad"passedaway"whileMr。Burnswastakingthisobserva-

tion。Asnearnoonaspossible。Hehadhardlychangedhisposition。

Mr。Burnssighed,glancedatmeinquisitively,asmuchastosay,"Aren’tyougoingyet?"andthenturnedhisthoughtsfromhisnewcaptainbacktotheold,who,beingdead,hadnoauthority,wasnotinanybody’sway,andwasmucheasiertodealwith。

Mr。Burnsdealtwithhimatsomelength。Hewasapeculiarman——ofsixty-fiveabout——irongray,hard-faced,obstinate,anduncommunicative。Heusedtokeeptheshiploafingatseaforinscrutablereasons。Wouldcomeondeckatnightsometimes,takesomesailoffher,Godonlyknowswhyorwherefore,thengobelow,shuthimselfupinhiscabin,andplayontheviolinforhours——tillday-

breakperhaps。Infact,hespentmostofhistimedayornightplayingtheviolin。Thatwaswhenthefittookhim。Veryloud,too。

Itcametothis,thatMr。Burnsmusteredhiscourageonedayandremonstratedearnestlywiththecaptain。Neitherhenorthesecondmatecouldgetawinkofsleepintheirwatchesbelowforthenoise……Andhowcouldtheybeex-

pectedtokeepawakewhileonduty?Hepleaded。

Theanswerofthatsternmanwasthatifheandthesecondmatedidn’tlikethenoise,theywerewel-

cometopackuptheirtrapsandwalkovertheside。

Whenthisalternativewasofferedtheshiphap-

penedtobe600milesfromthenearestland。

Mr。Burnsatthispointlookedatmewithanairofcuriosity。Ibegantothinkthatmypredecessorwasaremarkablypeculiaroldman。

ButIhadtohearstrangerthingsyet。Itcameoutthatthisstern,grim,wind-tanned,rough,sea-

salted,taciturnsailorofsixty-fivewasnotonlyanartist,butaloveraswell。InHaiphong,whentheygotthereafteracourseofmostunprofitableperegrinations(duringwhichtheshipwasnearlylosttwice),hegothimself,inMr。Burns’ownwords,"mixedup"withsomewoman。Mr。Burnshadhadnopersonalknowledgeofthataffair,butpositiveevidenceofitexistedintheshapeofaphotographtakeninHaiphong。Mr。Burnsfounditinoneofthedrawersinthecaptain’sroom。

InduecourseI,too,sawthatamazinghumandocument(Ieventhrewitoverboardlater)。

Therehesat,withhishandsreposingonhisknees,bald,squat,gray,bristly,recallingawildboarsomehow;andbyhissidetoweredanawfulmature,whitefemalewithrapaciousnostrilsandacheaplyill-omenedstareinherenormouseyes。Shewasdisguisedinsomesemi-oriental,vulgar,fancycostume。Sheresembledalow-classmediumoroneofthosewomenwhotellfortunesbycardsforhalfacrown。Andyetshewasstriking。Apro-

fessionalsorceressfromtheslums。Itwasincom-

prehensible。Therewassomethingawfulinthethoughtthatshewasthelastreflectionoftheworldofpassionforthefiercesoulwhichseemedtolookatoneoutofthesardonicallysavagefaceofthatoldseaman。However,Inoticedthatshewasholdingsomemusicalinstrument——guitarormandoline——

inherhand。Perhapsthatwasthesecretofhersortilege。

ForMr。Burnsthatphotographexplainedwhytheunloadedshiphadkeptswelteringatanchorforthreeweeksinapestilentialhotharbourwith-

outair。Theylaythereandgasped。Thecap-

tain,appearingnowandthenonshortvisits,mumbledtoMr。Burnsunlikelytalesaboutsomelettershewaswaitingfor。

