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She'sanextraordinarypictureofwomankind——veryextraordinary。'

'Inwhatwaybesides?'

'You'llknowsoonenough,miss。Shehashadsevenlady's-maidsthislasttwelvemonth。Iassureyou'tisonebody'sworktofetch'emfromthestationandtake'embackagain。TheLordmustbeaneglectfulpartyatheart,orhe'dneverpermitsuchoverbearengoingson!'

'Doesshedismissthemdirectlytheycome!'

'Notatall——sheneverdismissesthem——theygotheirselves。Yesee'tislikethis。She'sgotaveryquicktemper;shefleesinapassionwiththemfornothingatall;nextmornentheycomeupandsaytheyaregoing;she'ssorryforitandwishesthey'dstay,butshe'sasproudasalucifer,andherpridewon'tlethersay,“Stay,“andawaytheygo。'Tislikethisinfact。Ifyousaytoheraboutanybody,“Ah,poorthing!”shesays,“Pooh!indeed!”Ifyousay,“Pooh,indeed!”“Ah,poorthing!”shesaysdirectly。Shehangsthechiefbaker,asmidbe,andrestoresthechiefbutler,asmidbe,thoughthedevilbutPharaohherselfcanseethedifferencebetween'em。'

Cythereawassilent。Shefearedshemightbeagainaburdentoherbrother。

'However,youstandaverygoodchance,'themanwenton,'forI

thinkshelikesyoumorethancommon。Ihaveneverknownhersendthepony-carriagetomeetonebefore;'tisalwaysthetrap,butthistimeshesaid,inaveryparticularladyliketone,“Roobert,gaowwiththepony-kerriage。“……There,'tistrue,ponyandcarriagetooaregettenrathershabbynow,'headded,lookingrounduponthevehicleasiftokeepCytherea'spridewithinreasonablelimits。

''Tistobehopedyou'llpleaseindressenherto-night。'

'Whyto-night?'

'There'sadinner-partyofseventeen;'tisherfather'sbirthday,andshe'sveryparticularaboutherlooksatsuchtimes。Nowsee;

thisisthehouse。Livelieruphere,isn'tit,miss?'

Theywerenowonrisingground,andhadjustemergedfromaclumpoftrees。Stillalittlehigherthanwheretheystoodwassituatedthemansion,calledKnapwaterHouse,theofficesgraduallylosingthemselvesamongthetreesbehind。

2。EVENING

Thehousewasregularlyandsubstantiallybuiltofcleangreyfreestonethroughout,inthatplainerfashionofGreekclassicismwhichprevailedatthelatterendofthelastcentury,whenthecopyistscalleddesignershadgrownwearyoffantasticvariationsintheRomanorders。Themainblockapproximatedtoasquareonthegroundplan,havingaprojectioninthecentreofeachside,surmountedbyapediment。Fromeachangleoftheinferiorsideranalineofbuildingslowerthantherest,turninginwardsagainattheirfurtherend,andformingwithinthemaspaciousopencourt,withinwhichresoundedanechoofastonishingclearness。Theseerectionswereintheirturnbackedbyivy-coveredice-houses,laundries,andstables,thewholemassofsubsidiarybuildingsbeinghalfburiedbeneathclose-setshrubsandtrees。

Therewasopeningsufficientthroughthefoliageontherighthandtoenableheronnearerapproachtoformanideaofthearrangementoftheremoterorlawnfrontalso。Thenaturalfeaturesandcontourofthisquarterofthesitehadevidentlydictatedthepositionofthehouseprimarily,andwereoftheordinary,anduponthewhole,mostsatisfactorykind,namely,abroad,gracefulsloperunningfromtheterracebeneaththewallstothemarginofaplacidlakelyingbelow,uponthesurfaceofwhichadozenswansandagreenpuntfloatedatleisure。Anirregularwoodedislandstoodinthemidstofthelake;beyondthisandthefurthermarginofthewaterwereplantationsandgreenswardofvariedoutlines,thetreesheightening,byhalfveiling,thesoftnessoftheexquisitelandscapestretchingbehind。

Theglimpsesshehadobtainedofthisportionwerenowcheckedbytheangleofthebuilding。Inaminuteortwotheyreachedthesidedoor,atwhichCythereaalighted。Shewaswelcomedbyanelderlywomanoflengthysmilesandgeneralpleasantness,whoannouncedherselftobeMrs。Morris,thehousekeeper。

'Mrs。Graye,Ibelieve?'shesaid。

'Iamnot——Oyes,yes,weareallmistresses,'saidCytherea,smiling,butforcedly。Thetitleaccordedherseemeddisagreeablylikethefirstslightscarofabrand,andshethoughtofOwen'sprophecy。

Mrs。MorrisledherintoacomfortableparlourcalledTheRoom。

Hereteawasmadeready,andCythereasatdown,looking,wheneveroccasionallowed,atMrs。Morriswithgreatinterestandcuriosity,todiscover,ifpossible,somethinginherwhichshouldgiveacluetothesecretofherknowledgeofherself,andtherecommendationbaseduponit。Butnothingwastobelearnt,atanyratejustthen。

Mrs。Morriswasperpetuallygettingup,feelinginherpockets,goingtocupboards,leavingtheroomtwoorthreeminutes,andtrottingbackagain。

'You'llexcuseme,Mrs。Graye,'shesaid,'but'tistheoldgentleman'sbirthday,andtheyalwayshavealotofpeopletodinneronthatday,thoughhe'sgettingupinyearsnow。However,noneofthemaresleepers——shegenerallykeepsthehouseprettyclearoflodgers(beingaladywithnointimatefriends,thoughmanyacquaintances),which,thoughitgivesuslesstodo,makesitallthedullerfortheyoungermaidsinthehouse。'Mrs。Morristhenproceededtogiveinfragmentaryspeechesanoutlineoftheconstitutionandgovernmentoftheestate。

'Now,areyousureyouhavequitedonetea?Notabitordropmore?

Why,you'veeatennothing,I'msure……Well,now,itisratherinconvenientthattheothermaidisnotheretoshowyouthewaysofthehousealittle,butsheleftlastSaturday,andMissAldclyffehasbeenmakingshiftwithpooroldclumsymeforamaidallyesterdayandthismorning。Sheisnotcomeinyet。Iexpectshewillaskforyou,Mrs。Graye,thefirstthing……Iwasgoingtosaythatifyouhavereallydonetea,Iwilltakeyouupstairs,andshowyouthroughthewardrobes——MissAldclyffe'sthingsarenotlaidoutforto-nightyet。'

SheprecededCythereaupstairs,pointedoutherownroom,andthentookherintoMissAldclyffe'sdressing-room,onthefirst-floor;

where,afterexplainingthewhereaboutsofvariousarticlesofapparel,thehousekeeperlefther,tellingherthatshehadanhouryetuponherhandsbeforedressing-time。Cytherealaidoutuponthebedinthenextroomallthatshehadbeentoldwouldberequiredthatevening,andthenwentagaintothelittleroomwhichhadbeenappropriatedtoherself。

