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Coulditbesomethingofthatnature?Apart,however,fromtheutterimprobabilitythathewouldoffertotalkofiteventohisfutureuncle—

in—law,IhadastrangefeelingthatFalk’sphysiqueunfittedhimforthatsortofdelinquency。AsthepersonofHermann’snieceexhaledtheprofoundphysicalcharmoffeminineform,soherador—

er’sbigframeembodiedtomysensesthehard,straightmasculinitythatwouldconceivablykillbutwouldnotcondescendtocheat。Thethingwasobvious。Imightjustaswellhavesuspectedthegirlofacurvatureofthespine。AndIper—

ceivedthatthesunwasabouttoset。

ThesmokeofFalk’stughoveinsight,farawayatthemouthoftheriver。Itwastimeformetoassumethecharacterofanambassador,andthenegotiationwouldnotbedifficultexceptinthematterofkeepingmycountenance。Itwasalltooextravagantlynonsensical,andIconceivedthatitwouldbebesttocomposeformyselfagravede—

meanour。IpractisedthisinmyboatasIwentalong,butthebashfulnessthatcamesecretlyuponmethemomentIsteppedonthedeckoftheDianaisinexplicable。AssoonaswehadexchangedgreetingsHermannaskedmeeagerlyifIknewwhetherFalkhadfoundhiswhiteparasol。

"He’sgoingtobringittoyouhimselfdirectly,"

Isaidwithgreatsolemnity。"MeantimeIamchargedwithanimportantmessageforwhichhebegsyourfavourableconsideration。Heisinlovewithyourniece……"

"AchSo!"hehissedwithananimositythatmademyassumedgravitychangeintothemostgenuineconcern。Whatmeantthistone?AndI

hurriedon。

"Hewishes,withyourconsentofcourse,toaskhertomarryhimatonce——beforeyouleavehere,thatis。HewouldspeaktotheConsul。"

Hermannsatdownandsmokedviolently。Fiveminutespassedinthatfuriousmeditation,andthen,takingthelongpipeoutofhismouth,heburstintoahotdiatribeagainstFalk——againsthiscupidity,hisstupidity(afellowthatcanhardlybegottosay"yes"or"no"tothesimplestques—

tion)——againsthisoutrageoustreatmentoftheshippinginport(becausehesawtheywereathismercy)——andagainsthismannerofwalking,whichtohis(Hermann’s)mindshowedaconceitpositivelyunbearable。ThedamagetotheoldDianawasnotforgotten,ofcourse,andtherewasnothingofanynaturesaidordonebyFalk(eventothelastofferofrefreshmentinthehotel)thatdidnotseemtohavebeenacauseofoffence。

"Hadthecheek"todraghim(Hermann)intothatcoffee—room;asthoughadrinkfromhimcouldmakeupforforty—sevendollarsandfiftycentsofdamageinthecostofwoodalone——notcountingtwodays’workforthecarpenter。Ofcoursehewouldnotstandinthegirl’sway。HewasgoinghometoGermany。TherewereplentyofpoorgirlswalkingaboutinGermany。

"He’sverymuchinlove,"wasallIfoundtosay。

"Yes,"hecried。"Anditistimetooaftermak—

inghimselfandmetalkedaboutashorethelastvoyageIwashere,andthennowagain;comingonboardeveryeveningunsettlingthegirl’smind,andsayingnothing。Whatsortofconductisthat?"

Theseventhousanddollarsthefellowwasalwaystalkingaboutdidnot,inhisopinion,justifysuchbehaviour。Moreover,nobodyhadseenthem。He(Hermann)seriouslydoubtediftherewereseventhousandcents,andthetug,nodoubt,wasmort—

gageduptothetopofthefunneltothefirmofSiegers。Butletthatpass。Hewouldn’tstandinthegirl’sway。Herheadwassoturnedthatshehadbecomenogoodtothemoflate。Quiteunableeventoputthechildrentobedwithoutheraunt。

Itwasbadforthechildren;theygotunruly;andyesterdayheactuallyhadtogiveGustavathrash—

ing。

Forthat,too,Falkwasmaderesponsibleap—

parently。AndlookingatmyHermann’sheavy,puffy,good—naturedface,Iknewhewouldnotex—

erthimselftillgreatlyexasperated,and,therefore,wouldthrashveryhard,andbeingfatwouldresentthenecessity。HowFalkhadmanagedtoturnthegirl’sheadwasmoredifficulttounderstand。Isup—

posedHermannwouldknow。Andthenhadn’ttherebeenMissVanlo?Itcouldnotbehissilverytongue,orthesubtleseductionofhismanner;hehadnomoreofwhatiscalled"manner"thanananimal——which,however,ontheotherhand,isnever,andcanneverbecalledvulgar。Thereforeitmusthavebeenhisbodilyappearance,exhibitingavirilityofnatureasexaggeratedashisbeard,andresemblingasortofconstantruthlessness。Itwasseenintheverymannerhelolledinthechair。Hemeantnooffence,buthisintercoursewascharac—

terisedbythatsortoffrankdisregardofsuscepti—

bilitiesamanofsevenfootsix,livinginaworldofdwarfs,wouldnaturallyassume,withoutintheleastwishingtobeunkind。Butamongstmenofhisownstature,ornearly,thisfrankuseofhisad—

vantages,insuchmattersastheawfultowagebillsforinstance,causedmuchimpotentgnashingofteeth。Whenattentivelyconsidereditseemedap—

pallingattimes。Hewasastrangebeast。Butmaybewomenlikedit。Seeninthatlighthewaswellworthtaming,andIsupposeeverywomanatthebottomofherheartconsidersherselfasatamerofstrangebeasts。ButHermannarosewithpre—

cipitationtocarrythenewstohiswife。Ihadbarelythetime,ashemadeforthecabindoor,tograbhimbytheseatofhisinexpressibles。I

beggedhimtowaittillFalkinpersonhadspokenwithhim。Thereremainedsomesmallmattertotalkover,asIunderstood。

Hesatdownagainatonce,fullofsuspicion。

"Whatmatter?"hesaidsurlily。"Ihavehadenoughofhisnonsense。There’snomatteratall,asheknowsverywell;thegirlhasnothingintheworld。Shecametousinonethindresswhenmybrotherdied,andIhaveagrowingfamily。"

"Itcan’tbeanythingofthatkind,"Iopined。

"He’sdesperatelyenamouredofyourniece。I

don’tknowwhyhedidnotsaysobefore。Uponmyword,Ibelieveitisbecausehewasafraidtolose,perhaps,thefelicityofsittingnearheronyourquarterdeck。"

Iintimatedmyconvictionthathislovewassogreatastobeinasensecowardly。Theeffectsofagreatpassionareunaccountable。Ithasbeenknowntomakeamantimid。ButHermannlookedatmeasifIhadfoolishlyraved;andthetwilightwasdyingoutrapidly。