Suddenly,aftervanishingforaweek,hecameonboardinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheshipouttoseawiththefirstbreakofdawn。Daylightshowedhimlookingwildandill。Themeregettingclearofthelandtooktwodays,andsomehoworothertheybumpedslightlyonareef。However,noleakdeveloped,andthecaptain,growling"nomatter,"informedMr。BurnsthathehadmadeuphismindtotaketheshiptoHong-Konganddry-

dockherthere。

AtthisMr。Burnswasplungedintodespair。Forindeed,tobeatuptoHong-Kongagainstafiercemonsoon,withashipnotsufficientlyballastedandwithhersupplyofwaternotcompleted,wasanin-

saneproject。

Butthecaptaingrowledperemptorily,"Stickheratit,"andMr。Burns,dismayedandenraged,stuckheratit,andkeptheratit,blowingawaysails,strainingthespars,exhaustingthecrew——

nearlymaddenedbytheabsoluteconvictionthattheattemptwasimpossibleandwasboundtoendinsomecatastrophe。

Meantimethecaptain,shutupinhiscabinandwedgedinacornerofhissetteeagainstthecrazyboundingoftheship,playedtheviolin——or,atanyrate,madecontinuousnoiseonit。

Whenheappearedondeckhewouldnotspeakandnotalwaysanswerwhenspokento。Itwasobviousthathewasillinsomemysteriousmanner,andbeginningtobreakup。

Asthedayswentbythesoundsoftheviolinbe-

camelessandlessloud,tillatlastonlyafeeblescratchingwouldmeetMr。Burns’earashestoodinthesaloonlisteningoutsidethedoorofthecap-

tain’sstate-room。

Oneafternooninperfectdesperationheburstintothatroomandmadesuchascene,tearinghishairandshoutingsuchhorridimprecationsthathecowedthecontemptuousspiritofthesickman。

Thewater-tankswerelow,theyhadnotgainedfiftymilesinafortnight。ShewouldneverreachHong-

Kong。

Itwaslikefightingdesperatelytowarddestruc-

tionfortheshipandthemen。Thiswasevidentwithoutargument。Mr。Burns,losingallrestraint,puthisfaceclosetohiscaptain’sandfairlyyelled:"You,sir,aregoingoutoftheworld。ButIcan’twaittillyouaredeadbeforeIputthehelmup。Youmustdoityourself。Youmustdoitnow!"

Themanonthecouchsnarledincontempt。

"SoIamgoingoutoftheworld——amI?"

"Yes,sir——youhaven’tmanydaysleftinit,"

saidMr。Burnscalmingdown。"Onecanseeitbyyourface。"

"Myface,eh?……Well,putupthehelmandbedamnedtoyou。"

Burnsflewondeck,gottheshipbeforethewind,thencamedownagaincomposed,butresolute。

"I’veshapedacourseforPuloCondor,sir,"hesaid。"Whenwemakeit,ifyouarestillwithus,you’lltellmeintowhatportyouwishmetotaketheshipandI’lldoit。"

Theoldmangavehimalookofsavagespite,andsaidthoseatrociouswordsindeadly,slowtones。

"IfIhadmywish,neithertheshipnoranyofyouwouldeverreachaport。AndIhopeyouwon’t。"

Mr。Burnswasprofoundlyshocked。Ibelievehewaspositivelyfrightenedatthetime。Itseems,however,thathemanagedtoproducesuchaneffectivelaughthatitwastheoldman’sturntobefrightened。Heshrankwithinhimselfandturnedhisbackonhim。

"Andhisheadwasnotgonethen,"Mr。Burnsassuredmeexcitedly。"Hemeanteverywordofit。"

"Suchwaspracticallythelatecaptain’slastspeech。Noconnectedsentencepassedhislipsafterward。Thatnightheusedthelastofhisstrengthtothrowhisfiddleovertheside。Noonehadactuallyseenhimintheact,butafterhisdeathMr。Burnscouldn’tfindthethinganywhere。

Theemptycasewasverymuchinevidence,butthefiddlewasclearlynotintheship。Andwhereelsecouldithavegonetobutoverboard?"