Hereshesatdownbytheopenwindow,leantoutuponthesilllikeanotherBlessedDamozel,andlistlesslylookeddownuponthebrilliantpatternofcoloursformedbytheflower-bedsonthelawn——

nowrichlycrowdedwithlatesummerblossom。Butthevivacityofspiritwhichhadhithertoenlivenedher,wasfastebbingunderthepressureofprosaicrealities,andthewarmscarletofthegeraniums,glowingmostconspicuously,andminglingwiththevividcoldredandgreenoftheverbenas,therichdepthofthedahlia,andtheripemellownessofthecalceolaria,backedbythepalehueofaflockofmeeksheepfeedingintheopenpark,closetotheothersideofthefence,were,toagreatextent,lostuponhereyes。Shewasthinkingthatnothingseemedworthwhile;thatitwaspossibleshemightdieinaworkhouse;andwhatdiditmatter?Thepetty,vulgardetailsofservitudethatshehadjustpassedthrough,herdependenceuponthewhimsofastrangewoman,thenecessityofquenchingallindividualityofcharacterinherself,andrelinquishingherownpeculiartastestohelponthewheelofthisalienestablishment,madehersickandsad,andshealmostlongedtopursuesomefree,out-of-doorsemployment,sleepundertreesorahut,andknownoenemybutwinterandcoldweather,likeshepherdsandcowkeepers,andbirdsandanimals——ay,likethesheepshesawthereunderherwindow。Shelookedsympathizinglyatthemforseveralminutes,imaginingtheirenjoymentoftherichgrass。

'Yes——likethosesheep,'shesaidaloud;andherfacereddenedwithsurpriseatadiscoveryshemadethatveryinstant。

Theflockconsistedofsomeninetyorahundredyoungstockewes:

thesurfaceoftheirfleecewasasroundedandevenasacushion,andwhiteasmilk。Nowshehadjustobservedthatontheleftbuttockofeveryoneofthemweremarkedindistinctredletterstheinitials'E。S。'

'E。S。'couldbringtoCytherea'smindonlyonethought;butthatimmediatelyandforever——thenameofherlover,EdwardSpringrove。

'O,ifitshouldbe——!'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyaresolve。

MissAldclyffe'scarriageatthesamemomentmadeitsappearanceinthedrive;butMissAldclyffewasnotherobjectnow。Itwastoascertaintowhomthesheepbelonged,andtosethersurmiseatrestonewayortheother。SheflewdownstairstoMrs。Morris。

'Whosesheeparethoseinthepark,Mrs。Morris?'

'FarmerSpringrove's。'

'WhatFarmerSpringroveisthat?'shesaidquickly。

'Why,surelyyouknow?Yourfriend,FarmerSpringrove,thecider-

maker,andwhokeepstheThreeTrantersInn;whorecommendedyoutomewhenhecameintoseemetheotherday?'

Cytherea'smother-witsuddenlywarnedherinthemidstofherexcitementthatitwasnecessarynottobetraythesecretofherlove。'Oyes,'shesaid,'ofcourse。'Herthoughtshadrunasfollowsinthatshortinterval:——

'FarmerSpringroveisEdward'sfather,andhisnameisEdwardtoo。

'EdwardknewIwasgoingtoadvertiseforasituationofsomekind。

'HewatchedtheTimes,andsawit,myaddressbeingattached。

'Hethoughtitwouldbeexcellentformetobeherethatwemightmeetwheneverhecamehome。

'HetoldhisfatherthatImightberecommendedasalady's-maid;

andheknewmybrotherandmyself。

'HisfathertoldMrs。Morris;Mrs。MorristoldMissAldclyffe。'

Thewholechainofincidentsthatdrewhertherewasplain,andtherewasnosuchthingaschanceinthematter。ItwasallEdward'sdoing。

Thesoundofabellwasheard。Cythereadidnotheedit,andstillcontinuedinherreverie。

'That'sMissAldclyffe'sbell,'saidMrs。Morris。

'Isupposeitis,'saidtheyoungwomanplacidly。

'Well,itmeansthatyoumustgouptoher,'thematroncontinued,inatoneofsurprise。

Cythereafeltaburningheatcomeoverher,mingledwithasuddenirritationatMrs。Morris'shint。Butthegoodsensewhichhadrecognizedsternnecessityprevailedoverrebelliousindependence;

theflushpassed,andshesaidhastily——

'Yes,yes;ofcourse,Imustgotoherwhenshepullsthebell——

whetherIwanttoorno。'

However,inspiteofthispainfulreminderofhernewpositioninlife,Cytherealefttheapartmentinamoodfardifferentfromthegloomysadnessoftenminutesprevious。Theplacefeltlikehometohernow;shedidnotmindthepettinessofheroccupation,becauseEdwardevidentlydidnotmindit;andthiswasEdward'sownspot。

ShefoundtimeonherwaytoMissAldclyffe'sdressing-roomtohurriedlyglideoutbyasidedoor,andlookforamomentattheunconscioussheepbearingthefriendlyinitials。Shewentuptothemtotrytotouchoneoftheflock,andfeltvexedthattheyallstaredscepticallyatherkindadvances,andthenranpell-melldownthehill。Then,fearinganyoneshoulddiscoverherchildishmovements,sheslippedindoorsagain,andascendedthestaircase,catchingglimpses,asshepassed,ofsilver-buttonedfootmen,whoflashedaboutthepassageslikelightning。

MissAldclyffe'sdressing-roomwasanapartmentwhich,onacasualsurvey,conveyedanimpressionthatitwasavailableforalmostanypurposesavetheadornmentofthefeminineperson。Initshoursofperfectordernothingpertainingtothetoiletwasvisible;eventheinevitablemirrorswiththeiraccessorieswerearrangedinaroomyrecessnotnoticeablefromthedoor,lightedbyawindowofitsown,calledthedressing-window。

Thewashing-standfiguredasavastoakchest,carvedwithgrotesqueRenaissanceornament。Thedressingtablewasinappearancesomethingbetweenahighaltarandacabinetpiano,thesurfacebeingrichlyworkedinthesamestyleofsemi-classicdecoration,buttheextraordinaryoutlinehavingbeenarrivedatbyaningeniousjoineranddecoratorfromtheneighbouringtown,aftermonthsofpainfultoilincuttingandfitting,underMissAldclyffe'simmediateeye;thematerialsbeingtheremainsoftwoorthreeoldcabinetstheladyhadfoundinthelumber-room。Abouttwo-thirdsofthefloorwascarpeted,theremainingportionbeinglaidwithparquetryoflightanddarkwoods。

MissAldclyffewasstandingatthelargerwindow,awayfromthedressing-niche。Shebowed,andsaidpleasantly,'Iamgladyouhavecome。Weshallgetoncapitally,Idaresay。'

Herbonnetwasoff。Cythereadidnotthinkhersohandsomeasontheearlierday;thequeenlinessofherbeautywasharderandlesswarm。ButaworsediscoverythanthiswasthatMissAldclyffe,withtheusualobliviousnessofrichpeopletotheirdependents'

specialities,seemedtohavequiteforgottenCytherea'sinexperience,andmechanicallydeliveredupherbodytoherhandmaidwithoutathoughtofdetails,andwithamildyawn。