"Youdon’tbelieveinpassion,doyou,Her—

mann?"Isaidcheerily。"Thepassionoffearwillmakeacorneredratcourageous。Falk’sinacor—

ner。Hewilltakeheroffyourhandsinonethinfrockjustasshecametoyou。Andaftertenyears’

serviceitisn’tabadbargain,"Iadded。

Farfromtakingoffence,heresumedhisairofcivicvirtue。Thesuddennightcameuponhimwhilehestaredplacidlyalongthedeck,bringingincontactwithhisthicklips,andtakingawayagainafterajetofsmoke,thecurvedmouthpiecefittedtothestemofhispipe。Thenightcameuponhimandburiedinhastehiswhiskers,hisglob—

ulareyes,hispuffypaleface,hisfatkneesandthevastflatslippersonhisfatherlyfeet。Onlyhisshortarmsinrespectablewhiteshirt—sleevesre—

mainedveryvisible,proppedupliketheflippersofasealreposingonthestrand。

"Falkwouldn’tsettleanythingaboutrepairs。

ToldmetofindoutfirsthowmuchwoodIshouldrequireandhewouldsee,"heremarked;andafterhehadspatpeacefullyintheduskweheardoverthewaterthebeatofthetug’sfloats。Thereis,onacalmnight,nothingmoresuggestiveoffierceandheadlonghastethantherapidsoundmadebythepaddle—wheelsofaboatthreshingherwaythroughaquietsea;andtheapproachofFalktowardshisfateseemedtobeurgedbyanimpatientandpas—

sionatedesire。Theenginesmusthavebeendriventotheveryutmostoftheirrevolutions。Weheardthemslowdownatlast,and,vaguely,thewhitehullofthetugappearedmovingagainsttheblackislets,whilstaslowandrhythmicalclappingasofthousandsofhandsroseonallsides。Itceasedallatonce,justbeforeFalkbroughtherup。Asin—

glebrusquesplashwasfollowedbythelongdrawnrumblingofironlinksrunningthroughthehawsepipe。ThenasolemnsilencefellupontheRoad—

stead。

"Hewillsoonbehere,"Imurmured,andafterthatwewaitedforhimwithoutaword。Meantime,raisingmyeyes,IbeheldtheglitterofaloftyskyabovetheDiana’smastheads。Themultitudeofstarsgatheredintoclusters,inrows,inlines,inmasses,ingroups,shonealltogether,unanimously——andthefewisolatedones,blazingbythemselvesinthemidstofdarkpatches,seemedtobeofasu—

periorkindandofaninextinguishablenature。Butlongstridingfootstepswereheardhasteningalongthedeck;thehighbulwarksoftheDianamadeadeeperdarkness。Werosefromourchairsquickly,andFalk,appearingbeforeus,allinwhite,stoodstill。

Nobodyspokeatfirst,asthoughwehadbeencoveredwithconfusion。Hisarrivalwasfiery,buthiswhitebulk,ofindefiniteshapeandwithoutfea—

tures,madehimloomuplikeamanofsnow。

"Thecaptainherehasbeentellingme……"

Hermannbeganinahomelyandamicablevoice;

andFalkhadalow,nervouslaugh。Hiscool,neg—

ligentundertonehadnoinflexions,butthestrengthofapowerfulemotionmadehimrambleinhisspeech。Hehadalwaysdesiredahome。Itwasdifficulttolivealone,thoughhewasnotanswera—

ble。Hewasdomestic;therehadbeendifficulties;

butsincehehadseenHermann’sniecehefoundthatithadbecomeatlastimpossibletolivebyhim—

self。"Imean——impossible,"herepeatedwithnosortofemphasisandonlywiththeslightestofpauses,butthewordfellintomymindwiththeforceofanewidea。

"Ihavenotsaidanythingtoheryet,"Hermannobservedquietly。AndFalkdismissedthisbya"That’sallright。Certainly。Veryproper。"

Therewasanecessityforperfectfrankness——inmarrying,especially。Hermannseemedattentive,butheseizedthefirstopportunitytoaskusintothecabin。"Andby—the—by,Falk,"hesaidinnocent—

ly,aswepassedin,"thetimbercametonolessthanforty—sevendollarsandfiftycents。"

Falk,uncoveringhishead,lingeredinthepas—

sage。"Someothertime,"hesaid;andHermannnudgedmeangrily——Idon’tknowwhy。Thegirlaloneinthecabinsatsewingatsomedistancefromthetable。Falkstoppedshortinthedoorway。

Withoutaword,withoutasign,withouttheslight—

estinclinationofhisbonyhead,bythesilentin—

tensityofhislookalone,heseemedtolayhisher—

culeanframeatherfeet。Herhandssankslowlyonherlap,andraisinghercleareyes,shelethersoft,beamingglanceenfoldhimfromheadtofootlikeaslowandpalecaress。Hewasveryhotwhenhesatdown;she,withbowedhead,wentonwithhersewing;herneckwasverywhiteunderthelightofthelamp;butFalk,hidinghisfaceinthepalmsofhishands,shudderedfaintly。Hedrewthemdown,eventohisbeard,andhisuncoveredeyesas—

tonishedmebytheirtenseandirrationalexpres—

sion——asthoughhehadjustswallowedaheavygulpofalcohol。Itpassedawaywhilehewasbindingustosecrecy。Notthathecared,buthedidnotliketobespokenabout;andIlookedatthegirl’smarvellous,atherwonderful,atherregalhair,plaitedtightintothatoneastonishingandmaidenlytress。Whenevershemovedherwell—

shapedheaditwouldstirstifflytoandfroonherback。Thethincottonsleevefittedtheirreproach—

ableroundnessofherarmlikeaskin;andherverydress,stretchedonherbust,seemedtopalpitatelikealivingtissuewiththestrengthofvitalityani—

matingherbody。Howgoodhercomplexionwas,theoutlineofhersoftcheekandthesmallconvo—

lutedconchofherrosyear!Topullherneedleshekeptthelittlefingerapartfromtheothers;itseemedawasteofpowertoseehersewing——eter—

nallysewing——withthatindustriousandprecisemovementofherarm,goingoneternallyuponalltheoceans,underalltheskies,ininnumerablehar—

bours。AndsuddenlyIheardFalk’svoicedeclarethathecouldnotmarryawomanunlesssheknewofsomethinginhislifethathadhappenedtenyearsago。Itwasanaccident。Anunfortunateac—

cident。Itwouldaffectthedomesticarrangementsoftheirhome,but,oncetold,itneednotbealludedtoagainfortherestoftheirlives。"Ishouldwantmywifetofeelforme,"hesaid。"Ithasmademeunhappy。"Andhowcouldhekeeptheknowledgeofittohimself——heaskedus——perhapsthroughyearsandyearsofcompanionship?Whatsortofcompanionshipwouldthatbe?Hehadthoughtitover。Awifemustknow。Thenwhynotatonce?