"Threwhisviolinoverboard!"Iexclaimed。

"Hedid,"criedMr。Burnsexcitedly。"Andit’smybeliefhewouldhavetriedtotaketheshipdownwithhimifithadbeeninhumanpower。Henevermeanthertoseehomeagain。Hewouldn’twritetohisowners,heneverwrotetohisoldwife,either——hewasn’tgoingto。Hehadmadeuphismindtocutadriftfromeverything。That’swhatitwas。Hedidn’tcareforbusiness,orfreights,orformakingapassage——oranything。Hemeanttohavegonewanderingabouttheworldtillhelostherwithallhands。"

Mr。Burnslookedlikeamanwhohadescapedgreatdanger。Foralittlehewouldhaveex-

claimed:"Ifithadn’tbeenforme!"Andthetransparentinnocenceofhisindignanteyeswasunderlinedquaintlybythearrogantpairofmoustacheswhichheproceededtotwist,andasifextend,horizontally。

ImighthavesmiledifIhadnotbeenbusywithmyownsensations,whichwerenotthoseofMr。

Burns。Iwasalreadythemanincommand。Mysensationscouldnotbelikethoseofanyothermanonboard。InthatcommunityIstood,likeakinginhiscountry,inaclassallbymyself。Imeananhereditaryking,notamereelectedheadofastate。

IwasbroughttheretorulebyanagencyasremotefromthepeopleandasinscrutablealmosttothemastheGraceofGod。

Andlikeamemberofadynasty,feelingasemi-

mysticalbondwiththedead,Iwasprofoundlyshockedbymyimmediatepredecessor。

Thatmanhadbeeninallessentialsbuthisagejustsuchanothermanasmyself。Yettheendofhislifewasacompleteactoftreason,thebetrayalofatraditionwhichseemedtomeasimperativeasanyguideonearthcouldbe。Itappearedthatevenatseaamancouldbecomethevictimofevilspirits。Ifeltonmyfacethebreathofunknownpowersthatshapeourdestinies。

NottoletthesilencelasttoolongIaskedMr。

Burnsifhehadwrittentohiscaptain’swife。Heshookhishead。Hehadwrittentonobody。

Inamomenthebecamesombre。Heneverthoughtofwriting。IttookhimallhistimetowatchincessantlytheloadingoftheshipbyarascallyChinesestevedore。InthisMr。Burnsgavemethefirstglimpseoftherealchiefmate’ssoulwhichdweltuneasilyinhisbody。

Hemused,thenhastenedonwithgloomyforce。

"Yes!Thecaptaindiedasnearnoonaspos-

sible。Ilookedthroughhispapersintheafternoon。

IreadtheserviceoverhimatsunsetandthenI

stucktheship’sheadnorthandbroughtherinhere。I——brought——her——in。"

Hestruckthetablewithhisfist。

"Shewouldhardlyhavecomeinbyherself,"I

observed。"Butwhydidn’tyoumakeforSinga-

poreinstead?"

Hiseyeswavered。"Thenearestport,"hemutteredsullenly。

Ihadframedthequestioninperfectinnocence,buthisanswer(thedifferenceindistancewasin-

significant)andhismannerofferedmeacluetothesimpletruth。Hetooktheshiptoaportwhereheexpectedtobeconfirmedinhistemporarycom-

mandfromlackofaqualifiedmastertoputoverhishead。WhereasSingapore,hesurmisedjustly,wouldbefullofqualifiedmen。ButhisnaivereasoningforgottotakeintoaccountthetelegraphcablereposingonthebottomoftheveryGulfupwhichhehadturnedthatshipwhichheimaginedhimselftohavesavedfromdestruction。Hencethebitterflavourofourinterview。Itasteditmoreandmoredistinctly——anditwaslessandlesstomytaste。