Everythingwentwellatfirst。Thedresswasremoved,stockingsandblackbootsweretakenoff,andsilkstockingsandwhiteshoeswereputon。MissAldclyffethenretiredtobatheherhandsandface,andCythereadrewbreath。Ifshecouldgetthroughthisfirstevening,allwouldberight。Shefeltthatitwasunfortunatethatsuchacrucialtestforherpowersasabirthdaydinnershouldhavebeenappliedonthethresholdofherarrival;butsettoagain。

MissAldclyffewasnowarrayedinawhitedressing-gown,anddroppedlanguidlyintoaneasy-chair,pushedupbeforetheglass。TheinstinctsofhersexandherownpracticetoldCythereathenextmovement。SheletMissAldclyffe'shairfallabouthershoulders,andbegantoarrangeit。Itprovedtobeallreal;asatisfaction。

MissAldclyffewasmusinglylookingonthefloor,andtheoperationwentonforsomeminutesinsilence。Atlengthherthoughtsseemedtoturntothepresent,andsheliftedhereyestotheglass。

'Why,whatonearthareyoudoingwithmyhead?'sheexclaimed,withwidelyopenedeyes。AtthewordsshefeltthebackofCytherea'slittlehandtrembleagainstherneck。

'Perhapsyoupreferitdonetheotherfashion,madam?'saidthemaiden。

'No,no;that'sthefashionrightenough,butyoumustmakemoreshowofmyhairthanthat,orIshallhavetobuysome,whichGodforbid!'

'ItishowIdomyown,'saidCythereanaively,andwithasweetnessoftonethatwouldhavepleasedthemostacrimoniousunderfavourablecircumstances;buttyrannywasintheascendantwithMissAldclyffeatthismoment,andshewasassuredofpalatablefoodforhervicebyhavingfeltthetremblingofCytherea'shand。

'Yours,indeed!YOURhair!Come,goon。'ConsideringthatCythereapossessedatleastfivetimesasmuchofthatvaluableauxiliarytowoman'sbeautyastheladybeforeher,therewasatthesametimesomeexcuseforMissAldclyffe'soutburst。Sherememberedherself,however,andsaidmorequietly,'Nowthen,Graye——By-the-

bye,whatdotheycallyoudownstairs?'

'Mrs。Graye,'saidthehandmaid。

'Thentellthemnottodoanysuchabsurdthing——notbutthatitisquiteaccordingtousage;butyouaretooyoungyet。'

ThisdialoguetidedCythereasafelyonwardthroughthehairdressingtilltheflowersanddiamondsweretobeplaceduponthelady'sbrow。Cythereabeganarrangingthemtastefully,andtotheverybestofherjudgment。

'Thatwon'tdo,'saidMissAldclyffeharshly。

'Why?'

'Ilooktooyoung——anolddresseddoll。'

'Willthat,madam?'

'No,Ilookafright——aperfectfright!'

'Thisway,perhaps?'

'Heavens!Don'tworrymeso。'Sheshutherlipslikeatrap。

Havingonceworkedherselfuptothebeliefthatherhead-dresswastobeafailurethatevening,noclevernessofCytherea'sinarrangingitcouldpleaseher。Shecontinuedinasmoulderingpassionduringtheremainderoftheperformance,keepingherlipsfirmlyclosed,andthemusclesofherbodyrigid。Finally,snatchinguphergloves,andtakingherhandkerchiefandfaninherhand,shesilentlysailedoutoftheroom,withoutbetrayingtheleastconsciousnessofanotherwoman'spresencebehindher。

Cytherea'sfearsthatattheundressingthissuppressedangerwouldfindavent,keptheronthornsthroughouttheevening。Shetriedtoread;shecouldnot。Shetriedtosew;shecouldnot。Shetriedtomuse;shecouldnotdothatconnectedly。'Ifthisisthebeginning,whatwilltheendbe!'shesaidinawhisper,andfeltmanymisgivingsastothepolicyofbeingoverhastyinestablishinganindependenceattheexpenseofcongruitywithacherishedpast。

3。MIDNIGHT

Theclockstrucktwelve。TheAldclyffestatedinnerwasover。Thecompanyhadallgone,andMissAldclyffe'sbellrangloudlyandjerkingly。

Cythereastartedtoherfeetatthesound,whichbrokeinuponafitfulsleepthathadovertakenher。Shehadbeensittingdrearilyinherchairwaitingminuteafterminuteforthesignal,herbraininthatstateofintentnesswhichtakescognizanceofthepassageofTimeasarealmotion——motionwithoutmatter——theinstantsthrobbingpastinthecompanyofafeverishpulse。Shehastenedtotheroom,tofindtheladysittingbeforethedressingshrine,illuminatedonbothsides,andlookingsoqueenlyinherattitudeofabsoluterepose,thattheyoungerwomanfelttheawfullestsenseofresponsibilityatherVandalisminhavingundertakentodemolishsoimposingapile。

Thelady'sjewelledornamentsweretakenoffinsilence——somebyherownlistlesshands,somebyCytherea's。Thenfollowedtheouterstratumofclothing。Thedressbeingremoved,Cythereatookitinherhandandwentwithitintothebedroomadjoining,intendingtohangitinthewardrobe。Butonsecondthoughts,inorderthatshemightnotkeepMissAldclyffewaitingamomentlongerthannecessary,sheflungitdownonthefirstresting-placethatcametohand,whichhappenedtobethebed,andre-enteredthedressing-roomwiththenoiselessfootfallofakitten。Shepausedinthemiddleoftheroom。

Shewasunnoticed,andhersuddenreturnhadplainlynotbeenexpected。DuringtheshorttimeofCytherea'sabsence,MissAldclyffehadpulledoffakindofchemisetteofBrusselsnet,drawnhighabovethethroat,whichshehadwornwithhereveningdressasasemi-opaquecoveringtohershoulders,andinitsplacehadputhernight-gownroundher。Herrighthandwasliftedtoherneck,asifengagedinfasteninghernight-gown。

ButonasecondglanceMissAldclyffe'sproceedingwasclearertoCytherea。Shewasnotfasteninghernight-gown;ithadbeencarelesslythrownroundher,andMissAldclyffewasreallyoccupiedinholdinguptohereyessomesmallobjectthatshewaskeenlyscrutinizing。AndnowonsuddenlydiscoveringthepresenceofCythereaatthebackoftheapartment,insteadofnaturallycontinuingorconcludingherinspection,shedesistedhurriedly;thetinysnapofaspringwasheard,herhandwasremoved,andshebeganadjustingherrobes。

Modestymighthavedirectedherhastyactionofenwrappinghershoulders,butitwasscarcelylikely,consideringMissAldclyffe'stemperament,thatshehadallherlifebeenusedtoamaid,Cytherea'syouth,andtheelderlady'smarkedtreatmentofherasifshewereamerechildorplaything。Thematterwastooslighttoreasonabout,andyetuponthewholeitseemedthatMissAldclyffemusthaveapracticalreasonforconcealingherneck。

WithatimidsenseofbeinganintruderCythereawasabouttostepbackandoutoftheroom;butatthesamemomentMissAldclyffeturned,sawtheimpulse,andtoldhercompaniontostay,lookingintohereyesasifshehadhalfanintentiontoexplainsomething。