HecountedonHermann’skindnessforpresentingtheaffairinthebestpossiblelight。AndHer—

mann’scountenance,mystifiedbefore,becameverysour。Hestoleaninquisitiveglanceatme。I

shookmyheadblankly。Somepeoplethought,Falkwenton,thatsuchanexperiencechangedamanfortherestofhislife。Hecouldn’tsay。Itwashard,awful,andnottobeforgotten,buthedidnotthinkhimselfaworsemanthanbefore。

Onlyhetalkedinhissleepnow,hebelieved……

AtlastIbegantothinkhehadaccidentallykilledsomeone;perhapsafriend——hisownfathermay—

be;whenhewentontosaythatprobablywewereawarehenevertouchedmeat。ThroughouthespokeEnglish,ofcourseofmyaccount。

Heswayedforwardheavily。

Thegirl,withherhandsraisedbeforeherpaleeyes,wasthreadingherneedle。Heglancedather,andhismightytrunkovershadowedthetable,bringingnearertousthebreadthofhisshoulders,thethicknessofhisneck,andthatincongruous,an—

choritehead,burntinthedesert,hollowedandleanasifbyexcessesofvigilsandfasting。Hisbeardflowedimposinglydownwards,outofsight,be—

tweenthetwobrownhandsgrippingtheedgeofthetable,andhispersistentglancemadesombrebythewidedilationsofthepupils,fascinated。

"Imaginetoyourselves,"hesaidinhisordinaryvoice,"thatIhaveeatenman。"

Icouldonlyejaculateafaint"Ah!"ofcom—

pleteenlightenment。ButHermann,dazedbytheexcessiveshock,actuallymurmured,"Himmel!

Whatfor?"

"Itwasmyterriblemisfortunetodoso,"saidFalkinameasuredundertone。Thegirl,uncon—

scious,sewedon。Mrs。Hermannwasabsentinoneofthestate—rooms,sittingupwithLena,whowasfeverish;butHermannsuddenlyputbothhishandsupwithajerk。Theembroideredcalottefell,and,inthetwinklingofaneye,hehadrum—

pledhishairallendsupinamostextravagantmanner。Inthisstatehestrovetospeak;witheveryefforthiseyesseemedtostartfurtheroutoftheirsockets;hisheadlookedlikeamop。Hechoked,gasped,swallowed,andmanagedtoshriekouttheoneword,"Beast!"

FromthatmomenttillFalkwentoutofthecab—

inthegirl,withherhandsfoldedontheworklyinginherlap,nevertookhereyesoffhim。Hisown,intheblindnessofhisheart,dartedalloverthecabin,onlyseekingtoavoidthesightofHermann’sraving。Itwasridiculous,andwasmadealmostterriblebythestillnessofeveryotherpersonpres—

ent。Itwascontemptible,andwasmadeappallingbytheman’sovermasteringhorrorofthisawfulsincerity,comingtohimsuddenly,withtheconfes—

sionofsuchafact。Hewalkedwithgreatstrides;

hegasped。HewantedtoknowfromFalkhowdaredhetocomeandtellhimthis?Didhethinkhimselfaproperpersontobesittinginthiscabinwherehiswifeandchildrenlived?Tellhisniece!

Expectedhimtotellhisniece!Hisownbrother’sdaughter!Shameless!DidIeverheartellofsuchimpudence?——heappealedtome。"Thismanhereoughttohavegoneandhiddenhimselfoutofsightinsteadof……"

"Butit’sagreatmisfortuneforme。Butit’sagreatmisfortuneforme,"Falkwouldejaculatefromtimetotime。

However,Hermannkeptonrunningfrequentlyagainstthecornersofthetable。Atlasthelostaslipper,andcrossinghisarmsonhisbreast,walkedupwithonestockingfootveryclosetoFalk,inor—

dertoaskhimwhetherhedidthinktherewasany—

whereonearthawomanabandonedenoughtomatewithsuchamonster。"Didhe?Didhe?Didhe?"Itriedtorestrainhim。Hetorehimselfoutofmyhands;hefoundhisslipper,and,endeavour—

ingtoputiton,stormedstandingononeleg——

andFalk,withafaceunmovedandavertedeyes,graspedallhismightybeardinonevastpalm。

"Wasitrightthenformetodiemyself?"heaskedthoughtfully。Ilaidmyhandonhisshoul—

der。

"Goaway,"Iwhisperedimperiously,withoutanyclearreasonforthisadvice,exceptthatI

wishedtoputanendtoHermann’sodiousnoise。

"Goaway。"

HelookedsearchinglyforamomentatHermannbeforehemadeamove。Ileftthecabintootoseehimoutoftheship。Buthehungaboutthequar—

ter—deck。

"Itismymisfortune,"hesaidinasteadyvoice。

"Youwerestupidtoblurtitoutinsuchaman—

ner。Afterall,wedon’thearsuchconfidenceseveryday。"

"Whatdoesthemanmean?"hemusedindeepundertones。"Somebodyhadtodie——butwhyme?"

Heremainedstillforatimeinthedark——silent;

almostinvisible。Allatoncehepinnedmyelbowstomysides。Ifeltutterlypowerlessinhisgrip,andhisvoice,whisperinginmyear,vibrated。

"It’sworsethanhunger。Captain,doyouknowwhatthatmeans?AndIcouldkillthen——orbekilled。Iwishthecrowbarhadsmashedmyskulltenyearsago。AndI’vegottolivenow。Withouther。Doyouunderstand?Perhapsmanyyears。

Buthow?Whatcanbedone?IfIhadallowedmyselftolookatheronceIwouldhavecarriedheroffbeforethatmaninmyhands——likethis。"

Ifeltmyselfsnatchedoffthedeck,thensuddenlydropped——andIstaggeredbackwards,feelingbewilderedandbruised。Whataman!Allwasstill;hewasgone。IheardHermann’svoicede—

claiminginthecabin,andIwentin。

Icouldnotatfirstmakeoutasingleword,butMrs。Hermann,who,attractedbythenoise,hadcomeinsometimebefore,withanexpressionofsurpriseandmilddisapproval,depictedbroadlyonherface,wasgivingnowallthesignsofprofound,helplessagitation。Herhusbandshotastringofgutturalwordsather,andinstantlyputtingoutonehandtothebulkheadasiftosaveherselffromfalling,sheclutchedtheloosebosomofherdresswiththeother。Heharanguedthetwowomenex—

traordinarily,withmuchofhisshirthangingoutofhiswaistbelt,stampinghisfoot,turningfromonetotheother,sometimesthrowingbothhisarmsto—

gether,straightupabovehisrumpledhair,andkeepingtheminthatpositionwhileheutteredapassageoflouddenunciation;atothersfoldingthemtightacrosshisbreast——andthenhehissedwithindignation,elevatinghisshouldersandpro—

trudinghishead。Thegirlwascrying。

Shehadnotchangedherattitude。Fromhersteadyeyesthat,followingFalkinhisretreat,hadremainedfixedwistfullyonthecabindoor,thetearsfellrapid,thick,onherhands,ontheworkinherlap,warmandgentlelikeashowerinspring。

Sheweptwithoutgrimacing,withoutnoise——verytouching,veryquiet,withsomethingmoreofpitythanofpaininherface,asoneweepsincompassionratherthaningrief——andHermann,beforeher,declaimed。Icaughtseveraltimestheword"Mensch,"man;andalso"Fressen,"whichlastI

lookedupafterwardsinmydictionary。Itmeans"Devour。"Hermannseemedtoberequestingananswerofsomesortfromher;hiswholebodyswayed。Sheremainedmuteandperfectlystill;

atlasthisagitationgainedher;sheputthepalmsofherhandstogether,herfulllipsparted,nosoundcame。Hisvoicescoldedshrilly,hisarmswentlikeawindmill——suddenlyheshookathickfistather。Sheburstoutintoloudsobs。Heseemedstupefied。