"Lookhere,Mr。Burns,"Ibeganveryfirmly。

"YoumayaswellunderstandthatIdidnotrunafterthiscommand。Itwaspushedinmyway。

I’veacceptedit。Iamheretotaketheshiphomefirstofall,andyoumaybesurethatIshallseetoitthateveryoneofyouonboardheredoeshisdutytothatend。ThisisallIhavetosay——forthepresent。"

Hewasonhisfeetbythistime,butinsteadoftakinghisdismissalheremainedwithtrembling,indignantlips,andlookingatmehardasthough,really,afterthis,therewasnothingformetodoincommondecencybuttovanishfromhisoutragedsight。Likeallverysimpleemotionalstatesthiswasmoving。Ifeltsorryforhim——almostsympa-

thetic,till(seeingthatIdidnotvanish)hespokeinatoneofforcedrestraint。

"IfIhadn’tawifeandachildathomeyoumaybesure,sir,Iwouldhaveaskedyoutoletmegotheveryminuteyoucameonboard。"

Iansweredhimwithamatter-of-coursecalmnessasthoughsomeremotethirdpersonwereinquestion。

"AndI,Mr。Burns,wouldnothaveletyougo。

Youhavesignedtheship’sarticlesaschiefofficer,andtilltheyareterminatedatthefinalportofdischargeIshallexpectyoutoattendtoyourdutyandgivemethebenefitofyourexperiencetothebestofyourability。"

Stonyincredulitylingeredinhiseyes:butitbrokedownbeforemyfriendlyattitude。Withaslightupwardtossofhisarms(Igottoknowthatgesturewellafterward)heboltedoutofthecabin。

Wemighthavesavedourselvesthatlittlepas-

sageofharmlesssparring。BeforemanydayshadelapseditwasMr。Burnswhowaspleadingwithmeanxiouslynottoleavehimbehind;whileIcouldonlyreturnhimbutdoubtfulanswers。Thewholethingtookonasomewhattragiccomplexion。

Andthishorribleproblemwasonlyanextrane-

ousepisode,amerecomplicationinthegeneralproblemofhowtogetthatship——whichwasminewithherappurtenancesandhermen,withherbodyandherspiritnowslumberinginthatpestilentialriver——howtogetherouttosea。

Mr。Burns,whilestillactingcaptain,hadhastenedtosignacharter-partywhichinanidealworldwithoutguilewouldhavebeenanexcellentdocument。DirectlyIranmyeyeoveritIfore-

sawtroubleaheadunlessthepeopleoftheotherpartwerequiteexceptionallyfair-mindedandopentoargument。

Mr。Burns,towhomIimpartedmyfears,chosetotakegreatumbrageatthem。Helookedatmewiththatusualincredulousstare,andsaidbitterly:

"Isuppose,sir,youwanttomakeoutI’veactedlikeafool?"

Itoldhim,withmysystematickindlinesswhichalwaysseemedtoaugmenthissurprise,thatIdidnotwanttomakeoutanything。Iwouldleavethattothefuture。

And,sureenough,thefuturebroughtinalotoftrouble。ThereweredayswhenIusedtoremem-

berCaptainGileswithnothingshortofabhor-

rence。Hisconfoundedacutenesshadletmeinforthisjob;whilehisprophecythatI"wouldhavemyhandsfull"comingtrue,madeitappearasifdoneonpurposetoplayaneviljokeonmyyounginnocence。

Yes。Ihadmyhandsfullofcomplicationswhichweremostvaluableas"experience。"Peoplehaveagreatopinionoftheadvantagesofexperience。

Butinthisconnectionexperiencemeansalwayssomethingdisagreeableasopposedtothecharmandinnocenceofillusions。

ImustsayIwaslosingminerapidly。ButontheseinstructivecomplicationsImustnotenlargemorethantosaythattheycouldallberesumedintheoneword:Delay。

Amankindwhichhasinventedtheproverb,"Timeismoney,"willunderstandmyvexation。

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