Cythereafeltcertainitwasthelittlemysteryofherlatemovements。Theotherwithdrewhereyes;Cythereawenttofetchthedressing-gown,andwheeledroundagaintobringituptoMissAldclyffe,whohadnowpartlyremovedhernight-dresstoputitontheproperway,andstillsatwithherbacktowardsCytherea。

Herneckwasagainquiteopenanduncovered,andthoughhiddenfromthedirectlineofCytherea'svision,shesawitreflectedintheglass——thefairwhitesurface,andtheinimitablecombinationofcurvesbetweenthroatandbosomwhichartistsadore,beingbrightlylitupbythelightburningoneitherside。

Andthelady'spriorproceedingswerenowexplainedinthesimplestmanner。Inthemidstofherbreast,likeanislandinaseaofpearl,reclinedanexquisitelittlegoldlocket,embellishedwitharabesqueworkofblue,red,andwhiteenamel。ThatwasundoubtedlywhatMissAldclyffehadbeencontemplating;and,moreover,nothavingbeenputoffwithherotherornaments,itwastoberetainedduringthenight——aslightdeparturefromthecustomofladieswhichMissAldclyffehadatfirstnotcaredtoexhibittohernewassistant,thoughnow,onfurtherthought,sheseemedtohavebecomeindifferentonthematter。

'Mydressing-gown,'shesaid,quietlyfasteninghernight-dressasshespoke。

Cythereacameforwardwithit。MissAldclyffedidnotturnherhead,butlookedinquiringlyathermaidintheglass。

'YousawwhatIwearonmyneck,Isuppose?'shesaidtoCytherea'sreflectedface。

'Yes,madam,Idid,'saidCythereatoMissAldclyffe'sreflectedface。

MissAldclyffeagainlookedatCytherea'sreflectionasifshewereonthepointofexplaining。Againshecheckedherresolve,andsaidlightly——

'FewofmymaidsdiscoverthatIwearitalways。Igenerallykeepitasecret——notthatitmattersmuch。ButIwascarelesswithyou,andseemedtowanttotellyou。Youwinmetomakeconfidencesthat……'

Sheceased,tookCytherea'shandinherown,liftedthelocketwiththeother,touchedthespringanddisclosedaminiature。

'Itisahandsomeface,isitnot?'shewhisperedmournfully,andeventimidly。

'Itis。'

ButthesighthadgonethroughCytherealikeanelectricshock,andtherewasaninstantaneousawakeningofperceptioninher,sothrillinginitspresenceastobewell-nighinsupportable。Thefaceintheminiaturewasthefaceofherownfather——youngerandfresherthanshehadeverknownhim——butherfather!

Wasthisthewomanofhiswildandunquenchableearlylove?Andwasthisthewomanwhohadfiguredinthegate-man'sstoryasansweringthenameofCythereabeforeherjudgmentwasawake?Surelyitwas。

Andifso,herewasthetangibleoutcropofaromanticandhiddenstratumofthepasthithertoseenonlyinherimagination;butasfarasherscopeallowed,clearlydefinedthereinbyreasonofitsstrangeness。

MissAldclyffe'seyesandthoughtsweresointentupontheminiaturethatshehadnotbeenconsciousofCytherea'sstartofsurprise。

Shewentonspeakinginalowandabstractedtone。

'Yes,Ilosthim。'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyashortmeditation,andwentonagain。'Ilosthimbyexcessofhonestyasregardedmypast。Butitwasbestthatitshouldbeso……Iwasledtothinkrathermorethanusualofthecircumstancesto-nightbecauseofyourname。Itispronouncedthesameway,thoughdifferentlyspelt。'

TheonlymeansbywhichCytherea'ssurnamecouldhavebeenspelttoMissAldclyffemusthavebeenbyMrs。MorrisorFarmerSpringrove。

ShefanciedFarmerSpringrovewouldhavespeltitproperlyifEdwardwashisinformant,whichmadeMissAldclyffe'sremarkobscure。

Womenmakeconfidencesandthenregretthem。TheimpulsiverushoffeelingwhichhadledMissAldclyffetoindulgeinthisrevelation,triflingasitwas,diedoutimmediatelyherwordswerebeyondrecall;andtheturmoil,occasionedinherbydwellinguponthatchapterofherlife,foundventinanotherkindofemotion——theresultofatrivialaccident。

Cytherea,afterlettingdownMissAldclyffe'shair,adoptedsomeplanwithittowhichtheladyhadnotbeenaccustomed。Arapidrevulsiontoirritationensued。Themaiden'smeretouchseemedtodischargethepent-upregretoftheladyasifshehadbeenajarofelectricity。

'Howstrangelyyoutreatmyhair!'sheexclaimed。

Asilence。

'IhavetoldyouwhatInevertellmymaidsasarule;ofcourseNOTHINGthatIsayinthisroomistobementionedoutsideit。'Shespokecrosslynolessthanemphatically。

'Itshallnotbe,madam,'saidCytherea,agitatedandvexedthatthewomanofherromanticwonderingsshouldbesodisagreeabletoher。

'WhyonearthdidItellyouofmypast?'shewenton。

Cythereamadenoanswer。

Thelady'svexationwithherself,andtheaccidentwhichhadledtothedisclosureswelledlittlebylittletillitknewnobounds。Butwhatwasdonecouldnotbeundone,andthoughCythereahadshownamostwinningresponsiveness,quarrelMissAldclyffemust。SherecurredtothesubjectofCytherea'swantofexpertness,likeabitterreviewer,whofindingthesentimentsofapoetunimpeachable,quarrelswithhisrhymes。

'Never,neverbeforedidIservemyselfsuchatrickasthisinengagingamaid!'Shewaitedforanexpostulation:nonecame。

MissAldclyffetriedagain。

'Theideaofmytakingagirlwithoutaskinghermorethanthreequestions,orhavingasinglereference,allbecauseofhergoodl——

,theshapeofherfaceandbody!ItWASafool'strick。There,I

amservedright,quiteright——bybeingdeceivedinsuchaway。'

'Ididn'tdeceiveyou,'saidCytherea。Thespeechwasanunfortunateone,andwasthevery'fueltomaintainitsfires'thattheother'spetulancedesired。

'Youdid,'shesaidhotly。

'ItoldyouIcouldn'tpromisetobeacquaintedwitheverydetailofroutinejustatfirst。'

'Willyoucontradictmeinthisway!Youaretellinguntruths,I

say。'

Cytherea'slipquivered。'Iwouldanswertheremarkif——if——'

'Ifwhat?'

'Ifitwerealady's!'

'Yougirlofimpudence——whatdoyousay?Leavetheroomthisinstant,Itellyou。'

'AndItellyouthatapersonwhospeakstoaladyasyoudotome,isnoladyherself!'

'Toalady?Alady's-maidspeaksinthisway。Theidea!'

'Don't“lady's-maid“me:nobodyismymistressIwon'thaveit!'

'GoodHeavens!'

'Iwouldn'thavecome——no——Iwouldn't!ifIhadknown!'

'What?'

'Thatyouweresuchanill-tempered,unjustwoman!'