Mrs。Hermannrushedforwardbabblingrap—

dly。Thetwowomenfelloneachother’snecks,and,withanarmroundherniece’swaist,sheledheraway。Herowneyesweresimplystreaming,herfacewasflooded。Sheshookherheadbackatmenegatively,Iwonderwhytothisday。Thegirl’sheaddroppedheavilyonhershoulder。Theydis—

appeared。

ThenHermannsatdownandstaredatthecabinfloor。

"Wedon’tknowallthecircumstances,"Iven—

turedtobreakthesilence。Heretortedtartlythathedidn’twanttoknowofany。Accordingtohisideasnocircumstancescouldexcuseacrime——andcertainlynotsuchacrime。Thiswastheopiniongenerallyreceived。Thedutyofahumanbeingwastostarve。Falkthereforewasabeast,anani—

mal;base,low,vile,despicable,shameless,andde—

ceitful。Hehadbeendeceivinghimsincelastyear。

Hewas,however,inclinedtothinkthatFalkmusthavegonemadquiterecently;fornosaneperson,withoutnecessity,uselessly,fornoearthlyreason,andregardlessofanother’sself—respectandpeaceofmind,wouldowntohavingdevouredhumanflesh。"Whytell?"hecried。"Whowasaskinghim?"ItshowedFalk’sbrutalitybecauseafterallhehadselfishlycausedhim(Hermann)muchpain。Hewouldhavepreferrednottoknowthatsuchanuncleancreaturehadbeeninthehabitofcaressinghischildren。HehopedIwouldsaynoth—

ingofallthisashore,though。Hewouldn’tlikeittogetaboutthathehadbeenintimatewithaneaterofmen——acommoncannibal。Astothescenehehadmade(whichIjudgedquiteunnecessary)

hewasnotgoingtoinconvenienceandrestrainhimselfforafellowthatwentaboutcourtingandupsettinggirls’heads,whileheknewallthetimethatnodecenthousewifelygirlcouldthinkofmar—

ryinghim。Atleasthe(Hermann)couldnotcon—

ceivehowanygirlcould。FancyLena!……No,itwasimpossible。Thethoughtsthatwouldcomeintotheirheadseverytimetheysatdowntoameal。

Horrible!Horrible!

"Youaretoosqueamish,Hermann,"Isaid。

HeseemedtothinkitwaseminentlypropertobesqueamishifthewordmeantdisgustatFalk’scon—

duct;andturninguphiseyessentimentallyhedrewmyattentiontothehorriblefateofthevictims——thevictimsofthatFalk。IsaidthatIknewnothingaboutthem。Heseemedsurprised。Couldnotanybodyimaginewithoutknowing?He——forinstance——felthewouldliketoavengethem。Butwhatif——saidI——therehadnotbeenany?Theymighthavediedasitwere,naturally——ofstarva—

tion。Heshuddered。Buttobeeaten——afterdeath!Tobedevoured!Hegaveanotherdeepshudder,andaskedsuddenly,"Doyouthinkitistrue?"

Hisindignationandhispersonalitytogetherwouldhavebeenenoughtospoiltherealityofthemostauthenticthing。WhenIlookedathimI

doubtedthestory——buttheremembranceofFalk’swords,looks,gestures,investeditnotonlywithanairofrealitybutwiththeabsolutetruthofprimitivepassion。

"Itistruejustasmuchasyouareabletomakeit;andexactlyinthewayyouliketomakeit。Formypart,whenIhearyouclamouringaboutit,I

don’tbelieveitistrueatall。"

AndIlefthimpondering。ThemeninmyboatlyingatthefootofDiana’ssideladdertoldmethatthecaptainofthetughadgoneawayinhisgigsometimeago。

Iletmyfellowspullaneasystroke;becauseoftheheavydewtheclearsparkleofthestarsseemedtofallonmecoldandwetting。Therewasasenseoflurkinggruesomehorrorsomewhereinmymind,anditwasmingledwithclearandgrotesqueimages。Schomberg’sgastronomictittle—tattlewasresponsibleforthese;andIhalfhopedI

shouldneverseeFalkagain。Butthefirstthingmyanchor—watchmantoldmewasthatthecaptainofthetugwasonboard。Hehadsenthisboatawayandwasnowwaitingformeinthecuddy。

Hewaslyingfulllengthonthesternsettee,hisfaceburiedinthecushions。Ihadexpectedtoseeitdiscomposed,contorted,despairing。Itwasnothingofthekind;itwasjustasIhadseenittwentytimes,steadyandglaringfromthebridgeofthetug。Itwasimmovablysetandhungry,dominatedlikethewholemanbythesinglenessofoneinstinct。

Hewantedtolive。Hehadalwayswantedtolive。Sowealldo——butinustheinstinctservesacomplexconception,andinhimthisinstinctexistedalone。Thereisinsuchsimpledevelopmentagi—

ganticforce,andlikethepathosofachild’snaivenduncontrolleddesire。Hewantedthatgirl,andtheutmostthatcanbesaidforhimwasthathewantedthatparticulargirlalone。IthinkIsawthentheobscurebeginning,theseedgerminatinginthesoilofanunconsciousneed,thefirstshootofthattreebearingnowforamaturemankindtheflowerandthefruit,theinfinitegradationinshadesandinflavourofourdiscriminatinglove。

Hewasachild。Hewasasfrankasachildtoo。

Hewashungryforthegirl,terriblyhungry,ashehadbeenterriblyhungryforfood。

Don’tbeshockedifIdeclarethatinmybeliefitwasthesameneed,thesamepain,thesametor—

ture。Weareinhiscaseallowedtocontemplatethefoundationofalltheemotions——thatonejoywhichistolive,andtheonesadnessattherootoftheinnumerabletorments。Itwasmadeplainbythewayhetalked。Hehadneversufferedso。Itwasgnawing,itwasfire;itwasthere,likethis!

Andafterpointingbelowhisbreastbone,hemadeahardwringingmotionwithhishands。AndIas—

sureyouthat,seenasIsawitwithmybodilyeyes,itwasanythingbutlaughable。Andagain,ashewaspresentlytotellme(alludingtoanearlyinci—

dentofthedisastrousvoyagewhensomedamagedmeathadbeenflungoverboard),hesaidthatatimesooncamewhenhisheartached(thatwastheexpressionheused),andhewasreadytotearhishairoutatthethoughtofallthatrottenbeefthrownaway。

Ihadheardallthis;Iwitnessedhisphysicalstruggles,seeingtheworkingoftherackandhear—

ingthetruevoiceofpain。Iwitnesseditallpa—

tiently,becausethemomentIcameintothecuddyhehadcalleduponmetostandbyhim——andthis,itseems,Ihaddiplomaticallypromised。