'PossestbeyondtheMuse'spainting,'MissAldclyffeexclaimed——

'AWoman,amI!I'llteachyouifIamaWoman!'andliftedherhandasifshewouldhavelikedtostrikehercompanion。Thisstungthemaidenintoabsolutedefiance。

'Idareyoutotouchme!'shecried。'Strikemeifyoudare,madam!

Iamnotafraidofyou——whatdoyoumeanbysuchanactionasthat?'

MissAldclyffewasdisconcertedatthisunexpectedshowofspirit,andashamedofherunladylikeimpulsenowitwasputintowords。

Shesankbackinthechair。'Iwasnotgoingtostrikeyou——gotoyourroom——Ibegyoutogotoyourroom!'sherepeatedinahuskywhisper。

Cytherea,redandpanting,tookuphercandlestickandadvancedtothetabletogetalight。Asshestoodclosetothemtheraysfromthecandlesstrucksharplyonherface。Sheusuallyboreamuchstrongerlikenesstohermotherthantoherfather,butnow,lookingwithagrave,reckless,andangeredexpressionofcountenanceatthekindlingwickasshehelditslantingintotheotherflame,herfather'sfeaturesweredistinctinher。ItwasthefirsttimeMissAldclyffehadseenherinapassionatemood,andwearingthatexpressionwhichwasinvariablyitsconcomitant。ItwasMissAldclyffe'sturntostartnow;andtheremarkshemadewasaninstanceofthatsuddenchangeoftonefromhigh-flowninvectivetothepettinessofcuriositywhichsooftenmakeswomen'squarrelsridiculous。EvenMissAldclyffe'sdignityhadnotsufficientpowertopostponetheabsorbingdesireshenowfelttosettlethestrangesuspicionthathadenteredherhead。

'Youspellyournamethecommonway,G,R,E,Y,don'tyou?'shesaid,withassumedindifference。

'No,'saidCytherea,poisedonthesideofherfoot,andstilllookingintotheflame。

'Yes,surely?Thenamewasspeltthatwayonyourboxes:Ilookedandsawitmyself。'

TheenigmaofMissAldclyffe'smistakewassolved。'O,wasit?'

saidCytherea。'Ah,IrememberMrs。Jackson,thelodging-housekeeperatBudmouth,labelledthem。WespellournameG,R,A,Y,E。'

'Whatwasyourfather'strade?'

Cythereathoughtitwouldbeuselesstoattempttoconcealfactsanylonger。'Hiswasnotatrade,'shesaid。'Hewasanarchitect。'

'Theideaofyourbeinganarchitect'sdaughter!'

'There'snothingtooffend,youinthat,Ihope?'

'Ono。'

'Whydidyousay“theidea“?'

'Leavethatalone。DidheevervisitinGowerStreet,Bloomsbury,oneChristmas,manyyearsago?——butyouwouldnotknowthat。'

'IhaveheardhimsaythatMr。Huntway,acuratesomewhereinthatpartofLondon,andwhodiedthere,wasanoldcollegefriendofhis。'

'WhatisyourChristianname?'

'Cytherea。'

'No!Andisitreally?AndyouknewthatfaceIshowedyou?Yes,Iseeyoudid。'MissAldclyffestopped,andclosedherlipsimpassibly。Shewasalittleagitated。

'Doyouwantmeanylonger?'saidCytherea,standingcandleinhandandlookingquietlyinMissAldclyffe'sface。

'Well——no:nolonger,'saidtheotherlingeringly。

'Withyourpermission,Iwillleavethehousetomorrowmorning,madam。'

'Ah。'MissAldclyffehadnonotionofwhatshewassaying。

'AndIknowyouwillbesogoodasnottointrudeuponmeduringtheshortremainderofmystay?'

SayingthisCytherealefttheroombeforehercompanionhadanswered。MissAldclyffe,then,hadrecognizedheratlast,andhadbeencuriousabouthernamefromthebeginning。

Theothermembersofthehouseholdhadretiredtorest。AsCythereawentalongthepassageleadingtoherroomherskirtsrustledagainstthepartition。Adooronherleftopened,andMrs。Morrislookedout。

'Iwaitedoutofbedtillyoucameup,'shesaid,'itbeingyourfirstnight,incaseyoushouldbeatalossforanything。HowhaveyougotonwithMissAldclyffe?'

'Prettywell——thoughnotsowellasIcouldhavewished。'

'Hasshebeenscolding?'

'Alittle。'

'She'saveryoddlady——'tisallonewayortheotherwithher。

She'snotbadatheart,butunbearableinclosequarters。Thoseofuswhodon'thavemuchtodowithherpersonally,stayonforyearsandyears。'

'HasMissAldclyffe'sfamilyalwaysbeenrich?'saidCytherea。

'Ono。Theproperty,withthename,camefromhermother'suncle。

HerfamilyisabranchoftheoldAldclyffefamilyonthematernalside。HermothermarriedaBradleigh——amerenobodyatthattime——

andwasonthataccountcutbyherrelations。Butverysingularlytheotherbranchofthefamilydiedoutonebyone——threeofthem,andMissAldclyffe'sgreat-unclethenleftallhisproperty,includingthisestate,toCaptainBradleighandhiswife——MissAldclyffe'sfatherandmother——onconditionthattheytooktheoldfamilynameaswell。There'sallaboutitinthe“LandedGentry。“

'Tisathingveryoftendone。'

'O,Isee。Thankyou。Well,nowIamgoing。Good-night。'

VI。THEEVENTSOFTWELVEHOURS

1。AUGUSTTHENINTH。ONETOTWOO'CLOCKA。M。

Cythereaenteredherbedroom,andflungherselfonthe,bed,bewilderedbyawhirlofthought。Onlyonesubjectwasclearinhermind,anditwasthat,inspiteoffamilydiscoveries,thatdaywastobethefirstandlastofherexperienceasalady's-maid。

Starvationitselfshouldnotcompelhertoholdsuchahumiliatingpostforanotherinstant。'Ah,'shethought,withasigh,atthemartyrdomofherlastlittlefragmentofself-conceit,'OwenknowseverythingbetterthanI。'

Shejumpedupandbeganmakingreadyforherdepartureinthemorning,thetearsstreamingdownwhenshegrievedandwonderedwhatpracticalmatteronearthshecouldturnherhandtonext。Allthesepreparationscompleted,shebegantoundress,hermindunconsciouslydriftingawaytothecontemplationofherlatesurprises。Tolookintheglassforaninstantatthereflectionofherownmagnificentresourcesinfaceandbosom,andtomarktheirattractivenessunadorned,wasperhapsbutthenaturalactionofayoungwomanwhohadsolatelybeenchiddenwhilstpassingthroughtheharassingexperienceofdecoratinganolderbeautyofMissAldclyffe'stemper。

Butshedirectlycheckedherweaknessbysympathizingreflectionsonthehiddentroubleswhichmusthavethrongedthepastyearsofthesolitarylady,tokeepher,thoughsorichandcourted,inamoodsorepellentandgloomyasthatinwhichCythereafoundher;andthentheyounggirlmarvelledagainandagain,asshehadmarvelledbefore,atthestrangeconfluenceofcircumstanceswhichhadbroughtherselfintocontactwiththeonewomanintheworldwhosehistorywassoromanticallyintertwinedwithherown。Shealmostbegantowishshewerenotobligedtogoawayandleavethelonelybeingtolonelinessstill。

Inbedandinthedark,MissAldclyffehauntedhermindmorepersistentlythanever。Insteadofsleeping,shecalledupstaringvisionsofthepossiblepastofthisqueenlylady,hermother'srival。Upthelongvistaofbygoneyearsshesaw,behindall,theyounggirl'sflirtation,littleormuch,withthecousin,thatseemedtohavebeennippedinthebud,ortohaveterminatedhastilyinsomeway。ThenthesecretmeetingsbetweenMissAldclyffeandtheotherwomanatthelittleinnatHammersmithandotherplaces:

thecommonplacenamesheadopted:herswoonatsomepainfulnews,andtheveryslightknowledgetheelderfemalehadofherpartnerinmystery。Then,morethanayearafterwards,theacquaintanceshipofherownfatherwiththishisfirstlove;theawakeningofthepassion,hisactsofdevotion,theunreasoningheatofhisrapture,hertacitacceptanceofit,andyetheruneasinessunderthedelight。Thenhisdeclarationamidtheevergreens:theutterchangeproducedinhermannerthereby,seeminglytheresultofarigiddetermination:andthetotalconcealmentofherreasonbyherselfandherparents,whateveritwas。Thenthelady'scoursedroppedintodarkness,andnothingmorewasvisibletillshewasdiscoveredhereatKnapwater,nearlyfiftyyearsold,stillunmarriedandstillbeautiful,butlonely,embittered,andhaughty。

Cythereaimaginedthatherfather'simagewasstillwarmlycherishedinMissAldclyffe'sheart,andwasthankfulthatsheherselfhadnotbeenbetrayedintoannouncingthatsheknewmanyparticularsofthispageofherfather'shistory,andthechiefone,thelady'sunaccountablerenunciationofhim。Itwouldhavemadeherbearingtowardsthemistressofthemansionmoreawkward,andwouldhavebeennobenefittoeither。

Thusconjuringupthepast,andtheorizingonthepresent,shelayrestless,changingherposturefromonesidetotheotherandbackagain。Finally,whencourtingsleepwithallherart,sheheardaclockstriketwo。Aminutelater,andshefanciedshecoulddistinguishasoftrustleinthepassageoutsideherroom。

Toburyherheadinthesheetswasherfirstimpulse;thentouncoverit,raiseherselfonherelbow,andstretchhereyeswideopeninthedarkness;herlipsbeingpartedwiththeintentnessofherlistening。Whateverthenoisewas,ithadceasedforthetime。

Itbeganagainandcameclosetoherdoor,lightlytouchingthepanels。Thentherewasanotherstillness;Cythereamadeamovementwhichcausedafaintrustlingofthebed-clothes。

Beforeshehadtimetothinkanotherthoughtalighttapwasgiven。

Cythereabreathed:thepersonoutsidewasevidentlybentuponfindingherawake,andtherustleshehadmadehadencouragedthehope。Themaiden'sphysicalconditionshiftedfromonepoletoitsopposite。Thecoldsweatofterrorforsookher,andmodestytookthealarm。Shebecamehotandred;herdoorwasnotlocked。

Adistinctwoman'swhispercametoherthroughthekeyhole:

'Cytherea!'

OnlyonebeinginthehouseknewherChristianname,andthatwasMissAldclyffe。Cythereasteppedoutofbed,wenttothedoor,andwhisperedback,'Yes?'

'Letmecomein,darling。'

Theyoungwomanpausedinaconflictbetweenjudgmentandemotion。

Itwasnowmistressandmaidnolonger;womanandwomanonly。Yes;

shemustlethercomein,poorthing。

Shegotalightinaninstant,openedthedoor,andraisinghereyesandthecandle,sawMissAldclyffestandingoutsideinherdressing-

gown。

'Nowyouseethatitisreallymyself;putoutthelight,'saidthevisitor。'Iwanttostayherewithyou,Cythie。Icametoaskyoutocomedownintomybed,butitissnuggerhere。Butrememberthatyouaremistressinthisroom,andthatIhavenobusinesshere,andthatyoumaysendmeawayifyouchoose。ShallIgo?'

'Ono;youshan'tindeedifyoudon'twantto,'saidCythiegenerously。

TheinstanttheywereinbedMissAldclyffefreedherselffromthelastremnantofrestraint。Sheflungherarmsroundtheyounggirl,andpressedhergentlytoherheart。

'Nowkissme,'shesaid。

Cytherea,uponthewhole,wasratherdiscomposedatthischangeoftreatment;and,discomposedorno,herpassionswerenotsoimpetuousasMissAldclyffe's。Shecouldnotbringhersoultoherlipsforamoment,tryhowshewould。

'Come,kissme,'repeatedMissAldclyffe。

Cythereagaveheraverysmallone,assoftintouchandinsoundastheburstingofabubble。

'Moreearnestlythanthat——come。'

Shegaveanother,alittlebutnotmuchmoreexpressively。

'Idon'tdeserveamorefeelingone,Isuppose,'saidMissAldclyffe,withanemphasisofsadbitternessinhertone。'Iamanill-temperedwoman,youthink;halfoutofmymind。Well,perhapsI

am;butIhavehadgriefmorethanyoucanthinkordreamof。ButI

can'thelplovingyou——yournameisthesameasmine——isn'titstrange?'

Cythereawasinclinedtosayno,butremainedsilent。

'Now,don'tyouthinkImustloveyou?'continuedtheother。

'Yes,'saidCythereaabsently。ShewasstillthinkingwhetherdutytoOwenandherfather,whichaskedforsilenceonherknowledgeofherfather'sunfortunatelove,ordutytothewomanembracingher,whichseemedtoaskforconfidence,oughttopredominate。Herewasasolution。ShewouldwaittillMissAldclyffereferredtoheracquaintanceshipandattachmenttoCytherea'sfatherinpasttimes:

thenshewouldtellherallsheknew:thatwouldbehonour。

'Whycan'tyoukissmeasIcankissyou?Whycan'tyou!'SheimpresseduponCytherea'slipsawarmmotherlysalute,givenasifintheoutburstofstrongfeeling,longchecked,andyearningforsomethingtoloveandbelovedbyinreturn。

'Doyouthinkbadlyofmeformybehaviourthisevening,child?I

don'tknowwhyIamsofoolishastospeaktoyouinthisway。Iamaveryfool,Ibelieve。Yes。Howoldareyou?'

'Eighteen。'

'Eighteen!……Well,whydon'tyouaskmehowoldIam?'

'BecauseIdon'twanttoknow。'

'Nevermindifyoudon't。Iamforty-six;anditgivesmegreaterpleasuretotellyouthisthanitdoestoyoutolisten。Ihavenottoldmyagetrulyforthelasttwentyyearstillnow。'

'Whyhaven'tyou?'

'Ihavemetdeceitbydeceit,tillIamwearyofit——weary,weary——

andIlongtobewhatIshallneverbeagain——artlessandinnocent,likeyou。ButIsupposethatyou,too,will,provetobenotworthathought,aseverynewfrienddoesonmoreintimateknowledge。

Come,whydon'tyoutalktome,child?Haveyousaidyourprayers?'