Hisagitationwasimpressiveandalarminginthelittlecabin,liketheflounderingofagreatwhaledrivenintoashallowcoveinacoast。Hestoodup;heflunghimselfdownheadlong;hetriedtotearthecushionwithhisteeth;andagainhug—

gingitfiercelytohisfacehelethimselffallonthecouch。Thewholeshipseemedtofeeltheshockofhisdespair;andIcontemplatedwithwondertheloftyforehead,thenobletouchoftimeontheun—

coveredtemples,theunchangedhungrycharacteroftheface——sostrangelyasceticandsoincapableofportrayingemotion。

Whatshouldhedo?Hehadlivedbybeingnearher。Hehadsat——intheevening——Iknew?——

allhislife!Shesewed。Herheadwasbent——so。

Herhead——likethis——andherarms。Ah!HadI

seen?Likethis。

Hedroppedonastool,bowedhispowerfulneckwhosenapewasred,andwithhishandsstitchedtheair,ludicrous,sublimelyimbecileandcompre—

hensible。

Andnowhecouldn’thaveher?No!Thatwastoomuch。Afterthinkingtoothat……Whathadhedone?Whatwasmyadvice?Takeherbyforce?No?Mustn’the?Whowastherethentokillhim?ForthefirsttimeIsawoneofhisfea—

turesmove;afightingteeth—baringcurlofthelip……"NotHermann,perhaps。"Helosthimselfinthoughtasthoughhehadfallenoutoftheworld。

Imaynotethattheideaofsuicideapparentlydidnotenterhisheadforasinglemoment。Itoc—

curredtometoask:

"Wherewasitthatthisshipwreckofyourstookplace?"

"Downsouth,"hesaidvaguelywithastart。

"Youarenotdownsouthnow,"Isaid。"Vio—

lencewon’tdo。Theywouldtakeherawayfromyouinnotime。Andwhatwasthenameoftheship?"

"BorgmesterDahl,"hesaid。"Itwasnoship—

wreck。"

Heseemedtobewakingupbydegreesfromthattrance,andwakingupcalmed。

"Notashipwreck?Whatwasit?"

"Breakdown,"heanswered,lookingmorelikehimselfeverymoment。BythisonlyIlearnedthatitwasasteamer。Ihadtillthensupposedtheyhadbeenstarvinginboatsoronaraft——orper—

hapsonabarrenrock。

"Shedidnotsinkthen?"Iaskedinsurprise。

Henodded。"Wesightedthesouthernice,"hepronounceddreamily。

"Andyoualonesurvived?"

Hesatdown。"Yes。Itwasaterriblemisfor—

tuneforme。Everythingwentwrong。Allthemenwentwrong。Isurvived。"

Rememberingthethingsonereadsofitwasdiffi—

culttorealisethetruemeaningofhisanswers。I

oughttohaveseenatonce——butIdidnot;sodiffi—

cultisitforourminds,rememberingsomuch,in—

structedsomuch,informedofsomuch,togetintouchwiththerealactualityatourelbow。Andwithmyheadfullofpreconceivednotionsastohowacaseof"cannibalismandsufferingatsea"

shouldbemanagedIsaid——"Youwerethensoluckyinthedrawingoflots?"

"Drawingoflots?"hesaid。"Whatlots?DoyouthinkIwouldhaveallowedmylifetogoforthedrawingoflots?"

Notifhecouldhelpif,Iperceived,nomatterwhatotherlifewent。

"Itwasagreatmisfortune。Terrible。Awful,"

hesaid。"Manyheadswentwrong,butthebestmenwouldlive。"

"Thetoughest,youmean,"Isaid。Heconsid—

eredtheword。Perhapsitwasstrangetohim,thoughhisEnglishwassogood。

"Yes,"heassertedatlast。"Thebest。Itwaseverybodyforhimselfatlastandtheshipopentoall。"

ThusfromquestiontoquestionIgotthewholestory。IfancyitwastheonlywayIcouldthatnighthavestoodbyhim。Outwardlyatleasthewashimselfagain;thefirstsignofitwasthere—

turnofthatincongruoustrickhehadofdrawingbothhishandsdownhisface——andithaditsmean—

ingnow,withthatslightshudderoftheframeandthepassionateanguishofthesehandsuncoveringahungryimmovableface,thewidepupilsoftheintent,silent,fascinatingeyes。

Itwasanironsteamerofamostrespectableori—

gin。TheburgomasterofFalk’snativetownhadbuilther。Shewasthefirststeamereverlaunchedthere。Theburgomaster’sdaughterhadchristenedher。Countrypeopledroveincartsfrommilesaroundtoseeher。Hetoldmeallthis。Hegottheberthaswhatweshouldcallachiefmate。Heseemedtothinkithadbeenafeatherinhiscap;

and,inhisowncorneroftheworld,thisloveroflifewasofgoodparentage。

Theburgomasterhadadvancedideasintheship—owningline。AtthattimenoteveryonewouldhaveknownenoughtothinkofdespatchingacargosteamertothePacific。Butheloadedherwithpitch—pinedealsandsentherofftohuntforherluck。Wellingtonwastobethefirstport,I

fancy。Itdoesn’tmatter,becauseinlatitude44dsouthandsomewherehalfwaybetweenGoodHopeandNewZealandthetailshaftbrokeandthepro—

pellerdroppedoff。

Theyweresteamingthenwithafreshgaleonthequarterandalltheircanvasset,tohelptheen—

gines。Butbyitselfthesailpowerwasnotenoughtokeepwayonher。Whenthepropellerwenttheshipbroached—toatonce,andthemastsgotwhippedoverboard。

Thedisadvantageofbeingdismastedconsistedinthis,thattheyhadnothingtohoistflagsontomakethemselvesvisibleatadistance。Inthecourseofthefirstfewdaysseveralshipsfailedtosightthem;andthegalewasdriftingthemoutoftheusualtrack。Thevoyagehadbeen,fromthefirst,neitherverysuccessfulnorveryharmonious。

Therehadbeenquarrelsonboard。Thecaptainwasaclever,melancholicman,whohadnounusualgriponhiscrew。Theshiphadbeenamplypro—

visionedforthepassage,but,somehoworother,severalbarrelsofmeatwerefoundspoiledonopen—

ing,andhadbeenthrownoverboardsoonafterleavinghome,asasanitarymeasure。AfterwardsthecrewoftheBorgmesterDahlthoughtofthatrottencarrionwithtearsofregret,covetousnessanddespair。