'Yes——no!Iforgotthemto-night。'

'Isupposeyousaythemeverynightasarule?'

'Yes。'

'Whydoyoudothat?'

'BecauseIhavealwaysdoneso,anditwouldseemstrangeifIwerenotto。Doyou?'

'I?Awickedoldsinnerlikeme!No,Ineverdo。Ihavethoughtallsuchmattershumbugforyears——thoughtsosolongthatIshouldbegladtothinkotherwisefromveryweariness;andyet,suchisthecodeofthepoliteworld,thatIsubscriberegularlytoMissionarySocietiesandothersofthesort……Well,sayyourprayers,dear——youwon'tomitthemnowyourecollectit。Ishouldliketohearyouverymuch。Willyou?'

'Itseemshardly——'

'Itwouldseemsolikeoldtimestome——whenIwasyoung,andnearer——farnearerHeaventhanIamnow。Do,sweetone,'

Cythereawasembarrassed,andherembarrassmentarosefromthefollowingconjunctureofaffairs。SinceshehadlovedEdwardSpringrove,shehadlinkedhisnamewithherbrotherOwen'sinhernightlysupplicationstotheAlmighty。Shewishedtokeepherloveforhimasecret,and,aboveall,asecretfromawomanlikeMissAldclyffe;yetherconscienceandthehonestyofherlovewouldnotforaninstantallowhertothinkofomittinghisdearname,andsoendangertheefficacyofallherpreviousprayersforhissuccessbyanunworthyshamenow:itwouldbewickedofher,shethought,andagrievouswrongtohim。Underanyworldlycircumstancesshemighthavethoughtthepositionjustifiedalittlefinesse,andhaveskippedhimforonce;butprayerwastoosolemnathingforsuchtrifling。

'Iwouldrathernotsaythem,'shemurmuredfirst。Itstruckherthenthatthisdecliningaltogetherwasthesamecowardiceinanotherdress,andwasdeliveringherpoorEdwardovertoSatanjustasunceremoniouslyasbefore。'Yes;Iwillsaymyprayers,andyoushallhearme,'sheaddedfirmly。

Sheturnedherfacetothepillowandrepeatedinlowsofttonesthesimplewordsshehadusedfromchildhoodonsuchoccasions。Owen'snamewasmentionedwithoutfaltering,butintheothercase,maidenlyshynesswastoostrongevenforreligion,andthatwhensupportedbyexcellentintentions。AtthenameofEdwardshestammered,andhervoicesanktothefaintestwhisperinspiteofher。

'Thankyou,dearest,'saidMissAldclyffe。'Ihaveprayedtoo,I

verilybelieve。Youareagoodgirl,Ithink。'Thentheexpectedquestioncame。

'“BlessOwen,“andwhom,didyousay?'

Therewasnohelpforitnow,andoutitcame。'OwenandEdward,'

saidCytherea。

'WhoareOwenandEdward?'

'Owenismybrother,madam,'falteredthemaid。

'Ah,Iremember。WhoisEdward?'

Asilence。

'Yourbrother,too?'continuedMissAldclyffe。

'No。'

MissAldclyffereflectedamoment。'Don'tyouwanttotellmewhoEdwardis?'shesaidatlast,inatoneofmeaning。

'Idon'tmindtelling;only……'

'Youwouldrathernot,Isuppose?'

'Yes。'

MissAldclyffeshiftedherground。'Wereyoueverinlove?'sheinquiredsuddenly。

Cythereawassurprisedtohearhowquicklythevoicehadalteredfromtendernesstoharshness,vexation,anddisappointment。

'Yes——IthinkIwas——once,'shemurmured。

'Aha!Andwereyoueverkissedbyaman?'

Apause。

'Well,wereyou?'saidMissAldclyffe,rathersharply。

'Don'tpressmetotell——Ican't——indeed,Iwon't,madam!'

MissAldclyfferemovedherarmsfromCytherea'sneck。''Tisnowwithyouasitisalwayswithallgirls,'shesaid,injealousandgloomyaccents。'Youarenot,afterall,theinnocentItookyoufor。No,no。'Shethenchangedhertonewithfitfulrapidity。

'Cytherea,trytolovememorethanyoulovehim——do。Iloveyoumoresincerelythananymancan。Do,Cythie:don'tletanymanstandbetweenus。O,Ican'tbearthat!'SheclaspedCytherea'sneckagain。

'ImustlovehimnowIhavebegun,'repliedtheother。

'Must——yes——must,'saidtheelderladyreproachfully。'Yes,womenareallalike。IthoughtIhadatlastfoundanartlesswomanwhohadnotbeensulliedbyaman'slips,andwhohadnotpractisedorbeenpractiseduponbytheartswhichruinallthetruthandsweetnessandgoodnessinus。Findagirl,ifyoucan,whosemouthandearshavenotbeenmadearegularhighwayofbysomemanoranother!Leavetheadmittedlynotoriousspots——thedrawing-roomsofsociety——andlookinthevillages——leavethevillagesandsearchintheschools——andyoucanhardlyfindagirlwhosehearthasnotbeenHAD——isnotanoldthinghalfwornoutbysomeHeoranother!Ifmenonlyknewthestalenessofthefreshestofus!thatninetimesoutoftenthe“firstlove“theythinktheyarewinningfromawomanisbutthehulkofanoldwreckedaffection,fittedwithnewsailsandre-used。OCytherea,canitbethatyou,too,areliketherest?'

'No,no,no,'urgedCytherea,awedbythestormshehadraisedintheimpetuouswoman'smind。'Heonlykissedmeonce——twiceImean。'

'Hemighthavedoneitathousandtimesifhehadcaredto,there'snodoubtaboutthat,whoeverhislordshipis。YouareasbadasI——

weareallalike;andI——anoldfool——havebeensippingatyourmouthasifitwerehoney,becauseIfanciednowastingloverknewthespot。Butaminuteago,andyouseemedtomelikeafreshspringmeadow——nowyouseemadustyhighway。'

'Ono,no!'Cythereawasnotweakenoughtoshedtearsexceptonextraordinaryoccasions,butshewasfaintobeginsobbingnow。ShewishedMissAldclyffewouldgotoherownroom,andleaveherandhertreasureddreamsalone。Thisvehementimperiousaffectionwasinonesensesoothing,butyetitwasnotofthekindthatCytherea'sinstinctsdesired。Thoughitwasgenerous,itseemedsomewhattoorankandcapriciousforendurance。

'Well,'saidtheladyincontinuation,'whoishe?'

Hercompanionwasdesperatelydeterminednottotellhisname:shetoomuchfearedatauntwhenMissAldclyffe'sfierymoodagainruledhertongue。

'Won'tyoutellme?nottellmeafteralltheaffectionIhaveshown?'

'Iwill,perhaps,anotherday。'

'DidyouwearahatandwhitefeatherinBudmouthfortheweekortwoprevioustoyourcominghere?'