Shedrovesouth。Tobeginwith,therehadbeenanappearanceoforganisation,butsoonthebondsofdisciplinebecamerelaxed。Asombreidlenesssucceeded。Theylookedwithsulleneyesatthehori—

zon。Thegalesincreased:shelayinthetrough,theseasmadeacleanbreachoverher。Ononefrightfulnight,whentheyexpectedtheirhulktoturnoverwiththemeverymoment,aheavyseabrokeonboard,delugedthestore—roomsandspoiledthebestpartoftheremainingprovisions。Itseemsthehatchhadnotbeenproperlysecured。Thisin—

stanceofneglectischaracteristicofutterdiscour—

agement。Falktriedtoinspiresomeenergyintohiscaptain,butfailed。Fromthattimeheretiredmoreintohimself,alwaystryingtodohisutmostinthesituation。Itgrewworse。Galesucceededgale,withblackmountainsofwaterhurlingthem—

selvesontheBorgmesterDahl。Someofthemenneverlefttheirbunks;manybecamequarrelsome。

Thechiefengineer,anoldman,refusedtospeakatalltoanybody。Othersshutthemselvesupintheirberthstocry。Oncalmdaystheinertsteamerrolledonaleadenseaunderamurkysky,orshowed,insunshine,thesqualorofseawaifs,thedriedwhitesalt,therust,thejaggedbrokenplaces。Thenthegalescameagain。Theykeptbodyandsoultogetheronshortrations。Once,anEnglishship,scuddinginastorm,triedtostandbythem,heaving—topluckilyundertheirlee。Theseassweptherdecks;themeninoilskinsclingingtoherrigginglookedatthem,andtheymadedes—

peratesignsovertheirshatteredbulwarks。Sud—

denlyhermain—topsailwent,yardandall,inater—

rificsquall;shehadtobearupunderbarepoles,anddisappeared。

Othershipshadspokenthembefore,butatfirsttheyhadrefusedtobetakenoff,expectingtheas—

sistanceofsomesteamer。Therewereveryfewsteamersinthoselatitudesthen;andwhentheydesiredtoleavethisdeadanddriftingcarcase,noshipcameinsight。Theyhaddriftedsouthoutofmen’sknowledge。Theyfailedtoattracttheatten—

tionofalonelywhaler,andverysoontheedgeofthepolarice—caprosefromtheseaandclosedthesouthernhorizonlikeawall。Onemorningtheywerealarmedbyfindingthemselvesfloatingamongstdetachedpiecesofice。Butthefearofsinkingpassedawayliketheirvigour,liketheirhopes;theshocksofthefloesknockingagainsttheship’ssidecouldnotrousethemfromtheirapathy:

andtheBorgmesterDahldriftedoutagainun—

harmedintoopenwater。Theyhardlynoticedthechange。

Thefunnelhadgoneoverboardinoneoftheheavyrolls;twooftheirthreeboatshaddisap—

peared,washedawayinbadweather,andthedavitsswungtoandfro,unsecured,withchafedrope’sendswagglingtotheroll。Nothingwasdoneonboard,andFalktoldmehowhehadoftenlistenedtothewaterwashingaboutthedarkengine—roomwheretheengines,stilledforever,weredecayingslowlyintoamassofrust,asthestilledheartde—

cayswithinthelifelessbody。Atfirst,afterthelossofthemotivepower,thetillerhadbeenthor—

oughlysecuredbylashings。Butincourseoftimethesehadrotted,chafed,rusted,partingonebyone:andtherudder,freed,bangedheavilytoandfronightandday,sendingdullshocksthroughthewholeframeofthevessel。Thiswasdangerous。

Nobodycaredenoughtoliftalittlefinger。Hetoldmethatevennowsometimeswakingupatnight,hefanciedhecouldhearthedullvibratingthuds。Thepintlescarriedaway,anditdroppedoffatlast。

Thefinalcatastrophecamewiththesendingoffoftheironeremainingboat。ItwasFalkwhohadmanagedtopreserveherintact,andnowitwasagreedthatsomeofthehandsshouldsailawayintothetrackoftheshippingtoprocureassistance。

Shewasprovisionedwithallthefoodtheycouldspareforthesixwhoweretogo。Theywaitedforafineday。Itwaslongincoming。Atlastonemorningtheyloweredherintothewater。

Directly,inthatdemoralisedcrowd,troublebrokeout。Twomenwhohadnobusinesstherehadjumpedintotheboatunderthepretenceofunhookingthetackles,whilesomesortofsquabblearoseonthedeckamongsttheseweak,totteringspectresofaship’scompany。Thecaptain,whohadbeenfordayslivingsecludedandunapproach—

ableinthechart—room,cametotherail。Heor—

deredthetwomentocomeuponboardandmen—

acedthemwithhisrevolver。Theypretendedtoobey,butsuddenlycuttingtheboat’spainter,gaveashoveagainsttheship’ssideandmadereadytohoistthesail。

"Shoot,sir!Shootthemdown!"criedFalk——

"andIwilljumpoverboardtoregaintheboat。"

Butthecaptain,aftertakingaimwithanirreso—

lutearm,turnedsuddenlyaway。

Ahowlofragearose。Falkdashedintohiscabinforhisownpistol。Whenhereturneditwastoolate。Twomoremenhadleapedintothewater,butthefellowsintheboatbeatthemoffwiththeoars,hoistedtheboat’slugandsailedaway。Theywereneverheardofagain。

Consternationanddespairpossessedtheremain—

ingship’scompany,tilltheapathyofutterhope—

lessnessre—asserteditssway。Thatdayafiremancommittedsuicide,runningupondeckwithhisthroatcutfromeartoear,tothehorrorofallhands。Hewasthrownoverboard。Thecaptainhadlockedhimselfinthechart—room,andFalk,knockingvainlyforadmittance,heardhimrecit—

ingoverandoveragainthenamesofhiswifeandchildren,notasifcallinguponthemorcommend—

ingthemtoGod,butinamechanicalvoicelikeanexerciseofmemory。Nextdaythedoorsofthechart—roomwereswingingopentotherolloftheship,andthecaptainhaddisappeared。Hemustduringthenighthavejumpedintothesea。Falklockedboththedoorsandkeptthekeys。

Theorganisedlifeoftheshiphadcometoanend。Thesolidarityofthemenhadgone。Theybecameindifferenttoeachother。ItwasFalkwhotookinhandthedistributionofsuchfoodasre—

mained。Theyboiledtheirbootsforsouptoekeouttherations,whichonlymadetheirhungermoreintolerable。Sometimeswhispersofhatewereheardpassingbetweenthelanguidskeletonsthatdriftedendlesslytoandfro,northandsouth,eastandwest,uponthatcarcaseofaship。

Andinthisliesthegrotesquehorrorofthissom—

brestory。Thelastextremityofsailors,overtakingasmallboatorafrailcraft,seemseasiertobear,becauseofthedirectdangeroftheseas。Thecon—

finedspace,theclosecontact,theimminentmenaceofthewaves,seemtodrawmentogether,inspiteofmadness,sufferinganddespair。Buttherewasaship——safe,convenient,roomy:ashipwithbeds,bedding,knives,forks,comfortablecabins,glassandchina,andacompletecook’sgalley,pervaded,ruledandpossessedbythepitilessspectreofstar—

vation。Thelampoilhadbeendrunk,thewickscutupforfood,thecandleseaten。Atnightshefloateddarkinallherrecesses,andfulloffears。

OnedayFalkcameuponamangnawingasplinterofpinewood。Suddenlyhethrewthepieceofwoodaway,totteredtotherail,andfellover。Falk,toolatetopreventtheact,sawhimclawtheship’ssidedesperatelybeforehewentdown。Nextdayanothermandidthesamething,afterutteringhor—

ribleimprecations。Butthisonesomehowman—

agedtogetholdofthebrokenrudderchainsandhungonthere,silently。Falksetabouttryingtosavehim,andallthetimetheman,holdingwithbothhands,lookedathimanxiouslywithhissunkeneyes。Then,justasFalkwasreadytoputhishandonhim,themanletgohisholdandsanklikeastone。Falkreflectedonthesesights。Hisheartrevoltedagainstthehorrorofdeath,andhesaidtohimselfthathewouldstruggleforeverypre—

ciousminuteofhislife。

Oneafternoon——asthesurvivorslayaboutontheafterdeck——thecarpenter,atallmanwithablackbeard,spokeofthelastsacrifice。Therewasnothingeatableleftonboard。Nobodysaidawordtothis;butthatcompanyseparatedquickly,theselistlessfeeblespectresslunkoffonebyonetohideinfearofeachother。Falkandthecar—

penterremainedondecktogether。Falklikedthebigcarpenter。Hehadbeenthebestmanofthelot,helpfulandreadyaslongastherewasanythingtodo,thelongesthopeful,andhadpreservedtothelastsomevigouranddecisionofmind。

Theydidnotspeaktoeachother。Henceforthnovoicesweretobeheardconversingsadlyonboardthatship。Afteratimethecarpentertot—

teredawayforward;butlateron,Falkgoingtodrinkatthefresh—waterpump,hadtheinspirationtoturnhishead。Thecarpenterhadstolenuponhimfrombehind,and,summoningallhisstrength,wasaimingwithacrowbarablowatthebackofhisskull。

Dodgingjustintime,Falkmadehisescapeandranintohiscabin。Whilehewasloadinghisre—

volverthere,heheardthesoundofheavyblowsstruckuponthebridge。Thelocksofthechart—

roomdoorswereslight,theyflewopen,andthecar—

penter,possessinghimselfofthecaptain’srevolver,firedashotofdefiance。

Falkwasabouttogoondeckandhaveitoutatonce,whenheremarkedthatoneoftheportsofhiscabincommandedtheapproachestothefresh—

waterpump。Insteadofgoingoutheremainedinandsecuredthedoor。"Thebestmanshallsur—

vive,"hesaidtohimself——andtheother,herea—

soned,mustatsometimeorothercometheretodrink。Thesestarvingmenwoulddrinkoftentocheatthepangsoftheirhunger。Butthecarpen—

tertoomusthavenoticedthepositionoftheport。

Theywerethetwobestmenintheship,andthegamewaswiththem。AlltherestofthedayFalksawnooneandheardnosound。Atnighthestrainedhiseyes。Itwasdark——heheardarustlingnoiseonce,buthewascertainthatnoonecouldhavecomenearthepump。Itwastotheleftofhisdeckport,andhecouldnothavefailedtoseeaman,forthenightwasclearandstarry。Hesawnothing;towardsmorninganotherfaintnoisemadehimsuspicious。Deliberatelyandquietlyheunlockedhisdoor。Hehadnotslept,andhadnotgivenwaytothehorrorofthesituation。Hewantedtolive。

Butduringthenightthecarpenter,withoutatalltryingtoapproachthepump,hadmanagedtocreepquietlyalongthestarboardbulwark,and,unseen,hadcroucheddownrightunderFalk’sdeckport。Whendaylightcameheroseupsuddenly,lookedin,andputtinghisarmthroughtheroundbrassframedopening,firedatFalkwithinafoot。

Hemissed——andFalk,insteadofattemptingtoseizethearmholdingtheweapon,openedhisdoorunexpectedly,andwiththemuzzleofhislongre—

volvernearlytouchingtheother’sside,shothimdead。

Thebestmanhadsurvived。Bothofthemhadatthebeginningjuststrengthenoughtostandontheirfeet,andbothhaddisplayedpitilessresolu—

tion,endurance,cunningandcourage——allthequalitiesofclassicheroism。AtonceFalkthrewoverboardthecaptain’srevolver。Hewasabornmonopolist。Thenafterthereportofthetwoshots,followedbyaprofoundsilence,therecreptoutintothecold,crueldawnofAntarcticregions,fromvarioushiding—places,overthedeckofthatdismantledcorpseofashipfloatingonagreysearuledbyironnecessityandwithaheartofice——

therecreptintoviewonebyone,cautious,slow,ea—

ger,glaring,andunclean,abandofhungryandlividskeletons。Falkfacedthem,thepossessoroftheonlyfire—armonboard,andthesecondbestman——thecarpenter——waslyingdeadbetweenhimandthem。

"Hewaseaten,ofcourse,"Isaid。

Hebenthisheadslowly,shudderedalittle,draw—

inghishandsoverhisface,andsaid,"Ihadneveranyquarrelwiththatman。Buttherewereourlivesbetweenhimandme。"

Whycontinuethestoryofthatship,thatstorybeforewhich,withitsfresh—waterpumplikeaspringofdeath,itsmanwiththeweapon,thesearuledbyironnecessity,itsspectralbandswayedbyterrorandhope,itsmuteandunhearingheaven?——

thefableoftheFlyingDutchmanwithitsconven—

tionofcrimeanditssentimentalretributionfadeslikeagracefulwreath,likeawispofwhitemist。

Whatistheretosaythateveryoneofuscannotguessforhimself?IbelieveFalkbeganbygoingthroughtheship,revolverinhand,toannexallthematches。Thosestarvingwretcheshadplentyofmatches!Hehadnomindtohavetheshipsetonfireunderhisfeet,eitherfromhateorfromdespair。

Helivedintheopen,campingonthebridge,com—

mandingalltheafterdeckandtheonlyapproachtothepump。Helived!Someoftheotherslivedtoo——concealed,anxious,comingoutonebyonefromtheirhiding—placesattheseductivesoundofashot。Andhewasnotselfish。Theyshared,butonlythreeofthemallwerealivewhenawhaler,re—

turningfromhercruisingground,nearlyranoverthewater—loggedhulloftheBorgmesterDahl,which,itseems,intheendhadinsomewaysprungaleakinbothherholds,butbeingloadedwithdealscouldnotsink。

"Theyalldied,"Falksaid。"Thesethreetoo,afterwards。ButIwouldnotdie。Alldied,all!

underthisterriblemisfortune。ButwasItootothrowawaymylife?CouldI?Tellme,captain?

Iwasalonethere,quitealone,justliketheothers。

Eachmanwasalone。WasItogiveupmyre—

volver?Whoto?OrwasItothrowitintothesea?Whatwouldhavebeenthegood?Onlythebestmanwouldsurvive。Itwasagreat,terrible,andcruelmisfortune。"

Hehadsurvived!Isawhimbeforemeasthoughpreservedforawitnesstothemightytruthofanunerringandeternalprinciple。Greatbeadsofperspirationstoodonhisforehead。Andsud—

denlyitstruckthetablewithaheavyblow,ashefellforwardthrowinghishandsout。

"Andthisisworse,"hecried。"Thisisaworsepain!Thisismoreterrible。"