'Yes。'

'ThenIhaveseenyouandyourloveratadistance!Herowedyouroundthebaywithyourbrother。'

'Yes。'

'Andwithoutyourbrother——fie!There,there,don'tletthatlittleheartbeatitselftodeath:throb,throb:itshakesthebed,yousillything。Ididn'tmeanthattherewasanyharmingoingalonewithhim。IonlysawyoufromtheEsplanade,incommonwiththerestofthepeople。IoftenrundowntoBudmouth。Hewasaverygoodfigure:nowwhowashe?'

'I——Iwon'ttell,madam——Icannotindeed!'

'Won'ttell——verywell,don't。Youareveryfoolishtotreasureuphisnameandimageasyoudo。Why,hehashadlovesbeforeyou,trusthimforthat,whoeverheis,andyouarebutatemporarylinkinalongchainofotherslikeyou:whoonlyhaveyourlittledayastheyhavehadtheirs。'

''Tisn'ttrue!'tisn'ttrue!'tisn'ttrue!'criedCythereainanagonyoftorture。'Hehasneverlovedanybodyelse,Iknow——Iamsurehehasn't。'

MissAldclyffewasasjealousasanymancouldhavebeen。Shecontinued——

'Heseesabeautifulfaceandthinkshewillneverforgetit,butinafewweeksthefeelingpassesoff,andhewondershowhecouldhavecaredforanybodysoabsurdlymuch。'

'No,no,hedoesn't——Whatdoeshedowhenhehasthoughtthat——Come,tellme——tellme!'

'Youareashotasfire,andthethrobbingofyourheartmakesmenervous。Ican'ttellyouifyougetinthatflusteredstate。'

'Do,dotell——O,itmakesmesomiserable!buttell——cometellme!'

'Ah——thetablesareturnednow,dear!'shecontinued,inatonewhichmingledpitywithderision——

'“Love'spassionsshallrocktheeAsthestormrockstheravensonhigh,BrightreasonwillmocktheeLikethesunfromawintrysky。“

'Whatdoeshedonext?——Why,thisiswhathedoesnext:ruminateonwhathehasheardofwomen'sromanticimpulses,andhoweasilymentorturethemwhentheyhavegivenwaytothosefeelings,andhaveresignedeverythingfortheirhero。Itmaybethatthoughhelovesyouheartilynow——thatis,asheartilyasamancan——andyoulovehiminreturn,yourlovesmaybeimpracticableandhopeless,andyoumaybeseparatedforever。You,astheweary,wearyyearspassbywillfadeandfade——brighteyesWILLfade——andyouwillperhapsthendieearly——truetohimtoyourlatestbreath,andbelievinghimtobetruetothelatestbreathalso;whilsthe,insomegayandbusyspotfarawayfromyourlastquietnook,willhavemarriedsomedashinglady,andnotpurelyobliviousofyou,willlonghaveceasedtoregretyou——willchataboutyou,asyouwereinlongpastyears——

willsay,“Ah,littleCythereausedtotieherhairlikethat——poorinnocenttrustingthing;itwasapleasantuselessidledream——thatdreamofmineforthemaidwiththebrighteyesandsimple,sillyheart;butIwasafoolishladatthattime。“ThenhewilltellthetaleofallyourlittleWillsandWont'sandparticularways,andashespeaks,turntohiswifewithaplacidsmile。'

'Itisnottrue!Hecan't,hec-can'tbes-socruel——andyouarecrueltome——youare,youare!'Shewasatlastdriventodesperation:hernaturalcommonsenseandshrewdnesshadseenallthroughthepiecehowimaginaryheremotionswere——shefeltherselftobeweakandfoolishinpermittingthemtorise;buteventhenshecouldnotcontrolthem:beagonizedshemust。Shewasonlyeighteen,andthelongday'slabour,herweariness,herexcitement,hadcompletelyunnervedher,andwornherout:shewasbenthitherandthitherbythistyrannicalworkinguponherimagination,asayoungrushinthewind。Sheweptbitterly。'AndnowthinkhowmuchIlikeyou,'resumedMissAldclyffe,whenCythereagrewcalmer。'I

shallneverforgetyouforanybodyelse,asmendo——never。Iwillbeexactlyasamothertoyou。Nowwillyoupromisetolivewithmealways,andalwaysbetakencareof,andneverdeserted?'

'Icannot。Iwillnotbeanybody'smaidforanotherdayonanyconsideration。'

'No,no,no。Youshan'tbealady's-maid。Youshallbemycompanion。Iwillgetanothermaid。'

Companion——thatwasanewidea。Cythereacouldnotresisttheevidentlyheartfeltdesireofthestrange-temperedwomanforherpresence。Butshecouldnottrusttothemoment'simpulse。

'Iwillstay,Ithink。Butdonotaskforafinalanswerto-night。'

'Nevermindnow,then。Putyourhairroundyourmamma'sneck,andgivemeonegoodlongkiss,andIwon'ttalkanymoreinthatwayaboutyourlover。Afterall,someyoungmenarenotsofickleasothers;butevenifhe'stheficklest,thereisconsolation。Theloveofaninconstantmanistentimesmoreardentthanthatofafaithfulman——thatis,whileitlasts。'

Cythereadidasshewastold,toescapethepunishmentoffurthertalk;flungthetwiningtressesofherlong,richhairoverMissAldclyffe'sshouldersasdirected,andthetwoceasedconversing,makingthemselvesupforsleep。MissAldclyffeseemedtogiveherselfovertoaluxurioussenseofcontentandquiet,asifthemaidenathersideaffordedheraprotectionagainstdangerswhichhadmenacedherforyears;shewassoonsleepingcalmly。

2。TWOTOFIVEA。M。

WithCythereaitwasotherwise。Unusedtotheplaceandcircumstances,shecontinuedwakeful,illatease,andmentallydistressed。Shewithdrewherselffromhercompanion'sembrace,turnedtotheotherside,andendeavouredtorelieveherbusybrainbylookingatthewindow-blind,andnoticingthelightoftherisingmoon——nowinherlastquarter——creeprounduponit:itwasthelightofanoldwaningmoonwhichhadbutafewdayslongertolive。

Thesightledhertothinkagainofwhathadhappenedundertheraysofthesamemonth'smoon,alittlebeforeitsfull,theecstaticeveningscenewithEdward:thekiss,andtheshortnessofthosehappymoments——maidenimaginationbringingabouttheapotheosisofastatusquowhichhadhadseveralunpleasantnessesinitsearthlyreality。

Butsoundswereintheascendantthatnight。Herearsbecameawareofastrangeandgloomymurmur。

Sherecognizedit:itwasthegushingofthewaterfall,faintandlow,broughtfromitssourcetotheunwonteddistanceoftheHousebyafaintbreezewhichmadeitdistinctandrecognizablebyreasonoftheutterabsenceofalldisturbingsounds。Thegroom'smelancholyrepresentationlenttothesoundamoredismaleffectthanitwouldhavehadofitsownnature。Shebegantofancywhatthewaterfallmustbelikeatthathour,underthetreesintheghostlymoonlight。Blackatthehead,andoverthesurfaceofthedeepcoldholeintowhichitfell;whiteandfrothyatthefall;

blackandwhite,likeapallanditsborder;sadeverywhere。

Shewasinthemoodforsoundsofeverykindnow,andstrainedherearstocatchthefaintest,inwaywardenmitytoherquietofmind。

Anothersooncame。

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