Hemademyheartthumpwiththeprofoundcon—

victionofhiscries。AndafterhehadleftmealoneIcalledupbeforemymentaleyetheimageofthegirlweepingsilently,abundantly,patiently,andasifirresistibly。Ithoughtofhertawnyhair。Ithoughthow,ifunplaited,itwouldhavecoveredherallroundaslowasthehips,likethehairofasiren。Andshehadbewitchedhim。Fancyamanwhowouldguardhisownlifewiththein—

flexibilityofapitilessandimmovablefate,beingbroughttolamentthatonceacrowbarhadmissedhisskull!Thesirenssingandluretodeath,butthisonehadbeenweepingsilentlyasifforthepityofhislife。Shewasthetenderandvoicelesssirenofthisappallingnavigator。Heevidentlywantedtolivehiswholeconceptionoflife。Nothingelsewoulddo。Andshetoowasaservantofthatlifethat,inthemidstofdeath,criesaloudtooursenses。

Shewaseminentlyfittedtointerpretforhimitsfeminineside。Andinherownway,andwithherownprofusionofsensuouscharms,shealsoseemedtoillustratetheeternaltruthofanunerringprin—

ciple。Idon’tknowthoughwhatsortofprincipleHermannillustratedwhenheturnedupearlyonboardmyshipwithamostperplexedair。Itstruckme,however,thathetoowoulddohisbesttosurvive。Heseemedgreatlycalmedonthesub—

jectofFalk,butstillveryfullofit。

"WhatisityousaidIwaslastnight?Youknow,"heaskedaftersomepreliminarytalk。

"Too——too——Idon’tknow。Averyfunnyword。"

"Squeamish?"Isuggested。

"Yes。Whatdoesitmean?"

"Thatyouexaggeratethings——toyourself。

Withoutinquiry,andsoon。"

Heseemedtoturnitoverinhismind。Wewentontalking。ThisFalkwastheplagueofhislife。

Upsettingeverybodylikethis!Mrs。Hermannwasunwellratherthismorning。Hisniecewascryingstill。Therewasnobodytolookafterthechildren。Hestruckhisumbrellaonthedeck。Shewouldbelikethatformonths。Fancycarryingallthewayhome,secondclass,aperfectlyuselessgirlwhoiscryingallthetime。ItwasbadforLenatoo,heobserved;butonwhatgroundsIcouldnotguess。Perhapsofthebadexample。Thatchildwasalreadysorrowingandcryingenoughovertheragdoll。Nicholaswasreallytheleastsentimentalpersonofthefamily。

"Whydoessheweep?"Iasked。

"Frompity,"criedHermann。

Itwasimpossibletomakeoutwomen。Mrs。Her—

mannwastheonlyonehepretendedtounderstand。

Shewasvery,veryupsetanddoubtful。

"Doubtfulaboutwhat?"Iasked。

Heavertedhiseyesanddidnotanswerthis。Itwasimpossibletomakethemout。Forinstance,hisniecewasweepingforFalk。Nowhe(Her—

mann)wouldliketowringhisneck——butthen……

Hesupposedhehadtootenderaheart。"Frank—

ly,"heaskedatlast,"whatdoyouthinkofwhatweheardlastnight,captain?"

"Inallthesetales,"Iobserved,"thereisalwaysagooddealofexaggeration。"

AndnotlettinghimrecoverfromhissurpriseI

assuredhimthatIknewallthedetails。Hebeggedmenottorepeatthem。Hisheartwastootender。

Theymadehimfeelunwell。Then,lookingathisfeetandspeakingveryslowly,hesupposedthatheneednotseemuchofthemaftertheyweremarried。

For,indeed,hecouldnotbearthesightofFalk。

Ontheotherhanditwasridiculoustotakehomeagirlwithherheadturned。Agirlthatweepsallthetimeandisofnohelptoheraunt。

"Nowyouwillbeabletodowithonecabinonlyonyourpassagehome,"Isaid。

"Yes,Ihadthoughtofthat,"hesaidbrightly,almost。"Yes!Himself,hiswife,fourchildren——onecabinmightdo。Whereasifhisniecewent……"

"AndwhatdoesMrs。Hermannsaytoit?"I

inquired。

Mrs。Hermanndidnotknowwhetheramanofthatsortcouldmakeagirlhappy——shehadbeengreatlydeceivedinCaptainFalk。Shehadbeenveryupsetlastnight。

Thosegoodpeopledidnotseemtobeabletore—

tainanimpressionforawholetwelvehours。I

assuredhimonmyownpersonalknowledgethatFalkpossessedinhimselfallthequalitiestomakehisniece’sfutureprosperous。Hesaidhewasgladtohearthis,andthathewouldtellhiswife。Thentheobjectofthevisitcameout。HewishedmetohelphimtoresumerelationswithFalk。Hisniece,hesaid,hadexpressedthehopeIwoulddosoinmykindness。HewasevidentlyanxiousthatIshould,forthoughheseemedtohaveforgottennine—tenthsofhislastnight’sopinionsandthewholeofhisin—

dignation,yetheevidentlyfearedtobesenttotheright—about。"Youtoldmehewasverymuchinlove,"heconcludedslyly,andleeredinasortofbu—

colicway。

"AssoonashehadleftmyshipIcalledFalkonboardbysignal——thetugstilllyingattheanchor—

age。Hetookthenewswithcalmgravity,asthoughhehadallalongexpectedthestarstofightforhimintheircourses。

Isawthemoncemoretogether,andonlyonce——

onthequarter—deckoftheDiana。Hermannsatsmokingwithashirt—sleevedelbowhookedoverthebackofhischair。Mrs。Hermannwassewingalone。AsFalksteppedoverthegangway,Her—

mann’sniece,withaslightswishoftheskirtandaswiftfriendlynodtome,glidedpastmychair。

Theymetinsunshineabreastofthemainmast。

Heheldherhandsandlookeddownatthem,andshelookedupathimwithhercandidandunseeingglance。Itseemedtometheyhadcometogetherasifattracted,drawnandguidedtoeachotherbyamysteriousinfluence。Theywereacompletecouple。Inhergreyfrock,palpitatingwithlife,generousofform,olympianandsimple,shewasin—

deedthesirentofascinatethatdarknavigator,thisruthlessloverofthefivesenses。FromafarI

seemedtofeelthemasculinestrengthwithwhichhegraspedthosehandsshehadextendedtohimwithawomanlyswiftness。Lena,alittlepale,nursingherbelovedlumpofdirtyrags,ranto—

wardsherbigfriend;andtheninthedrowsysi—

lenceofthegoodoldshipMrs。Hermann’svoicerangoutsochangedthatitmademespinroundinmychairtoseewhatwasthematter。

"Lena,comehere!"shescreamed。Andthisgood—naturedmatrongavemeawaveringglance,darkandfulloffearsomedistrust。Thechildranback,surprisedtoherknee。Butthetwo,stand—

ingbeforeeachotherinsunlightwithclaspedhands,hadheardnothing,hadseennothingandnoone。Threefeetawayfromthemintheshadeaseamansatonaspar,verybusysplicingastrop,anddippinghisfingersintoatar—pot,asifutterlyunawareoftheirexistence。

WhenIreturnedincommandofanothership,somefiveyearsafterwards,Mr。andMrs。Falkhadlefttheplace。IshouldnotwonderifSchom—

berg’stonguehadsucceededatlastinscaringFalkawayforgood;and,indubitably,therewasatalestillgoingaboutthetownofacertainFalk,ownerofatug,whohadwonhiswifeatcardsfromthecaptainofanEnglishship。

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